Well here it is. That time again, the day I dreaded. Al’s tremors and heavy sweating are back. Al is crying saying ” the medication didn’t last long did it? I am ready to die. I accept and I want to die.”
I wonder if he is reacting to me saying yes against my better judgement on going to the day program. Although that was Friday and today is Sunday.
He woke up complaining of tingling in his arm. I don’t think it is serious. I believe he may have slept on it. It was not working for a while but it is now.
He ate breakfast but refused lunch. He has been in bed all day. Refusing to get up. The Hospice nurse is on her way.
You all say I have strength. Well the well is dry, and the mind is tired. The body is frustrated. Let’s hope the nurse has something to say.
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Dearest Terry,
This breaks my heart. How could I possible click the “like” button. Please know that my prayers are with you and yours. Sending you Love & Light my Friend.
Anastasia
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thank you so much Anastasia. I just can’t believe the progress ended so quickly
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Prayers for your strength and Als peace my friend. Love and hugs (((xx)))
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Thanks Len, I just want to take a nap
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Many hugs Terry!
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thanks Ute, hope you are having a great day today
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My last day of freedom,…work tomorrow… need to get emotionally ready for that…. I had a long holiday… brain is not working….
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first days back always suck!!
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I’m sorry Terry 😦
{{{HUGS}}}
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me too, I can’t believe it is happening already again
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I’m so sorry, Terry. I’m crying with you… 😦 xoxo
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I just can’t believe it is happening again so soon
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So aweful. I’m sorry it the medication wore off so quickly.
You must be totally exhausted and you are in my thoughts.
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I am tired, this is true. I feel helpless in helping Al
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I haven’t clicked the ‘like’ button, but I want you to know you are in my thoughts and prayers – always
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thanks so much my friend. It is a nice warm feeling to know I have a support system
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Hugs Terry. 😦
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thanks my friend. This is nothing compared to what you have dealt with, but I feel hopeless here because I can’t get anything to cure or help him
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It’s as bad as what i’ve been through, this is painful to you. maybe not trying to save him from what you can’t and letting go would bring you some relief.
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he said he is ready to go and I will not try to stop him this time. hugs my friend
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As always…praying for you. Big hugs sent your way.
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Hello Skye, so nice to see you. Thank you for the prayers. I pray for a peace to come over him until he has reached the end of his journey
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Thinking of you and all you are going through. Al is so lucky to have you.
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thank you Rusha. I am lucky to have him
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Dear Terry, You are going to have to give Al permission to die…His body and soul is ready to let go. I pray for you both for strength and peace. Hugs and gentle thoughts.
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I did
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I don’t know what to say so sending a huge hug.
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I love hugs Julie, it is physical contact between good friends, thank you
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Terry,
I read your posts backwards. I know I’ve said how strong you are too, but now it is simply in how you haven’t run away… And many do. My whole family left me due to my illness that they just can’t deal with. They are weak and this is how you are still strong, even when there is nothing left of you. In truth, there is something in you that gives you the strength to stay by Al’s side, and for that reason, you are strong. A different perspective…
A xoxox
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I am so sorry your family has abandoned you. Why is it that the ones we love the most can hurt us more than anything. I don’t know for sure what keeps me going. The will to help to the very end, the hope that I can fix it? I don’t know, but I do know I won’t stop until he does. hugs my friend
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I don’t know how I keep going, either. We all have a choice to take an early exit when we face terrible illness, but I’m still here. This is the strength that is hidden deep within.me… And you. Per my family, I think the term love is largely gone at this point. They were never great as it was and when I got sick. That was the icing on the cake, so to speak. Hugs to you!
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we always seem to have something in common don’t we. maybe this is why we hit it off so early
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