Brenda, you are so right, I don’t know what is going on. Al swears he is leaving. I don’t know. I have heard him say it before. I just hope the minister can calm his fears, because I don’t seem to be able to help
That kitty looks like our Cosmo! I am sending you peace, strength and knowing energies to help carry you through the transition. He is ready, you are ready. The energy of the Universe is good for the changing of forms. Embrace to miracle that this moment is and know that Al will be able to be with you in ways he never could while trapped in a Human form. Change is scary but it will always come. Accepting is easier than resisting and more productive. Much love to you both.
I understand my friend. I am scared, I can’t help myself. I think it is not having control to stop or push forward or do anything to help. thanks my friend.
Terri,
Prayers with you and Al. I think that folks with such serious terminal illnesses, need to talk to someone in the ministry to prepare them as they progress for what will eventually come. I hope he finds comfort with his minister.
me too, this is my hope. I can’t tell if Al is going or not. He does not have the common signs of death nearing. All I know is he thinks he is going and maybe the minister can help him in some way. Hugs
Hi Terry, my heart goes out to you and my love…Al at another level knows what is happening to his body, and if he is ready to go at this point and is truly feeling it, most likely a minister can ease both his fear and his passage…remember that Al, even though you don’t want him to go, will be free of his body and pain and confusion. I know that doesn’t help as much as it should, I can only tell you after watching my brother go through this that it was a relief that he was not longer living with the MSA…I will always love him, and I will always miss him, but I remain very grateful that he was released from this life. And no, none of that helps you right now, I know that….I wish I had a magic wand to help you both. The minister will hopefully help him through his fear and anxiety, I would truly guess that Al does not want to leave you. I know with my father toward the end of his days, I realized that he needed my permission, my blessing to go…we talked and I told him that I loved him, and that I did not want him to continue to stay for me, or for any reason, and he passed peacefully early the next morning. It is heartbreaking, nearly impossible at times, to watch anyone with an illness at this stage, you are wonderful with Al, all you can do is love him and let him go when he is ready…
For the first time tonight Al told me he doesn’t want to leave me. I told him I would be alright. i asked him to save me a spot beside him, that I will be along real soon. I hope the minister calms his emotions. Big big hugs to you my friend
Praying you through all this. You’ve been on my mind all day. I have a dear friend here whose father is barely hanging on to life. Two special friends to pray for.
oh thank you and bless you. I just want everything to stop and be ok again, but I can’t so I want him to be healed, that is my prayer. even if it means going to be with God
You both are in my thoughts. I follow you still but have had to take a break in posting as school and work both have me occupied. Just know I am here if you need a friend. {hugs} Al getting love from his faithful companion made me smile. ❤
Rhino always seems to be there when Al is stressed or not feeling well. tonight he was giving Al kisses on his hands. Thank you for taking the time through your studies to stop by and talk to me. hugs
thank you Julie, I hope Ants never goes through this. I think Al found some peace in the minister’s words. He is calmer and not crying. He ate a small dish of ice cream and he is now in his bed resting with the TV on
Vic asked for her minister a week before she died. As a family we all took Holy Communion with Vic one last time. Al knows his time is near. His body is telling him. It is an emotional time for you both. Thinking of you both with gentle love and sadness.
Lovely pictures from Al with Rhino,he loves and adores. So good that he is sitting with him to give him comfort too! Glad the minister came, let him come more often and talk and listen to Al. Bless you both and I wish you strength. Be there for Al, just be there! He needs and loves that! We are here for you, Terry!
Terry, we don’t always need to know what is happening … or to understand. Al maybe just want to talk with the minister … about something that is on his mind. Love your photos of Al and Rhino, so sweet and filled with two ways love. Glad that the ministers visit made Al calm. Sometimes a couple of words can ease our minds. So happy for you too.
I agree Vivi, I don’t get involved when the minister and Al talk. I feel that is Al’s private time and thoughts. It helped for a short time and then the illness took over again most of the night
That last picture maybe the best picture I’ve ever seen. If most pictures say a thousand words then that ones says a million. You may have to write a book on that one. I love the way that animals know and they will come to help anyway they can. It will all be ok eventually. Maybe not today but peace is coming for both of you.
dearest Terry, all of the emotions you are being attacked by are normal, most struggle with exactly what you are saying, and its overwhelming and painful, don’t get mad at yourself, being scared is okay, being mad at yourself is okay, wanting him to stay is okay, its NOT selfish, its because you love him. You love Al, that’s all there is.
Hope all is ok Terry…Not forgotten you…Thoughts with both you & Al
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Ann, my dear Ann, I want to hug you
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Thoughts and prayers!!! … on the way, Terri. It happens sometimes. The all want peace in their minds, hearts and souls!! Hugs!!
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hopefully the minister can calm his fears
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More than likely …. and yours too!!! Light … your way!!
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thank you
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Keep me posted, please!
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I will. The minister just left. Al seems to be a bit better emotionally, not crying now
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I love Al with the cat…who is soooo big!…Maybe will just reassure him…and give him some peace…won’t hurt!
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that is what I am hoping so much
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Hugs, Terry. The not knowing is the worst part.
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Brenda, you are so right, I don’t know what is going on. Al swears he is leaving. I don’t know. I have heard him say it before. I just hope the minister can calm his fears, because I don’t seem to be able to help
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Just breath. Hugs, Brenda
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I think the minister helped as Al is not crying right now
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That kitty looks like our Cosmo! I am sending you peace, strength and knowing energies to help carry you through the transition. He is ready, you are ready. The energy of the Universe is good for the changing of forms. Embrace to miracle that this moment is and know that Al will be able to be with you in ways he never could while trapped in a Human form. Change is scary but it will always come. Accepting is easier than resisting and more productive. Much love to you both.
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I understand my friend. I am scared, I can’t help myself. I think it is not having control to stop or push forward or do anything to help. thanks my friend.
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Of course you are scared. That is natural. you have a giant Web of love to hold you safe. Please know it will be ready when you start to fall. Xoxo
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thanks for understanding me better than I do. It is so nice having good friends
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Terri,
Prayers with you and Al. I think that folks with such serious terminal illnesses, need to talk to someone in the ministry to prepare them as they progress for what will eventually come. I hope he finds comfort with his minister.
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me too, this is my hope. I can’t tell if Al is going or not. He does not have the common signs of death nearing. All I know is he thinks he is going and maybe the minister can help him in some way. Hugs
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Thoughts and prayers 🙂
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thank you so much my dear friend
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preparation for peace…..hearing God’s word…
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I hope the minister can calm Al’s fears in a way I can not. hugs my friend
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You are and have been a vessel of peace, kindness and love to Al…
Hugs to you both…
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thank you. All I can do is keep loving him through this
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Praying…
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Brian you have always been here for me. Words can’t express my thankfulness. hugs my dear friend
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Of course Terry, that’s what friends are for!
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Sending love, strength and kindness wrapped in prayers xx
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thank you so much . You are so kind and compassionate
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Hi Terry, my heart goes out to you and my love…Al at another level knows what is happening to his body, and if he is ready to go at this point and is truly feeling it, most likely a minister can ease both his fear and his passage…remember that Al, even though you don’t want him to go, will be free of his body and pain and confusion. I know that doesn’t help as much as it should, I can only tell you after watching my brother go through this that it was a relief that he was not longer living with the MSA…I will always love him, and I will always miss him, but I remain very grateful that he was released from this life. And no, none of that helps you right now, I know that….I wish I had a magic wand to help you both. The minister will hopefully help him through his fear and anxiety, I would truly guess that Al does not want to leave you. I know with my father toward the end of his days, I realized that he needed my permission, my blessing to go…we talked and I told him that I loved him, and that I did not want him to continue to stay for me, or for any reason, and he passed peacefully early the next morning. It is heartbreaking, nearly impossible at times, to watch anyone with an illness at this stage, you are wonderful with Al, all you can do is love him and let him go when he is ready…
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For the first time tonight Al told me he doesn’t want to leave me. I told him I would be alright. i asked him to save me a spot beside him, that I will be along real soon. I hope the minister calms his emotions. Big big hugs to you my friend
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Praying you through all this. You’ve been on my mind all day. I have a dear friend here whose father is barely hanging on to life. Two special friends to pray for.
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oh thank you and bless you. I just want everything to stop and be ok again, but I can’t so I want him to be healed, that is my prayer. even if it means going to be with God
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Prayers for both you and Al. I hope the minister can bring you both some peace for the coming days and weeks.
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I think the minister helped. He just left an Al has stopped crying
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You both are in my thoughts. I follow you still but have had to take a break in posting as school and work both have me occupied. Just know I am here if you need a friend. {hugs} Al getting love from his faithful companion made me smile. ❤
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Rhino always seems to be there when Al is stressed or not feeling well. tonight he was giving Al kisses on his hands. Thank you for taking the time through your studies to stop by and talk to me. hugs
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You are both in my prayers!
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thank you so much my friend
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With you, my friend.
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thank you Julie, I hope Ants never goes through this. I think Al found some peace in the minister’s words. He is calmer and not crying. He ate a small dish of ice cream and he is now in his bed resting with the TV on
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Vic asked for her minister a week before she died. As a family we all took Holy Communion with Vic one last time. Al knows his time is near. His body is telling him. It is an emotional time for you both. Thinking of you both with gentle love and sadness.
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Thank you Tersia. I hope I am not bringing up memories that make you sad
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Lovely pictures from Al with Rhino,he loves and adores. So good that he is sitting with him to give him comfort too! Glad the minister came, let him come more often and talk and listen to Al. Bless you both and I wish you strength. Be there for Al, just be there! He needs and loves that! We are here for you, Terry!
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Thanks Ute. Al is going to Hospice house again this evening. I hate it when he goes because I miss him so bad
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*sending love and hugs my friend*
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thank you my dearest friend
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I’m glad the minister gave him some peace. I hope he gave you some peace as well, Terry
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I didn’t butt in on their time. I saw Al had peace but his illness took over not long after that and I was up most of the night trying to comfort Al
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Terry, we don’t always need to know what is happening … or to understand. Al maybe just want to talk with the minister … about something that is on his mind. Love your photos of Al and Rhino, so sweet and filled with two ways love. Glad that the ministers visit made Al calm. Sometimes a couple of words can ease our minds. So happy for you too.
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I agree Vivi, I don’t get involved when the minister and Al talk. I feel that is Al’s private time and thoughts. It helped for a short time and then the illness took over again most of the night
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If the minister soothed his heart, then for that I am thankful. And again as everyday, I send you my thoughts and prayers.
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It was nice and then things got bad again. Up with him most of night. Hugs my friend. I love your support
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That last picture maybe the best picture I’ve ever seen. If most pictures say a thousand words then that ones says a million. You may have to write a book on that one. I love the way that animals know and they will come to help anyway they can. It will all be ok eventually. Maybe not today but peace is coming for both of you.
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You are probably right. What hurts today will heal tomorrow. It is just getting through the in between
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standing with you.
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thanks so much Cate. I like this
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My thoughts and prayers are with you my friend. Sending Big hugs, and know I am here!
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Hi dear Jo. I hope life is going alright for you. Miss you
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This is a good thing. Praying.
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yes it sure is, hope and prayers
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sweetie what is wrong and what can I do?
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I am scared and I know I should not be, so I get mad at myself. I want him to be pain free. I want him to be happy but I want him to stay here too
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dearest Terry, all of the emotions you are being attacked by are normal, most struggle with exactly what you are saying, and its overwhelming and painful, don’t get mad at yourself, being scared is okay, being mad at yourself is okay, wanting him to stay is okay, its NOT selfish, its because you love him. You love Al, that’s all there is.
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I could just hug you. You have given me permission to feel without guilt
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