Daily Prompt: Revisionist History


Go back in time to an event you think could have played out differently for you. Let alternate history have its moment: tell us what could, would or should have

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happened?

 

How many times have we sat with our best friend and went back in time and talked about the what ifs? I have done it and I am sure we all have. We can not change our past, this is definitely true, but we can learn from our past mistakes and decisions.

For me, I would have been a better character in decisions. I was a person who let others influence me, instead of sticking with what was best for me. I had plans, big plans, to go to college to become a physical therapist.

I knew even back in high school,that I was a woman  that wanted to help others. I wanted to make others lives better, by helping them to see that tomorrow was going to be a better day, if they could just get through this one day.

When you are in high school, you think you have all of the answers, or some of us did. Others did have a plan and stuck to it, and today, we see their name in the papers where they have become what they dreamed about, but for me I had plans, plus the need to be loved.

I don’t regret marrying, not at all, but I regret, marrying when I did. I had a whole life ahead of me, so what was the rush? If it is true love, it can with stand the wait of schooling, but I could not or did not want to see it this way.

The heart took over and the love became bigger than my goal. I thought I could go to school after being married, and today, when I look back, I could have done that, maybe, but before I knew it, one child came, then two, then finally the third arrived.

A busy mommy and a want to be a perfect wife, pushed my goal of having a career to the back burner. Now, I am middle-aged, my kids are grown and now Al is not living here, and I have nothing to bounce back on. Yes, I am a caregiver, but it does not bring the dollar amount that a professional would, and when we get older, we need a good dollar to keep up with our hurting bodies, and a good retirement, so we don’t have to stress out so much about whether we are going to be able to live until the golden years arrive.

So in finalizing this question, I wish I had kept strong about what I wanted in life, and kept things in their proper order. I would not stress so much as I do today, wondering where I am going to end up in ten years.

20 thoughts on “Daily Prompt: Revisionist History

  1. i think we have all talked about what ifs… if i could redo things im not so sure that i would take a different route.. i probably would make the same ol mistakes, stressing and worrying myself half to death as i did before..

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    • you have made a good point, because, even though I wished I would have waited for marriage, there are some things we can’t change about our genes, and today, i still stress and worry, so maybe i would have with a career also, meeting deadlines, interacting with co-workers we don’t care for etc. lol

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  2. terry1954, I recently wrote a short story on just this topic! What was funny was that I wondered what would have happened if I’d stayed in rural southeast Texas instead of going off to college and leaving my family behind me because I wanted to be able to live my life as a lesbian away from them. You know, we all make the choices we do for a lot of different reasons but none of us have the luxury of re-doing them back in time. I guess we have to start with the results of all those old choices and try to make new ones with the wisdom we have from the old ones. That is, if we have any wisdom from the old ones!! 🙂 Don’t be too hard on yourself. You were young and in love, and that’s not such a bad thing after all.

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    • no you are right. the prompt forced me to go back in time and find an error i made and this was a change in plans, but basicly, i m happy with how my life turned out, but it is the truth that i worry about what will happen to me. I didn’t work a lot for companies, so don’t have the goodies that others have built through their life. i hope that one day i am not homeless, with all the government changes

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  3. You would have been a terrible physiotherapist – the truth is you are far too lovely all he physio’s I have ever met have a slightly rauthless streak that makes them able to keep pushing you while you protest the pain – I think you would have been a better nurse xxx

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    • thanks Paula! I have actually started nursing twice, and each time Al would end up in the hospital too long and I would drop out. now they have changed the law here for nursing and you have to go for four to six years, it just started recently. I am now too old but have the compassion, which came free in my genes. thanks again Paula!!!

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  4. I think that all the bad choices we made and wrong decisions we made – we would be very dull and plain without, they are what put color to us – just like the good choices we made. They are a part of our color palette. Regrets, hardly any – but there is things I wish I did differently, but I didn’t and I have accept.
    I’m a caring person, tried “nursing” (worked on hospital) – not a chance I would be able to do that for a living. Would have carried all the problems with me home.

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