Are you getting tired of hearing about Al? Just let me know and I will force myself to find something else to talk about. I promised myself that I would write on the Daily Prompt tonight but I had to write about Al once again.
He came home in a really good mood. Three cheers for Al!
Now you may not think this is important, but to Al it is very important. He went poo today. Actually he has gone poo three days in a row.
He somewhere became obsessed about it when he was in the nursing home. If he doesn’t go every day he just gets very upset. So three days in a row, wow, he thought.
He had a new pain patch on this morning, so he is getting good doses of pain medication today. He got new gifts from me when he came home. He told me, he was the luckiest dog in the world. He went poo and got coca cola gifts. Wow, did this warm my heart.
He was chattering a way about his day and then said, “I think the illness is going a way. I think I am really lucky.”
Now I didn’t expect that remark from someone who is constantly wanting to die. It was nice to see his spirits up and we both talked about it, but in the back of my mind I was sad for him, because I knew the illness was here to stay.
After supper I got him all washed up and he was tired and wanted to take a nap. Usually when I put him to bed he struggles terribly but he can scoot himself over to the side so I can then flip him over and put a pillow behind him. He loves to sleep in his side.
But tonight he couldn’t do it. No matter how hard and long he tried the sweat poured, the body shook and he couldn’t do it. He looked at me through tear-filled eyes and said, ” I guess it made a fool out of me. The illness is not going to go anywhere. It is going to stay until I die.”
He cried and I sat on the edge of the bed and held his hand while he wept. Then with my prompting of taking deep breaths and thinking about Mom I got him to relax and he drifted to sleep.
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Oh, Terry,
I cried when I read this. You are such a good sis. I was my mother’s caregiver, and I know it takes such strength and patience and love. My heart goes out to you both.
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yes it does, as you very well know. We don’t give up though do we…………
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Talk away…. write away… It’s good for you…. it’s good for us. Bless your heart and prayers to both of you.
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thank you Seeker, this really does help me sort things out and not hurt so bad
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I think it is wonderful that you write about your days, and share Al with us all. Illness aside, he is one lucky fellow to have a sister as loving and as caring as you. 🙂
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thank u so much for saying this Share. He does mean the world to me
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I like being kept up to date on Al and how your doing with it all. You are a wonderful sister!
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thank you so much Cat. I know I can run Al in the ground by talking about him so much
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You win my award for the best sister, ever!
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ohhhhhhhhh thank you so much Daryl
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Talk about Al all you want — I (and I think most of the others who read your blog) don’t get tired of it. You’re such a good sister, and that’s probably a big part of the reason Al had a great day! Even though it ended badly, it was still a decent day for Al, comparatively. I pray that Al has more days like this, both for you and for Al.
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me too Becky this week has just been an uplifting week for him
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Continue to be a good sister and Terry, I nominate you with awards. Please check at
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thank you so much Yoshiko!!!!!
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Most welcome, Terry
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I always want to know about Al + you are such a legend, Terry!
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thank you Julie. you make me blush with your kind comment
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Do continue to talk about Al 🙂
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thanks
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Welcome
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I love reading about Al! Hope you guys have a good weekend. Don’t forget to smile 🙂
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I am smiling right now matter of fact!!!! You have a great weekend too. Have lots of fun and relaxing moments
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🙂
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You must always always write about Al and about you…we all care so much for both of you and love to know what goes on in your world. Love and hugs (((xx)))
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this is wonderful to read. I know I speak of Al so often. It seems like I know nothing else, but he is my thoughts these days
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It is good to talk about Al and we want to know about him, his happy times and sad times, so yours as well. We live with you, cry with you, smile with you, are happy with you and sad with you. So please continue to tell us about you and Al. We love you!
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I will, I promise
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Good! Love you!
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love you too my friend
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Oh PS I love those 3 little dancing piggies. They almost dance better than me…….. 😀
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I know they dance better than me, lolol
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🙂
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Terry, you had me in tears too – but I think it’s so great that sometimes Al forget that he are sick – even if it’s only for a couple of hours … but of course when the reality hits him, isn’t that fun anymore – but he enjoys his great days and hours.
Truly great shots of Al … you’re getting used to the camera.
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Thanks Vivi, I know I am going a bit overboard with the camera and Al, but I want them for later to look at I guess. I am so thrilled when Al forgets that he is sick, except when he tries to get up and stand without my knowledge, then I have to remind him firmly. big hugs my friend
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I think your photos are getting very good … so keep on going with the camera – and as you say … for later usage. When he forgets that he is sick means he feels really good inside and with himself – even if its only for a couple of hours … he is happy then.
Of course you have to tell him if he does things – he isn’t suppose to do .. that means you care. Hugs back >>>>>>
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thank you Vivi, you always say the nicest things to me
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No way am I tired of hearing about Al. Besides, it gives you a place to vent, which you know is very important.
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this comment makes me very happy. thank you. This is my place to vent, to get support and be with my friends
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