Al refused to go to bed last night. He instead wanted to sit in his recliner with his glasses
off, and his open Bible on his lap. It was midnight then, and I don’t feel comfortable with me going to bed, at least knowing he is safely in bed.
I waited until about one am and then went in and asked him if we could please get into bed, that I was so tired. He still refused. I got his bed all ready for him and walked out here and turned all the lights off and sat here at the computer, playing a silly quiet game, and then within about a ten minute range, he did get into bed by himself, and turned his television on and his lights off.
Wow, I thought, was this to show me he was still independent or what? I had a half-smile on my face, as I shut the game off and went to my room. Prayers and God covered me up and after six hours of uninterrupted sleep, I awoke this morning, feeling brighter and refreshed.
I started my coffee being ever so much like a sneaky mouse as Al was still sleeping and I didn’t want to wake him. I went to my room again and placed the much-needed call to the local family doctor. I explained how yesterday went and taking him to the mental health hospital, and what the doctor did by coming in to actually talk to me and Al. I explained that I was in agreement with this doctor, that the goal was to have Al in comfort care from now on and as pain-free as possible. I even explained about Al’s thought process on dying and how he planned to make it happen.
I told the nurse all that was on my mind and I was firm about what I was saying, and she said, I will give the message to the doctor, what is your phone number, and he is not in today, so you will maybe hear from us late today or tomorrow. I said thank-you, have a great day, and we hung up. Now, we, Alvin and I are doing the waiting game of the phone to ring.
Al got up this morning, and came out to the kitchen and said his toes were hurting so bad. He asked me to look at them, and of course, I can see nothing with the naked eye. Then he smiled and said he had prayed the hardest he had ever prayed, and he got an answer. I said what was the answer. He stated that God told him this morning when he got up, that his wait was over. He could go to heaven now. I said, well we shall just have to wait and see won’t we bud, and he shook his head with a big grin.
The therapist came over later, and he told her all about his big answer and he was grinning from ear to ear. She started crying and I joined in, and Al asked us both, why are you crying, this is good news!
Now we are both waiting for the phone to ring, and to see if God is speaking to Al or if Al is wishing so hard.
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What an amazing story! God bless
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Thank you Tyler. thank you for coming by and giving me a great comment!
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Keep doing everything you have to to make him comfortable, but let everything to God’s plan. If Al is content with God’s message, just let it be. The only thing is that he lets God decide. Hugs!!!
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This is what I am doing. I have not questioned him and have not told him this is not true. Who am I? I am not God. For all we know this may be true.
Thank you for a very wise comment!!!
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Lots of love and strength to you my dear.
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ivonne
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thank you Ivonne, the waiting is always the worst part, right?
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has anyone told you how cute your profile is and how sweet of a lady you are? if not, let me be the one to say so today…………….hugs
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lol…thank you, I took that picture right before going in to do a face painting job in my clown outfit—it’s a work picture…and thank you for saying I am sweet–I have a couple of ex’s that would say otherwise, as I do have a temper as well–hmnn let’s just call that part fiesty and passionate…
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xoxoxo
ivonne
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well i see your heart, and that is all that matters to me, the ex’s don’t count now do they??? LOL
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Here’s hoping the Doc listens! I’m glad you got a little rest yourself!
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me too! I felt so much better getting six hours of sleep instead of a few!!!! i hope that dr. listens also. i would hate to have to punch him in the noseLOL
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ahaha! go girl punch him if you need to 😉
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Be proud of all you have done so far. You deserve to be.
I’m so glad you got a hug, You deserve that too.
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thanks Elaine. it feels good to have someone here giving me support, plus all of you in blogger world. I am so blessed!
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You are wonderful. The care you give your brother is amazing and I wish he could see without the clouds of pain and PD just how much you do for him.
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i admit a thank you would be nice to hear once, but i understand it all, so never expect anything. i am here to help him get through this. thank you Elaine
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Hi thank you for adding my link to this wonderful post!
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you are so welcome!!!
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I hope the doctor gives you guys what Al needs. Atleast you both got some rest last evening, and perhaps you’ll have another decent bit of sleep tonight as well. Until then, waiting for that phone call along with you <3<3<3
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just received the phone call and we have been now referred to a pain management doctor, appointment is not until 11-28, a long ways off
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I can truly appreciate Al’s thinking. It would be dreadful to be in his position. I think that just accepting his attitude would benefit you enormously, Terry. I’m sure that if the tables were reversed you would probably feel as Al does. Terribly, terribly sad, and yet understandable….!
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yes i would feel as he does and i can not imagine his pain. when we have pain we fix it, when he is in pain it is not fixable. i feel so bad for him, but i can not let him try to do something foolish
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Of course not..!
You have done more than anyone could expect.
Sure takes a lot of heart, and a lot of guts… All credit to you, Terry…
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thank you so much, this is very kind of you to say………….hugs Carolyn!
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Whatever happens next, I’m sure God is on Al’s side, and yours.
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the family doctor isn’t that good with high level medications so now we are waiting once again. a new appointment for 11-28 has been scheduled for a pain management clinic
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I guess you are still waiting – argh!
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as always………….
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What an anxious wait for you.
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it is too long considering he is wanting death now!!! just my opinion, but who am I compared to the health system, right?
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Hopefully his big “answer” from God will take his mind off of trying to determine himself his time to die. At least it made him smile, and that has to be a plus. So glad you finally got a good sleep.
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normally i don’t believe in sleeping your life a way, but in Al’s case sleeping is a help to both of us. hugs to you Diane
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Anything Al wants to believe that brings him peace and a smile on his face is good thing, right? Prayers for you to have the strength you need to cope,
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I usually just let Al believe whatever he wishes, unless I think it could harm him. Who am I to judge, right?
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