Al has spoken off and on today. Sometimes pretty clear. We are having big issues and messes with bladder spasms. So today has not been a great day.
Tonight after only eating a few bites Al told me he is dying. I took his hand and said that I know and I explained how this is the way he has to do things in order to get a new body.
He went on and said one more thing and then he has said nothing more. He told me he is a failure. My heart broke and I cried. I took his hand and told him in no way was he a failure. I told him how lucky he is that he has seen Jesus.
In fact I told him every possible thing I could think of to say. We, or I talked and hopefully he listened. I talked about forgiveness, that anything he knows he has done has been forgiven by all including God.
I talked to him for about an hour. He is no longer speaking but I hope I helped him to see that he can let go, that all will be alright, that he is the most perfect brother in my eyes, and I told him this too.
Who I am 
Dearest Terry,
Lean very close to Al’s ear for me, and I want you to tell him that his loving friend Carol sent him a message for him only: he is not a failure, and never was a failure, and never could be a failure, because he is Al….and that I love him.
Please do this for me…
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I will go do this right now Carol. Bless you, I love you for who you represent in this big world, thank you
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I love you Terry, am there with you.
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I love you too my friend. Thanks for being so wonderful
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I told him your message. He looked at me with those big blue eyes, but he is no longer able to speak again, but I know he heard me. I hope it helped him
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Bless his Heart…and Bless your Heart. Hugs to you both…praying….
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hugs to you Tamma, thank you
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Terry you are doing so much for him, he is so blessed to have you. The things you are telling him are hopefully brining him some comfort and maybe he can now let go. There is a beautiful heaven that is awaiting him, with choirs and trumpets and nothing but peace and beauty. We are praying for you both. God Bless.
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Thank you and God bless you for a most heart felt comment Jeff
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You did so good girl! You helped. It is a big deal. We can see it. You need to. You try, you care, you help.
What more can any of us do?
Sending peace to both of you and admiration~
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You did beautifully Terry. Sending warm thoughts as always.
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Your doing great girlfriend! Big Hugs to you both…
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What a blessing you are to him! Prayers continuing. 🙂
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Thanks so much Deborah! You always leave such warm comments
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Terry could not be any less of a failure. The love you have for him shows that he is a fantastic guy. He will be judged as someone who will be an asset when he gets upstairs.
{{{HUGS}}} to you and Al
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I happen to think that you are absolutely right Alastair. One day before it is my time to leave for upstairs I want to give you the biggest hug in person!
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🙂
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Terry, please tell him that he has friends worldwide who are thinking and praying for him. No way is he a failure.
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I will definitely tell him this, thanks so much!
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The thoughts that can run through our heads… flitting from one thing to another… Just reassuring him…is all you can do Terry…God Bless!
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You know me! I am doing my best!
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Al is so precious – everyone gave such sweet comments of which I agree. Add me to the list of people who love him – he is a child of God therefore he is perfect. {hugs}
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Thanks dear Patty. You are so precious!
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What a blessing to have a wise sister like you whispering comfort and reassurance like that, keep going! love, Solveig
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Thanks for having faith in me as being a good sister. I really try to be. Hugs my friend
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This really tugged at my heart.
I can only imagine how difficult these times are for both of you.
You are a great sis. And Al is a wonderful brother. The connection between the two of you is obvious. Love, love & love.
{Hugs} to you
{Hugs} to Al
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Thanks so much RoSy!!!
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….walking with you both in spirit and love, Terry…<3
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Thanks so much Tami
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