40 Freaking Years?


In the top picture of course I am the little girl at five years old when my dad and step-mother got married. My mom told me years later, that each gift they opened, I sat in my chair and kept saying let me see it, let me see it!

In the choir photo I am in the third row up, second from the left, in grade nine. Look at that flip on my hair ends. This was produced from rolling on huge rollers then sleeping on them each night. I would never attempt this today, I want to feel that fluffy pillow calling my name.

The bottom photo is me today. I don’t know what to think about it. I have produced three great children, worked in burger joints, worked for the telephone company as a phone operator, worked in retail stores and grocery stores at seasonal times, and worked as a mommy also. I owned my own antique business for several years, refinishing antique furniture. I have been a professional caregiver for over 20 years, caring for strangers and family. Today, I still care for family and also write.

Tomorrow evening I am going to my 40th class reunion. I have never attended any before so this is my first. I am really being shy, knowing I have gained weight, am a divorced woman, and do not have a so-called career. What am I going to talk about? Do I have anything to say besides caring for Al? Will anyone find my life interesting enough to hang around and chat for a while? Will they look at my name tag and stand back in shock because I am not the smaller version of me with no tum-tum?

I am really nervous, but I have to go. I may not be around for the next one, and I really do want to see old friends, and besides, I have a caregiver expected to be here so I can have time for myself. Now let’s kick my butt and head me towards that door!

69 thoughts on “40 Freaking Years?

  1. Go, have a fantastic time, don’t worry about what anyone else thinks, and just be yourself. Because you are a fantastic human being, Mother, friend, and caregiver. It’s a night to have fun so do it! Besides, you are beautiful…..

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  2. Yep… I’ll do that…. boot!!! Did you feel it?
    That was me kickin’ your butt… ouch!!!
    Go, have fun…
    The best way to avoid talking is to ask lots of questions: Most people just luv to talk ’bout themselves….
    Saying – “How do you feel about that” – is a great conversation extender… haha…
    Have fun and be yourself – A caregiver is a great career…!

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  3. Ok…for what it’s worth..I’m NOT going to the reunion for very much the same reasons. I’m a lot heavier than 40 years ago. I work, but no career. I’m widowed and still haven’t gotten to the point of being comfortable going places by myself. I have one daughter but no grandchildren…and I’m sorry, but I really don’t want to hear about theirs! And I feel like I have nothing to talk about to anyone either. I have gone to other reunions and they were fine, but I unless someone is there that I REALLY want to see? Not worth it for me. I do hope you go and have fun…then report back to me! LOL!

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    • i am exactly like you are. heavier than forty years ago, work but no career. i do have children, but …………….my chat consists of care of my brother, but………i may be at the age that i would not make it to the next one, and for this reason only, i am forcing myself to go, and i will let you know tomorrow the outcome!!!

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  4. Good for you..you need to get out and remember times and people before and that you are a person in your own right and not only Al’s sister and caregiver….That’s a very important part of who you are but not the totality….Diane

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    • i guess i forget that i am a person also. i always consider myself Al’s sister and caregiver. i am going to try very hard to walk in those front doors with a smile. thanks for the boost of confidence Diane!

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  5. Go and have a wonderful time – my husband went to his 40th reunion a few years ago and kept saying what do we talk about, I don’t know them anymore…well, lets say he turned into a new person, he actually mingled!! πŸ˜‰ To this day he still calls, occasionally sends emails (he doesn’t email) to his friends. And I found a new friend in one of his classmates, we have become “bosom buddies”! πŸ˜‰ You will dazzle them with the woman you became! By the way for my 2 cents worth, you look terrific and personally I think a successful life with only a few bumps in the road. Can’t wait to hear all about it. It sounds like you will have all of us with you in our prayers! Blessings – Patty

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    • wow, that your husband had a great time and u made a new friend, is reason enough for me to go. your husband was like me, what do i say now??? thanks for this much needed encouragement!!!!

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  6. Terry, I totally understand your trepidation about going to your reunion. I would feel the same way. In fact, this summer was mine and my husbands 30th reunions and we did not go. Now I wish we had because since then one of his best friends from his high school years passed away.
    Just keep a couple of things in mind. First of all, I PROMISE you that they have all changed as well. Sure, there may be some of the women who are still small, but it’s because they DON”T EAT!! LOL And there will be those that are going to look down their noses at you, but that’s okay! Because you are not there to impress anyone. You are there to revisit some old friendships, reminisce about old times, and have a good time FOR YOURSELF!! No matter what anyone else thinks of you, you are very much liked by your followers here. (Gee, if that doesn’t make it sound like you are a cult leader of some sort! HAHAHAHA!!!) Most importantly, you are a child of God, and HE LOVES YOU!!!
    Go to your reunion and have a wonderful time. Look yourself in the mirror and tell yourself how beautiful you are, because you are!! Know how I know this, other than the beautiful pic of yourself, God don’t like ugly!! So you know you are beautiful since He loves you!!
    Have a great time and come back with lots of stories to tell!!
    Love in Christ,
    Judy

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    • no cults here i promise!! LOL, but on the serious side, you are giving me many good reasons I should go. what you said about not going and wished you would have is the reason I have used all this time to force myself. i WILL go, u have talked me into it because i am not ugly, i am god’s child………..thank you

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  7. Oh, Terry…I’m going to be doing the same thing in October…my 45th… We all feel the same way…and of course we’ve changed …I too feel a little over-welmed, but will probably go…because I’m nosey…Just get out there and have a great time…Maybe you’ll meet someone from the past you had a crush on…or vice-versa…get all decked out and go!

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