Tin Soldier


Standing Tall

Who is this stranger

In front of me

The one with

The wicked tongue to see

I do not know this person

He is not like before

I want the man I remember

The one I knew before.

The Parkinson’s Disease

Has changed his attitude

Please understand

This guy this dude.

I can not fix it

I don’t have the answers to why

He used to be full of

Laughter and a little shy.

Please don’t ask me more

I have done this for myself

My questions now remain

Over there on a shelf.

I swear he isn’t trying

To be mean and very rude

I promise you

He would rather smile at you.

All I can really say

Is that Parkinson’s is a ball

Of mixed emotions

Being bounced on the walls.

Bud I don’t understand

This I do admit

But I will stick beside you

No matter who’s tossing shit.

Terry Shepherd

04/06/2013

17 thoughts on “Tin Soldier

  1. You should be a rapper … with a poem like this, very suitable .. short senescent and rhythmic.
    I wish I could … be there more for you. Even if you don’t understand .. you are there for him, maybe you should not try to understand so much … just try to accept it for what its. It is going to be even harder for you when he move back home with you. I don’t think there is any answers … its illness that don’t give answers to us.

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    • you are right Viveka. This dementia part of Parkinsons is very hard to figure out. I just know he forgets and his personality changes and then he bounces back to himself for a while. Now if I can get the nursing home to understand he is not being mean on purpose

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      • That is the thing and I can’t understand why they don’t see that by themselves, you don’t have to be a science to figure that out and they must had patient before with similar illnesses. He get frustrated and that is when he loses his temper too. It’s some burden you have, girlfriend and you should have all support you need.

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      • That is the thing and I can’t understand why they don’t see that by themselves, you don’t have to be a science to figure that out and they must had patient before with similar illnesses. He get frustrated and that is when he loses his temper too. It’s some burden you have, girlfriend and you should have all support you need.

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  2. I am with viveka on this one, he is ill and the pain and the disease I am sure is what is causing the change. My hubs has alzeheimers and the first time he got hateful with me I cried for a full day …he didn’t understand and the more I tried to explain the worse it got so now when he is mean in his speech to me I just cringe but accept and try not to let him know how it hurts because it is not his fault it is the disease. Love and hugs my friend (((xx)))

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    • the nursing home is documenting on Al when he is mouthy now. I understand how it hurts to hear someone you love being rude. But you seem to realize he can’t help it, so this is the big step. Stepping back is what I have to do and then go back to Al when he is calmer

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      • tepping bck and realizing i tis not their fault is all one can do. I know my hubs would never talk to me that way if it wasn’t for the disease. At least the home is doing something but I would rather they do something in the positive genre than the negative. 😦

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      • it scares me Len that they will try to kick him out of there before I get the approval from the State. I did let the State know that I suspect some things and about the falls and bruises. She is doing an emergency on Al to get him out as soon as possible and home

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