I am So Sorry, I Didn’t Mean For This to Happen


I have never felt so low and so bad as I do right now. I was writing a prompt, and I wrote about a vision I could picture in my mind. I stated in the first sentence that this was fabricated, but as Al has stated, I should have put it in bold letters.

I have earned my friendships on here and now I have probably lost so many friends because of this post. I sincerely was writing about the beautiful vision I was imagining in my mind when Al goes to heaven.

I never meant to hurt anyone and I understand if you leave my blog. I did delete it but I imagine it is too late now.

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66 thoughts on “I am So Sorry, I Didn’t Mean For This to Happen

    • Bless you and thank you my dear friend. If people truly knew me, they would realize my dying brother is no joke to me. I would have stated when and what time he passed, what funeral home, the whole works. Thank you for believing in me

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  1. Sweetie you did nothing wrong and you explained that this was a vision that you had in your mind and not a real thing.
    If people want to be nasty about this then they are very small minded folks who do not know how to read.
    Know you are loved, and admired here for the path you walk with your sweet brother.
    Hugs.

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  2. I can,t believe people would be like that. You clearly stated at the very beginning that it was a story for the prompt. Some people didn’t read that part and mis-understood. That is their error — not yours. Ignore them and just focus on your day to day life caring for Al and planning for the future. I will keep you and Al in my prayers just as I have up to now. Don’t let this misunderstanding get you down!

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    • I just felt so bad that people believed it. Either they didn’t read that important sentence or maybe I write well. LOL, Either way I didn’t mean to hurt anyone, honest

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  3. I think at some time in everyone’s life we have said or done something we wished we hadn’t… You did say it was mostly fabricated… In any case no use beating yourself up….You didn’t mean to deceive or hurt anyone… Try not to dwell…. take care… Diane

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  4. I’m with lstowe. I didn’t see the thing, whatever it was, but if there’s one thing I know – people don’t read closely, especially online, and people have pretty thin skins in this strangely weak, ‘politically correct’ world. Alright, that’s two things. I never was much good at math.

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  5. Shake off those negative comments. They are not caring for someone terminally ill as you are, and can’t possibly understand your life. It’s a blessing to imagine a peaceful and beautiful transition. Hugs, Brenda

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  6. Terry,

    What you wrote was a beautiful dream for your brother. You made it very clear that this was in response to a prompt, and if anyone misunderstood or took offense, it was their problem. You did nothing wrong, and you have enough to worry about without worrying about whether people you don’t even know very well are offended by you. You wrote of how you would like for your brother to go, with Jesus, and I can’t think of a more beautiful way for him to go home. I pray that your wish for your brother was a true vision from God, and that He will go just as you imagined.

    God bless you, my friend, as you continue to cling to Him and trust in Him. People will get angry, and you will find that some are your friends and some aren’t. We can’t always please people. The most important thing is to please God. As long as you keep doing that, all is well.

    Much love and many blessings to you,
    Cheryl

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  7. Be encouraged, that is why we write. Sometimes we need to go into the land of make believe. A story is what it is. A story. True followers will stay, if not, say bye, and make room for some new followers. Cyber hug.

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  8. I misunderstood your post, but I am not abandoning you nor will you loose my support or prayers!!!! It was MY MISTAKE and I LOVE YOU AND AL!!!! Sorry if others have unfriended you.

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  9. Oh Terry, You writing is very good and very realistic. I had to read it a second time to realize it was your vision of what is yet to come. We all care so very much and that would be why it would have such impact.
    Do not let anyone destroy your focus on Al and taking care of yourself during this difficult time. You are doing awesome and God knows your heart!
    Your ongoing courage is an inspiration for me and we are friends forever!

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  10. Worry no more of those that make negative commnets. You made it very clear and they did not read it well enough. There are some in this world that will try to tear you down. Don’t let them. Prays for you and Al.

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  11. Why are you feeling so bad about this sillybilly! You wrote a beautiful vision so some of us thought Al had died because we didn’t read it properly. You have NOTHING to apologize for – you are a powerful writer and friend – nobody will leave you, gorgeous girl! Juliexxx

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  12. Those thatatter are still here. I reread your daily prompt twice as I thought it was beautiful and it was clearly stated that it was fabricated.

    Those types of messages are certainly something you could do without right now and those people were insensitive to send them.

    Hugs and prayers xx

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  13. My saying about being in bold was not a negative comment, I am sorry if it appeared that way. It was because I read so many comments there saying people were sorry he had gone when you said at the beginning it was a piece of fiction. You did not do anything wrong. It was a very moving story. I was just offering some advice.

    I apologise if I upset you with the way I said it

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  14. Terry, anyone who would leave your blog over such a beautiful post isn’t a friend anyway. You are doing a remarkable thing taking care of your brother, and if you want to imagine what it would be like, imagine away. Anyone who judges that needs to get stronger glasses. There are many of us that will never be lost to you. You are an amazing woman, and I’m proud to be your friend!

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  15. Good morning Terry,
    I’m still hanging in there with you. To be quite honest, I realized that I had misinterpreted your article when you shared about your vision when i read your second article. It didn’t shake me. Sometimes we jump ahead of God because we are so anxious for our loved ones to be relieved, or at least I do.
    So, hang in there. You did what you thought was right, and God knew you were going to do it before you even did it, and guess what? His grace was still covering you cause he loves you even when you make mistakes. That is assuring for me. To know that it is okay to make mistakes or fall on my face because God is still there. His grace still covers me and his love still abundantly carries me.
    Sending you love and a big hug from good old Germany.
    Shalom,
    Patricia

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  16. Your friend through everything and anything, of course! You did write clearly that it was a prompt, I just guess we all are feeling so close to you both through the way you are sharing, that some people were blinded by grief and did not read clearly. The first reaction then could be like when we are angry when a lost child suddenly turns up, just the pent up anxiety. Do not mind them, but allow for their way of grieving. For you, I think it was a good exercise, to visualize the best parting! Love, Solveig

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  17. Terry
    I didn’t see the post, but don’t worry about it, if someone misjudged you for it they are wrong, plain and simple. Nobody knows how difficult it is except those of us who have been through it. Don’t let this get you down, stay strong, we are with you.
    Connie

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  18. Let it go Terry – if someone misunderstood or misinterpreted your intent, and decides not to follow you for that reason, perhaps it is better that they do so. It sure looks like your audience hasn’t been negatively affected – lots and lots of people still holding you and Al in their prayers.

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  19. I have missed some posts because of having shingles in my eye – I am finally able to look at the computer screen longer than 10 minutes, so I missd that post, but although I do not know what was in it, I don’t need to know to understand you have been through a difficult time this past year. Those that love you – love you no matter what. When things like this happen you find out who your true friends are. Love and hugs….

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  20. Terry, I apologize if what I said hurt or offended you. I knew immediately that it was a prompt and your writing so visually beautiful. I was upset that so many were reading it as Al had passed and thought to spare you hurt from all those that did not realize he was still here. You are not losing me although you may want to LOL I don’t give up on people or cast them aside because of mistakes or misunderstandings…I am no way perfect but I don’t need to be, my God covers me in mercy and grace and He only is perfection. I know that He loves you and doesn’t think you were wrong in what you wrote. I will say I hope that what you wrote is the way we ALL go home…wouldn’t that be beautiful? I think you probably had a vision from our Lord letting you know how Al would go home and if I were in your shoes (such big ones to fill) I would read that to Al and let him no that this would be the beautiful way to go home, how gloriuos it will be. Love and hugs my friend.

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  21. Well. I must have gone to bed before you posted the prompt, so I’m coming in late on this discussion–which, in my never-to-be-humble opinion, should never have taken place. I went to your FB page and found the article in question, read it, and found it perfectly clear that you were responding to a prompt and that you were not writing in real time. Seems to me that those who are upset didn’t read carefully, and they should be apologizing to you! You did absolutely nothing wrong; you stated up front what you were doing. Terry, you did NOTHING WRONG! I am amazed at those who felt the need to berate you over the piece, adding nothing but worry and sorrow to your already bigger-than-life load. Shame on them. They need to be more careful in how they read. And you need to let their criticism go. It is unfounded and cruel.

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    • I want to be as strong as you. You are a good friend and I am so thankful you didn’t leave my blog. Love and hugs my friend. I will do my best to let this painful post rest

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  22. Dearest Terry – I also missed the prompt line at the beginning – but listen ….. YOU ARE an incredible writer. That you could write that and many believed it to be true is amazing – a gift. No hard feelings. I would re-post it with a large bold explanation – your writing was wonderful and believable. AND – when the time comes for Al to go home – I do hope you can experience your writing in reality. Beautiful. Keep writing.
    ❤ cate b

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  23. oh, you still got me alright. I always receive your posts via email and mostly read them from there, maybe that is why I saw the prompt line. For those who skipped it, its okay and nobody’s fault really and I’m sure they’ll stick with you. It is also not your fault that your story was so believable. Only tells you how much of an amazing writer you are. Keep being strong, keep being you. Hugs and prayers to you and Al.

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  24. Terry, I just read the post in my e-mail and I think it is a beautiful piece of writing and a wonderful way to think of Al’s passing which probably brought you some comfort to imagine it. I think those who misread it should go through it once more and receive the beauty of the message there. And I’m sure there are angels in Al’s room and Jesus is certainly there all the time though you cannot see them. For those people to add to your burden with nasty comments is totally unacceptable. As someone has already said above, they need to apologize to you for their mistake. God bless you and comfort you.

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    • Thank you for seeing my own vision in this post. I loved what I read and never meant it to be tarnished in my own mind. What I wrote is what I would dream of seeing as Al is lifted from this painful earth to a pain free heaven

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      • Terry, it’s far healthier for you to picture his passing in that manner than to visualize all the negative things that could happen when someone dies. Death is difficult enough for those left behind without imagining all the negative details that could, but may not, happen. And we know that Jesus is ready to receive Al into His arms the second Al’s spirit leaves his body. I believe the angels will rejoice at that time, too. You have been continually experiencing all the horrific symptoms MSA causes and you need some relief from time to time to relieve at least a tiny bit of the stress it brings you. We humans all too often look at the negative rather than the positive when the Lord wants us to concentrate on the positive things that are in agreement with His Word. Keep on looking to Jesus. I’m praying.

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