http://dailypost.wordpress.com/2013/09/29/daily-prompt-junk/, DP, Daily Prompt
Is there “junk” in your life? What kind? How do you get rid of it?
Photographers, artists, poets: show us JUNK.
Of course there is junk in my life. All kinds of junk. I have my remaining issues of never being good enough. This probably is my worst trash in the can that follows me every where. As of this summer with the help and wonderful comments from all of you I am beginning to heal.
I also carry the trash called fear. Fear of the unknown, fear of the dark. It started many moons ago when I slept in a bedroom that had a wall socket. Dad had taken it out and put up a ceiling light. He didn’t get around to plugging the hole for a while and I dreamed night after night big, bad snakes were coming out of that hole to get me.
I also had a less than perfect childhood, way back when I was still a toddler. The things that were allowed to take place with me still carry in my mind and when conditions are right, those thoughts will plummet to the surface once again until I beat them down.
I carry with me the fact that marriage doesn’t always last a life time. Scars from hurtful words cause trust to be a high priority when I meet new men. I want a relationship, but this time I need to go nice and slow and develop it at a nice pace. So many guys don’t want this kind of turtle pace today. They want a rabbit pace and I just can’t do it.
I also carry too much blubber on my gut. Three kids, three layers of fat. It sounds nicer when I call it baby fat. The guilt follows me when I see a commercial with a girl in it with a perfect 10.
How do I get rid of it? I am not sure. I am better today at accepting what it was, was and what it is, is. Now that I am much older I think oh well, at least my legs don’t look like pork hocks. At least my facial skin bounces back. At least my boobs don’t fall to my navel.
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