The past few days I can see the same pattern forming in Al’s lips. During the past couple of months Al’s body has went from being able to move his legs to not. His arms would lift, but not now. His head would turn but no more.
Now his mouth and lips are following in the same pattern. Very seldom can he eat soft food. More so of pudding consistency. His lips are not opening far enough to get the straw in or a toothbrush.
I am beginning to swab his mouth more often. When he speaks there is hardly any muscle left in the vocal chords. Al’s eye movement is rare. Most of the time I see him staring into space.
It hurts me so much to see this wild spirit being locked inside of this sick body. I know I can’t fix it, believe me I have tried everything. Two days ago he got an open sore on his side of his leg.
The next day there was another one. Today there is a total of five open sores. They remind me of a surface burn. The top layer of skin is gone and he is leaving blood spots on the sheets.
This weather doesn’t help at all. I have had no help for the past three days. Hospice hasn’t been out. I am hoping that tomorrow with the weather finally being above zero, the bath aides come and it would be wonderful if the nurse showed up. She usually comes on Mondays and Thursdays so I don’t know if she will come on her off day.
Another thing has been going on. I can’t figure out what in the world is happening. Rhino, the cat, sits in the same position as in this photo. He usually is facing the bathroom door.
He sits in the hallway of Al’s bedroom and bathroom. At first I noticed him going to that spot off and on.
Now he goes there often. He sits very still and he may sit there for minutes.
Last night he went inside the bathroom. He was gone for some time so I crept in softly to see what he was up to. He was sitting in the corner of the bathroom right next to the bathtub.
He was making some weird noises I have never heard him make before. Suddenly he meowed loudly and looked up at the wall.
He jumped up at the wall as if trying to get something. Then he dug at the corner of the floor then jumped back up at the wall. Then he saw me. He went back to his usual spot as you can see in the bottom photo and just sat like a statue. I don’t know what is going on.
I flipped on the lights in the bathroom and I saw nothing. We don’t have mice or any critters inside our home, so I don’t know what in the world he was seeing. But as you can see in the photo he is sitting at attention just listening.
Sweetie I see angels in your photos especially in the bottom photo. You and Al are surrounded by angels and the kitty sees them.
Bless you and Al both and know the angels are with you, and are surrounding you with comfort and love.
Hugs
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Thanks Granny, I appreciate your comment. It makes me feel better. Hugs
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Terry he’s just letting go … my sister had a similar experience and they just mimic. His body is breaking down, slowly which is imperceptible to him, a blessing in disguise… try not to fear what’s natural and needful ~ I, too, am experiencing similarities but very gradual. I’ve been learning that Jesus is closest to us during these steps in our going across the veil– because that’s all it is, my darling sister. Al is nearer to Christ than you can comprehend and, when he tells you, Jesus is in the room, he’s not making it up or delusional — he’s testifying to us blind ones! Be as loving as you always are &, I assure you, Al is being set free from his disease, nothing less. I’m always praying for you dear~ Debbie
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Hi Debbie, I am worried about you. I don’t get emails and am afraid you are sick and need me or is there something I can do………..
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I didn’t want to add to your exhaustion but, I’ll email you tonight ~I easier for me sweetheart ~ xxoo
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Oh this is so hard to read. You are wonderwoman.
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it is very hard to handle Al now as the communication is going a way
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It sounds like Al may be developing bedsores, try some Manuka honey on them if you can get it Terry. It is not expensive. As for Rhino, my cats have been weird for the last few days, I give up on trying to figure cats out! God bless you and I am praying for you both!
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Thanks Loopy. I have never heard of that kind of honey. Is it different than regular honey?
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Yes it is Terry, it is not edible and it is something of a miracle salve. I found out about it last year and got mine from Amazon.
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ok, thanks Loopy!
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Animals are so much more perceptive than we humans are. I am sure he senses the changes in Al’s well being and also as digitalgranny said the presence of angels. Who knows but perhaps in the last hours/days of life but what we might have “out of body” experiences as well.
When my husband had his first heart attack, we had a little Yorkshire terrier who literally ran the walls in the living room until she got my attention to the crisis unfolding. Our current dog responds to his weakening heart beats and flutters.
Hoping Rhino makes friends with the angels so you can all get some rest.
Hugs from afar,
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Wow, that is very interesting. I could see it if Rhino did this once or twice, but it is every day and day or night. Thanks so much
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I wish peace for Al and a release from this time of suffering and pain. I can’t imagine how difficult it is for you to see him like this, yet I have no doubt that he is aware of how much you love him and the way you show it how you take care of him. Keep loving him. Keep trusting. Whatever Rhino is seeing and hearing, it doesn’t seem to frighten him, and I believe he is sensing the presence of angels and the nearness of heaven. Be at peace, Terry, and keep loving Al. Blessings on you both!
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Thank you Stephanie. Your comment brings me comfort and I will always do my best at letting him feel loved
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Dear Terry … words fail me. I’m speechless at the thought of what you are living through. Without even mentioning Al …. I can only hope and pray for both of you. Be strong …. healing light sent your way!!! From the heart ……
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Thanks so much my friend. Wonderful to chat with you again. I hope Al gets to go home soon
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When that happens WE will be here for you!
Tight hugs …..
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thank you
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I too feel that you are being surrounded with the peace that comes … that Al will finally find his way HOME… and pets feel so much… and maybe sees more than we can imagine… the body breaks down mentally and physically… hope you get a visit from the Hospice and nurse soon…
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oh me too, it is awful when they are not here. I didn’t realize what a comfort they are to me
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I know when my mother got sores between her legs the nurses used to put rolled up towels to separate them so they wouldn’t touch…. but on the outside …I don’t know what could be done… not much I guess…. anyway thinking of you both as usual…. take care.. Diane
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I use rolled up towels between Al’s legs too, and his feet are always on pillows but on the outer edge, I just don’t know
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Thinking of you both. I agree with the others. I remember being with my grandmother while she was in hospice and telling me about the little girl that kept appearing in different parts of the room. We know so little about the process of letting go as death approaches, but animals don’t have the burden of overthinking things. They are simply present and attentive. Hugs!
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It is very interesting that Rhino may be seeing something that we do not. I will pay more attention. Maybe he is showing me more signs
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Rino is going to miss Al, I think.
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I think he is going to miss him very much
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Animals can see spirits.
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really?
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Yes
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Thinking about you my friend. I hope you’re hanging in there. It looks like it might ‘warm up’ a bit so hopefully folks can get to your place to help again. Blessings to you and Al.
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Hi Brian, It is actually 15 right now! heat wave! The caregiver came back today and life seems better!
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I can a bit identify of how you feel, as I saw my dad in the last stages of his life. He refused to eat and only had the odd sip of juice or cocoa. His mouth was swabed with a special thing to kkep it abit moist. I have read a lot about it then and it actually says, that he wouldn’t have felt hunger or thirst and no pain, so it was the best way for him to go, as he wanted to go.
Animals have a sixth sense and they feel more than we do. Rhino will miss Al I guess. Hang in there Terry and make it as comfortable as you can for Al! Big tiight hugs
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It is so hard to watch him quit eating but I guess it was for you too with your Dad. I keep moving on each day, it is all I can do
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He can see the angels. He can see the ones who are ready to take Al. I don’t mean this nastily, but I wish they would hurry.
Oh … and there is a Coca-Cola flag on its way to you
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I wish they would hurry to the more he can’t communicate. Oh my God, oh my God, the flag is coming> I am so darn excited!!!! O thank you thank you thank you
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I know what you mean. It should be there in two to three days. I’m glad to have been able to help with it Terry. It’s my pleasure
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I will never forget your thoughtfulness, ever
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🙂
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continued prayers and hugs to you and Al.
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Thanks Patty. How are you?
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Doing better thank you – hope is returning and finding Gods purpose. My thoughts are always with you and Al. Remember I am here only an email away if you need to talk.
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Our prayers continue for you both. May the Lord bless and comfort Al, and yourself.
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Thank you
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There are rays of light? There is a new book out by a Christian writer (can’t remember his name but can find it if you want it) He has an entire chapter about how our pets are used by God as vessels of messages. He says if our pets could talk, man would probably know more about the spirit world. God is with you both.
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I am interested in the book, thank you
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I think Rhino is aware & alert of what’s going on & feels Al’s spirit.
I believe animals have a deep sense of more than we give them credit for.
{Hugs} to you & Al
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I think from what others have said you are absolutely right!!! Thanks RoSy
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Thank God for Rhino; you are not alone during this time. Praying for you and Al always.
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Yes, Rhino is great company! Thank you for the prayers!
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