The 24 Hour Kid In Me

English: Off road gas golf cart.

I did something last night I have not done in so long. I laughed so hard I almost peed my pants. My son and his family came down a bit before dark. We lit a campfire and everyone but me made  smores. It was so much fun to watch the kids light their marshmallows and burn them. Watching them go up in flames made the four-year old giggle until he tasted the charred. Then he didn’t care for it much and gave the roasting stick to his Mom.

We chatted and laughed for a couple of hours. Most of the time my mind darted to Al and wondered how he was doing that evening. It wasn’t as if I hadn’t seen him lately. I had seen him actually that day at noon.

For some reason I feel guilty when I am laughing. I know that he is sad and depressed, so how dare me know this and put the sadness aside for a while. I couldn’t help but get involved with the innocence of kids and join in when they laughed.

After a while I did something else I had never done. I let my son talk me into a midnite ride with his family through our addition on a golf cart. Now I have to be honest, there really wasn’t room for me. I begged not to go, partially because I forgot how to have fun, and I knew that only one butt cheek of mine was going to fit comfortably. My son and his g/f scooted close together and then I gave in and took a seat.

Oh my gosh, the smell of wood burning and the fresh air must have turned me back into my childhood. As we rode through the fresh air, I could feel breeze hitting my cheeks. I felt free. Free from the world, free from problems. Free from myself. We rode all around and every time I turned around I heard my name,”Grandma”.

It was awesome. I was connecting with young people. I am not usually good at that, but for this night I was. Seeing their innocent faces, their unrehearsed laughter, listening to all they wanted to tell me, engulfed me with what I have craved for so long. A family, one of my kids and their kids. It was Over the River and Through The Woods to Grandmother’s House We go. But there was no snow, nor coats, hats and boots.

Today we celebrated my youngest son’s birthday. It is actually the 29th, but that is a work day so we had a cook out today. My son smoked chicken and steak with mushrooms on the smoker.

His g/f made home-made mashed potatoes and macaroni and cheese. There was also fresh green beans and fresh corn. I  provided a relish tray with dip, a Birthday cake, complete with ice-cream{Birthday Party Cupcake Flavor}, nuts, whip cream and Hershey’s chocolate. After all that we still chowed, well the little ones more than me. I have to watch my sugars. But they chowed down on home-made banana graham cracker pudding.

It wasn’t an hour after we cleaned up the kitchen the kids were back at eating again. How do they do that and where do they put it?

After their tummies were finally full we pulled the badminton set out from last summer and set it up. We all played and laughed hysterically as we each missed the hit. I have not laughed so long and so hard for many months. My cheek muscles were sore from smiling so much. My stomach hurt from laughing.

I just know that for me, it was the best 24 hours I have spent in I don’t know when. Don’t worry Bud I will be there tomorrow. A regular day once again, a regular routine for the week.

We Will Know

Are any of you waiting, yearning, hoping, trying to pass it off as a fleeting thought? Do you lay at night, hugging your pillow? Do tears ignore you and continue to fall? Are you glad when morning arrives and the hustle and bustle of another routine day…

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Daily Prompt; Switcheroo, DP, Daily Prompt

If you could switch blogs with any blogger for a week, with whom would you switch and why?

No one likes being left out entirely. We can smile, and say, It’s ok, I couldn’t have come anyways. Don’t worry, I didn’t think anything about it.

This is one of those times where DP wants me to pick out someone special. I can’t do that. Do you know why? Because we are all unique. We each bring something to the table that another person needs.

I can say a few things about some bloggers. This is the closest I can come. I may not remember each one of you. Part of this I will lay blame on my age, and the other part is because I have new followers that I haven’t had a good chance to know and mingle with yet.


Ute,  has the most compassionate heart and soul. She is so upbeat and positive. She picks me up from the pits of hell and helps me rise to where I need to be.

Rob Barkman

Rob, my dear friend Rob. He is such an inspiration to me. His blog brings a lesson to me daily. He helps me through his words to remember I am such a lucky woman to be living today.


This blogger always reminds me that I am not alone. When I am suffering from not believing I have anything to offer, she shows me I am worthy.


I have never heard a bad remark or a down day for Yoshiko. She reminds me to watch my tongue and say  kind words each day.


My dear Michelle, I swear that she and I are unknown sisters. We share so many thoughts that are the same.


I have learned through Cat that through thick and thin, poor and wealth, we are rich in the Lord.


My dear Angel is sometimes what I really think, my angel. She know just the right words to say, no matter how I am feeling.


This dear blogger friend of mine has been following me for many months. I don’t know what I would do without her wit and upbeat words. She can make me laugh, and cheer me on. She is always here.


Dear Debbie, I don’t hear a lot of words, but the few she speaks to me are so inspirational. She is truly  one of God‘s children.

Vicki (from Victoria A Photography)

Vicki and I have shared many chats between the keys. She is a wonderful, and warm person. I relate to her so easily.

Heather Mertens @ 40YearWanderer x

When I think of God and how I want to live, I think of Heather. She is a newer blogger friend to me, but has left a deep imprint in my heart.

Mona Gustafson Affinito

Mona is someone I met moons ago. I always look up to her. She is quite a lady. Anytime she gives me positive comments, I sit up a little straighter.


Alastair is my rock. He is a friend that we always need in our lives. I really don’t know what I would do if he disappeared out of my life.

Dr. Johnny. Velazquez

Johnny and I met through Linkedin. He is marvelous. Full of strength and appreciation of life.

Rusha Sams

When I think of Rusha, I get jealous but not with green eyes, but with bright eyes and the knowledge that she lives where I would love to be, in the great state of TN


Seeker is one who always mystifies me. I don’t know a lot about him, but he reads my blog a lot and then surprises me with great praise.

babyjill7…Marilyn Griffin x

Dear friend Marilyn. She is the kindest soul. I will never forget her and her husband. They came and met with me and Al. She gave Al a hat that was coca cola and he still clings to it today. She will never know the impact she has made on Al and my life.


It took me a while to get to know Cheryl. I really liked her at first, but I saw that my strength in God was not it should be. Because I let the door of my soul open, she has taught me to trust God and myself. She has shown me that I am worthy of taking up space.

lenwilliamscarver x

What can I say about my dear friend Len. From the very beginning we hit it off. If I didn’t have her to email and talk to, life would be emptier.

Sheila Morris

I love Sheila. She has the most astounding blog. All about her life and her pets. I so much enjoy the cute way she speaks in her posts and I admire her love for life and people, and of course her dogs.


I will never be able to think of Catnip without remembering the honor she bestowed me by having me as a guest on her blog. I will be forever grateful to her.


Becky and I have known each other for a while. She is opposite from me. I am a chatterbox and she is more quiet, but watch out, because when she comments I always end up smiling

Patty B

Patty means the world to me. She has suffered in her own life and yet always finds time for me. I always look up to her courage and strength and the faith she has in God

viveka x

Viveka, Vivi, I don’t know what I would do without her. She has taught me so much about cooking and experimenting with foods. I have learned a whole new world of music. We have spoken through Skype. She has sent Al special coca cola cards. I feel like I could go see her in person and we would just go take our cameras and shoot pictures and then find a great little place to dine at. Love you Vivi!

Lady Lovely

Lady is a newer blogger friend in my life. Her heart is full of life and love and very upbeat


Brian is one of the nicest male friends a girl could ask for, I swear it’s true. Very upbeat and a loving family man.


I can’t explain it, but there has been a soul connection with this wonderful blogger since the first day I met him. I just love the way he thinks


Dear sweet Julie. I connected with her through a friend here at WP. Her husband and my brother suffer from Parkinson’s Disease. It was love at first words for this woman. My heart is always with her in her struggles with Ants and life


Buck as I have called her for so long and I connect because she and I share some past that are common to each other. She is a fighter for a fair life.

Tilly Bud – The Laughing Housewife

If I need a laugh or a funny joke, this is where I head

My friend Jo. I can’t find you anywhere, your link. I don’t know what happened, but you know that Parkinson’s brought you and I together. Thank-you for so many chats and phone calls. You are definitely my Louise.

This is not all of my friends, but I have run out of space. Anyone that is not mentioned, do not be offended. You are very important to me in my

We Will Know

Are any of you waiting, yearning, hoping, trying to pass it off as a fleeting thought? Do you lay at night, hugging your pillow? Do tears ignore you and continue to fall? Are you glad when morning arrives and the hustle and bustle of another routine day arrive?

Do you ever feel like you are too old? That life has left a void in your heart? Or maybe you had prior chances and blew it, so this is the price you  pay for tomorrows?

What is love

But a cozy feeling

A tender kiss

A wink from him

A smile from her

Mores codes

Body signals

Reading each

Others eyes

Falling in bed

At night

Knowing the

Other pillow

Is occupied

An arm over

Your arm, heat

Keeping you warm

A text saying

I love you

And thinking

I was with you

I don’t pray about it like I used to. I do carry with me a hope that my time is not up. That I can find my Adam, and you can find your Eve. God sees no time, no weeks nor months. We must never give up entirely for what our hearts desire.

We were not meant to live alone, but yet we adjust. No one sees the emptiness deep inside our souls. We are able to laugh and express our thoughts, but we keep this one door locked, only opening it to the one who looks into our eyes.

As we pass each

Other on the street

Arms brush against

Each other, hairs

Stand on edge

Electricity sparks

Between us

And I feel

What you feel

That we are

Falling in love.

Terry Shepherd


Fallen Heros

A day so gray

Filled with



Falling on

My head

As I kneel

To pray

And give thanks

To you who

Served our


Is this what

You felt as

You lay there

In pain blood

Dripping from

Your soul

Tears falling

From your eyes

Was it gloomy

Like today

Is the weather

Reminding us

That our time

Can come

To an end

That today

Will never

Be ever more?

Terry Shepherd


Raindrops falling on water