Why is it sometimes life
Does not seem fair
We do everything right
We take truths instead of dares
The ones who wrong and run a way
Escape the price to pay
And then 
there are others who stay and fight
Not knowing any other way
And then along comes the news
The one we can only dread
It throws emotions back and forth
It weighs and dulls our head
We really aren’t as tough you know
We can be taken down
All it takes is one wrong word
To send us to the ground
I am not on a poor me trip
I admit I have a bit of fear
Now that it is most likely I have
What my brother has had for years
So I come to you dear Lord above
I come to you and pray
Please let me finish my care for him
Let me be sick another day
For I have seen the tremors too
Going on for sometime now
I ask you Lord to hold off on me
I come to you and bow
Please let me be safe and free from harm
Give me strength to see him through
Then Lord you can take me and have my all
And do what you need to do.
Written by,
Terry Shepherd
08/30/2013
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I’m so sorry Terry. I really don’t know what to say. I don’t know what I can say.
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don’t feel bad Alastair. I am speechless also. I have suspected it for sometime but when the nurse pointed it out to me this morning by saying, how long have you had PD? I see your head is having tremors, I knew my secret was out
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I saw that in your post that you deleted. I didn’t say anything as I figured you had changed your mind and didn’t want to talk about it.
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I said it all wrong and screwed up. I thought poetry may work better. It is hard to talk about and if I go to the doc they don’t give a strict diagnosis with PD. They wait and document as symptoms go farther along and then they can say yes or no, but even then there is not much and if I am lucky enough I will have only the small version as my dad did
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I’m sorry to hear you have PD. My Dad has it too. His medicine makes him fall asleep when he sits, but it helps his tremors. He has tremors in his hands. In other ways he is the same as always. Dear God, please keep Terry’s symptoms at bay while she cares for her brother, amen.
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that is all I wish for, to just be placed on delay
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I’m sorry you are facing this yourself not only that you have it but facing the reality of it now. My heart goes out to you, please look after you too. xo
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Life definitely gives us challenges. As time goes on I know I will always be ok as God will be with me every step just as he is with Al. hugs my friend
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hugs xo
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Oh no – I am so shocked.
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I am more shocked that someone noticed I think. I had suspected it for about six months
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Oh hell.
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Terry, I don’t really know what to say … where is the fairness in life???? When did you find out ??? I’m devastated, Terry .. over the news. I so glad that your have your faith and your strong believes … but I can’t help wondering why he let it happen to you too, this even makes me doubt more . Sorry, Terry .. for I have to put it like this. Is there any medicine that can slow it down, even it’s noticed so early.
Terry, I’m not sorry … I’m angry, because this is not fair against you.
I wish I could hug you for … a long time.
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I can’t help but ask myself either, how could this happen to me? I am the one who cares for other sick people. Is this the way it is going to end, me in need of the caring? There is a part of me which doesn’t want to keep my belief any longer. I think as this illness progresses there are medications to help but not yet, it is too early. I just don’t understand, I really don’t
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Terry, the news shakes my world completely – you of all people … it must be something in the gens. I understand that you doubt – but I also understand that your beliefs give you the strength. You have been praying for Al in for such a time, why couldn’t he spare you the same destiny. As I said before when our contact started …. Why does people that already have a massive burden – get more to carry???
I would seek help already now and .. maybe there is some medicine to take in early stages to slow the process down. Life isn’t fair .. and your God isn’t fair neither.
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I can’t seem to grasp it yet. It is a nightmare to me. To handle Al and myself is beyond my imagination. I figure I will deal with me when Al doesn’t need me any more. Our father, his mother, and her sister all had Parkinsons. If I am lucky I will only have the head tremors like they did and not be severe like Al. I agree none of this shit is fair at all
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Sending you love and light and a continued wish that you see a doctor before you consign yourself to a fate that you suspect but isn’t a sure thing. Tremors can be symptoms of so many things – including stress. I too pray that you have time and peace and comfort and health and I beg you to go to the doctor..
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I think the nurse scared me a little plus the fact it has been six months of tremors now and the heredity thing. I will see a doctor when I have time
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May firstly God give you strength to deal with Al and then also to help you. Terry, please do look after yourself too, and you do need to see a doctor. It might be stress related and you might be able to conquer it. Be in my arms and feel comfort. I am always there for you, you are in my thoughts and prayers. Sending you my love !
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thanks so much my friend
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Terry – I’m keeping you and your brother in my prayers – your strength never ceases to amaze me and the way you put others before yourself continues to leave me in awe – If God is the God I think he is – he’s listening honey! Surround yourself with friends and family.
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right now I still do not want to believe, I just can’t believe this could happen. not to me the one who enjoys caring for others
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Quite frankly either can I believe it – it’s times like this that I am mystified by God’s plans – however, there must be a plan, even though we don’t understand it. Praying God’s angels are with you right now.
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thank you
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Ah, Terry. So sorry.
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It is
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