Odd


lonely

Some days I just don’t know what is wrong with me. Today is one of them. For the last two hours I have been reading posts and writing my own but……..underneath it all I am on the verge of tears. I feel heavy in my heart with sadness. I have no idea why.

I have sat here a few times and looked in the mirror and plastered a smile on my face but it doesn’t look like me. I had a good day, a little mind-boggling but good. So what is my deal? I have the most wonderful blogging friends. I have great kids, but yet I feel so empty and alone tonight. I even have my American Idol on and very oddly for me I am not following it like I usually do.

I thought if I spit this out and read what I wrote I would see the problem, but I still don’t.

65 thoughts on “Odd

  1. It happens sometimes but the crux of the matter is, don’t allow it become a permanent feature. You can bluff your way through! Think about all the good things in your life, your health for one, kids, you’re not homeless or living in a war-torn country like Congo or Iraq just to mention a few!
    You can shake it off dear friend!!
    Blessings! 🙂

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  2. I am so sorry you feel that away and I hope you do not think that I am a Jesus freak but I have found that He helps me and fills all my needs. Sure I have times that I feel down or lonely but when I do I just say a little prayer and ask Him to help me and He does. I will keep you in my prayers.

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    • I in no way think you are a Jesus freak. I live for Jesus. I just get these moments and it started when I had to place my brother in a nursing home. I can usually talk myself out of it. I have to admit I have not prayed about it, because I think I should knock it out of me myself. I have the whole world and yet this tinge of sadness

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      • I do understand that you feel you need to handel it your self but our Lord wants us to call on Him for every thing and He does mean every thing. God speed my brother.

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  3. I think you miss Al. You’re tired. And you have a lot of Information to process. That is all so draining. Im sure you feel a bit guilty since you have always been Al’s caretaker. Not that you have anything to feel guilty for, but it’s natural because he’s going through a rough patch. Just know in your heart that you are doing the very best for him. And remember to be gentle with yourself. Xxxooo

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  4. Hi Terry! I understand where your coming from as this happens to me too! I have everything and yet some days feel I have nothing. It’s something inside of me that I call, broken! Even though I am Bipolar and have to live with this, it does pass! I hug you and hope today your okay! Hugs Paula xx

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  5. My doctor told me many years ago that caregivers of persons with Alzheimer’s typically suffered depression themselves and began to prescribe anti-depressants for me when I experienced symptoms of depression. I think you might want to tell your doctor about your feelings to see if you could use some medications to help you through these difficult times with your brother. Just a thought.

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  6. Oh, dear. I felt the same the last few days and what I experienced is that I’ve never felt myself like this before my menopauze. So I think it’s not only the empty nest syndrome, but also the aftermath of the hormones. Today I feel much better, otherwise I couldn’t have written this, but it’s always a fight to get out of this deep-down-thing and sometimes I’m tired of fighting too..sigh.. but a hug and a smile do wonders, so here’s a big hug and a 🙂 from me to you and a pawkiss from Little Binky 🙂

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    • aw bless your heart. hugs and knowing people care do wonders for me. I just feel guilty that I have to turn to my blogging friends letting them know how I feel. I wish I could do it all on my own. I should be stronger but I am tired

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      • You are strong, Terry, by asking help and we’re all here to help you. I think that’s what I like so much of this community, that we help each other, everybody in his own way. So please don’t feel guilty, it’s better to do this with help, than alone and tomorrow everything will look different again and maybe the sun will shine again.. I can need some sunbeams too.. if not, I’ll be here to “listen”. Take care, my friend 🙂

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  7. Terry , sometimes it happens , to me too and I think I am too emotional as well, but I don’t think that is bad. We are human and have emotions and sometimes we cannot control it so let it go and flow, sometimes we don’t even have a reason for it. Give you a big hug and a comforting shoulder if you like. With love Ute x

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  8. sometimes in the midst of everything we are lonely — it is a spot where we must think about where we are and where we want to be; it is also a place I do not like to visit often, but it comes uninvited; it is a place we I am always relieved to leave; perhaps we need the contrast to make us happier when we are no longer lonely

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  9. I’m sorry you feel that way 😦 I’ve felt like that in the past, while my husband was working in Afghanistan. I would sit and stare somewhere for hours, and not even realize that much time had gone by. I hope it’s just a little phase

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  10. Aw Terry! You need to change your routine. You are in a rut! Try doing something different. Go somewhere new. And don’t feel bad about shedding a tear or too! It really good to do from time to time. It releases stress too!

    We love you sweetie!
    Michelle

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  11. Sometimes it’s hard to pinpoint exactly what it is that is bothering you. There would be times in my life in particular where my wife would ask me what’s wrong and my reply would be nothing, even though there was something wrong, I just couldn’t figure out what it was. It could be a glut of things that are finally bubbling their way to the surface, or it could be just “one of those days”. Hang in there and you’ll figure it out!

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    • I am not sure what it was. the next day I felt better. I know that without wanting to I bring my brothers feelings home with me when I go visit him. This may be what it was. thank you so much for a kind comment!

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    • Hi Brian!!!! Thankfully that mood was short lived. It’s a new day and I have a good outlook once again. I do hate those moments but it helps to get it out in the open and move on. Thanks for always being a great friend

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