My brother is crying
I can see his fear
I just left his bed
And closed his door with my tears
He was asking lots of questions
About what heaven is like
He wants to take his coke items with him
I told him to please do it would not be a sin
We talked about him running
And walking and no pain
He asked if he could drive again
And I told him to just say when
The questions went on
And his tears fell deep
I fell to my knees and I began to weep
I prayed for my brother
To be released from all pain
I told God he could have him
That Al would surely gain
Yet I prayed for a moment
A selfish prayer I did
Because I love my brother
And there will never be another
Like him.
Written by Terry Shepherd
And walking and no pain
He asked if he could drive again
And I told him to just say when
And his tears fell deep
I fell to my knees and I began to weep
To be released from all pain
I told God he could have him
That Al would surely gain
A selfish prayer I did
Because I love my brother
And there will never be another
Like him.
Who I am 
I cannot bear what you both are going through.
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it is so painful emotionally and to know he is in physical pain just kills me. The doctor is increasing his dosages again
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The pain you are feeling is so unbearable to me yet you continue on I am not sure, no I know I could never do what you do for your brother. I am glad you prayed over Al for God hears you and will gently take AL’s hand at the gate and He will give you the strength to get through as well. Will it be easy ? absolutely not but you will not be alone our wonderful loving God will be with you as will all your readers and friends will be with you in spirit. Love you Terry God Bless and keep you as he welcomes AL.
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the longer he hurts and I can’t fix it the more I release him into God’s hands. I just can’t take it anymore to watch him suffer and do nothing but console him
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and that is my friend all you can do. hugs
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oh my God. this was just..wow…thanks for sharing.
new follower
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Hello Kai, so nice to meet you. I hope that you stop by again soon. Having friends makes the dips in the road so much easier to travel with my brother so ill
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hugs my friend
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HUGS
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hugs
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Large Hugs
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I love hugs, especially large hugs!!!
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Lifting you both up in prayer, Terry. So very sorry that Al is in so much pain. God has a super plan for him though and he will not suffer forever. He will be healed completely in God’s time. In the meantime you already know that every day is a gift, no matter how difficult. I’m so glad you are getting to spend so much time with your brother. Again, prayers to both of you.
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thanks Brian, that is how I try to look at life, a gift, each day, one day at a time, hugs Brian
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know that when you feel the most alone, you are not. it’s been a year and I still miss him. my grandpa was the last of the ‘best’ men in our family. He was my last chance for my boys to have a good role model. But the pain he was in, the inability to swallow, the indignity of having his granddaughter change his diapers, for this once glorious man was hard. I would do anything for him. In my prayers, I begged. One thing, don’t play one christmas tune. Not one. Don’t think about it even though I am telling you so of course you will but force it from your mind. It is a terrible pain. But letting Al know he can take his Coke treasures with him, is precious of you. Each breath you take can feel heavier and heavier but you need to know is you’re not alone out here, you’ve got lots of us to support you. writing helps lessen the weight of emotions. so does drawing/sketching. You are a beautiful soul just as your brother is.
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My Dad has been gone six years this Christmas and I still cry when Christmas music is played. I guess I am just an emotional nut after this many years gone by. When Al is gone there will be no one left but me. A little scary. Thank you for this very emotional and heart felt comment
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My Dad has been gone six years this Christmas and I still cry when Christmas music is played. I guess I am just an emotional nut after this many years gone by. When Al is gone there will be no one left but me. A little scary. Thank you for this very emotional and heart felt comment
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My dear friend, your words took me back to Vic and my conversations. It hurts so much having to have this discussion with a loved one. I wish I could just hug and hold you both and protect you from the pain you are experiencing. Much love and prayers my friend. xxx
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should I expect anything else in conversations? Teach me what you can my friend
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“Those who sow in tears will reap with shouts of laughter.”
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I have never heard that but I love it. I am making this my personal quote. Thanks Tony!!
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There are no words, Terry — sometimes just crying out to God is all that can be done, and I’m doing that right now.
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It was a moment I will never ever forget. hugs
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Hugs hugs
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Hi my friend!
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I’m sorry dear and am praying continuously for you both… God will not abandon you. I love you two!
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That is one thing I definitely can count on, God always walking with me. I often think I could not do what I am if I didn’t have him by my side, and of course you
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you’ve said the truth dear Terry– we can’t do or get thru this life without linking arms with Him. Remember sweetheart ~all things work for our good if we keep looking beyond this temporary existence ~ Your brother has already obtained his place at the right hand of God & you, next to him! Count on that sweetheart !
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You, my friend, have been there for me and Al. You say such kind things to me and make my days brighter. Therefore I would like to nominate you for the Best Moments Award. I do hope you accept my small gift.
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Oh Terry, you have to be so strong for him and help him emotiaonally adn otherwise. Do cry when you want, I am sure God will do the right thing. I am crying with you!
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it has been so hard lately, but God just keeps giving me the push to keep going. thanks for being a big help to me by being my friend
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hugs to you – both –
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thank you so much Cate
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