Adding And Subtracting

Spring. A new beginning. New love. For me, it was a time of busy planning. My birthday is in April. Next came my brother’s. Two weeks later. Ten days after that, my mother’s. Two days later, my daughter’s. 14 days later, my son’s. A week and a half later, my husband’s. Finally, July 4th, my last child. Lots of birthday gifts to buy and cakes to bake. Parties to plan. People to invite. Our lives are sometimes in a whirl wind. Days turn into months, and before we realize it, another birthday has come upon us. Divorce was an unexpected event, which took away one birthday celebration. Kids grow up, marry, have children of their own, adding more birthdays to the calendar. Mom passed away, taking away one birthday, a few years later dad left me also, another birthday gone. So many special days in between these birthdays, made each year fly by so quickly. Now I sit here and I look back at my life, and thank God for all the wonderful memories. Videos run through my mind of my children blowing out their candles, laughing as they tear open their gifts. I switch channels to my parents and grandparents, and can see them in my mind as they carefully unwrap their gifts, trying not to tear the paper or the bow. The smiles on their faces, as they hold each gift up for all to see. I have now built a thick book titled Memories in my mind, and I will treasure it always. Sometimes now, as I sit in my rocker, I rest my head back, close my eyes, and open up memories

The Path You Walk Through

The bride and groom sign the book after their wedding ceremony is complete. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Did you ever take the time to think about your future and where you would be in 30 or 40 years? Did your sweetheart and you talk about all the things you wanted to experience in life? You had your life all planned out. Working at this or that company. Making yourself a name in the community. Your spouse was going to be a stay at home wife and mommy? Was she going to have a career? Where were you going to plant your home? In your home state, or maybe a move hundreds of miles away? How many children did you two plan on having? Did you pick out names? What kind of cars were you going to own? A brand new one and a clunker for a spare? One car? What kind of house did you dream about owning? One story, two? One car or two car garage? Did you talk about money? Decide which one of you was the better saver? I imagine you planned out where you were going to place your savings too. Did you ever plan on anything unexpected happening in your life? What would you do? How would you make it work. Did you think about how you would feel if one day you woke up and didn’t feel well, and the doctor is telling you that you have MS, or  maybe a type of cancer?  Did you take into consideration the vow, for better for worse, for richer or poorer? Did you ever ponder on how you would feel if you became the only bread-winner? I didn’t. I was full of dreams. Romance was all I could see when I was young. Spending every moment together. Waking up and going to bed with him or her beside me. Fairy tales. That is how I lived. Forever and ever, til death us do part. God allows us  to build character, and back bone through many mistakes and choices we make in our lives. He prepares us for our future, whether we realize it or not. What I do today, was never in my plan. I never thought about life moving forward, unwanted changes taking place. The loss of jobs, parents, children growing up, illnesses, is what has made me strong today. I am strong enough to care for my brother. I am able to make sure he is safe and secure. Without my realizing, God carved out my path in my life, giving me all the experience he knew I would need one day. Thank you Lord, for allowing me to be a blessing to another child of yours.

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Adding And Subtracting

Candles spell out the traditional English birthday greeting (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Spring. A new beginning. New love. For me, it was a time of busy planning. My birthday is in April. Next came my brother’s. Two weeks later. Ten days after that, my mother’s. Two days later, my daughter’s. 14 days later, my son’s. A week and a half later, my husband’s. Finally, July 4th, my last child. Lots of birthday gifts to buy and cakes to bake. Parties to plan. People to invite. Our lives are sometimes in a whirl wind. Days turn into months, and before we realize it, another birthday has come upon us. Divorce was an unexpected event, which took away one birthday celebration. Kids grow up, marry, have children of their own, adding more birthdays to the calendar. Mom passed away, taking away one birthday, a few years later dad left me also, another birthday gone. So many special days in between these birthdays, made each year fly by so quickly. Now I sit here and I look back at my life, and thank God for all the wonderful memories. Videos run through my mind of my children blowing out their candles, laughing as they tear open their gifts. I switch channels to my parents and grandparents, and can see them in my mind as they carefully unwrap their gifts, trying not to tear the paper or the bow. The smiles on their faces, as they hold each gift up for all to see. I have now built a thick book titled Memories in my mind, and I will treasure it always. Sometimes now, as I sit in my rocker, I rest my head back, close my eyes, and open up memories.

Who I am

HOME

She had wondered all day not knowing where she was but knew she was going home. Things had changed. More buildings, some torn down, more lights. The sky was growing dusk as the sun was beginning its journey beneath the trees. She had been walking what seemed like for hours and she was starting to feel a chill underneath her grey sweater. She should have dressed warmer she thought. She didn’t remember it being this cold in October. As she sat on the bench, resting her weary legs, she looked around her noticing leaves drifting to no where, gently landing on the ground. She remembered the beautiful colors and how as a child she would spin around with arms wide open trying to catch as many leaves as she could before she fell to the ground from spinning. Oh, she had wonderful memories of her childhood. She could remember mama…

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