Daily Prompt; All About Me/The Daily Post


Barbie

Explain why you chose your blog’s title and what it means to you.

My blog title. Hmm interesting. When I started this blog it was the first time I ever had written for a blog of any kind. I wrote and scribbled through my years. I never let anyone see it. I didn’t think it was good enough to show others. I didn’t want to be laughed at for being such an emotional clutz.

I have always been a shy person when I first meet a new person. I have always been the wallflower when in big gatherings. It takes me awhile to warm up but then watch out. I can be full of laughter with plenty of jokes.

Well that is the way I used to be anyways. Al being sick and the caregiver in me being tested daily has saddened me around the edges. I was thinking last night as I was picking out the clothes I would wear today to go see Al how quiet it has been here the past two weeks.

You all know I have suffered from bronchitis. I had two phone calls in two weeks from friends. Other phone calls were telemarketing or Al’s facility. There was a period of time that I was afraid. Afraid because I was not getting better. Afraid I would die here at home and wondering how many days it would take someone to find me.

I guess I am still a little bit of a wallflower. I am not aggressive when I go out into public. I smile a lot. It is a nice cover-up for feeling awkward in starting a conversation. I worry too much about my looks. I don’t have the Barbie doll figure, but I never did. I think too often that men want those skinnie Minnie girls so I shy away.

Through a program of Medicare called Ticket to Work, I may be able to go back to work part-time. I have started the process and am waiting for more information. This would be good for me. The  problem is that the place I may be able to work for will place me right back into care giver, and right up there on top with the mentally challenged and disabled.

Can I do it? Yes, but emotionally, I wonder. I have been through so much with Al I just am not sure if I can continue on with other cases, plus stay in close connection with Al at his facility. Keep up with his needs and care plan meetings and visits.

Sometimes I just want a fun job. One where people are laughing and talking and the work is on the light side instead of the emotional roller coaster ride. Wow, I have side-tracked here. So sorry about that.

Returning back to the prompt, I named my main WP site Terry1954. I wanted people to know that I had a name. I was real. Many times people do not know whether I am male or female because of the spelling of my name, but I guarantee I am female. I added the year of my birth, so you all had an idea of what age group my thoughts were coming from.

18 thoughts on “Daily Prompt; All About Me/The Daily Post

  1. I like this a lot … especially the part – that you wanted people to know you have a name. Excellent. I chose mine because I have a naught and cheeky mind *smile
    I hope of all my heart that you will get a chance to get a job and do something you want to do.
    My thoughts are with you in this.

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      • It would be fantastic for you – but are you sure about the caring .. bit – because with your soft big heart and soul, you will bring all their problems with you home. Of course you should try it out – but it’s a heavy job both psychical and mentally.

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      • that is what i mean. I don’t know if I m mentally ready to go back to being a caregiver. it is so mentally challenging. i am already doing my best in dealing with Al, but I have very few options

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  2. You must remember you have a spirit that refuses to give up on life regardless of what life throws at you…not everyone is so brave and has the courage to leave a comfort zone to change and grow. Good for you.

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    • thank you Diane. Do you understand how difficult it will be to walk back into care of people just like Al? I think people will say hey a job is a job, but for me I share my time with Al and care plans and doing what needs to be done for him plus the emotional drama of his illness and then on top of it go to work with others like him

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