Daily Archives: March 4, 2014
Frustrations and Laughter
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Wow, what a day from hell. It started out good. I got up before my time to and hopped in the shower. Al was sleeping so I took the time to even dry my hair. Dressed and bed made I fed the cat, and sat down to make some phone calls.
I am still searching for any good person to help me here at the house. Do you know how frustrating it is to hear so many scream they need a job, but then no one wants…
Look Down Upon Me
Look Down Upon Me
Is not my heart
Able to be healed
When it has been broken
For so long. I weep into
my hands and my
body trembles
As I see your
Face and your
Eyes say please
Help me
I hear your voice
But can’t make
Out the words
I fall to the floor
And hold my hands
Stretched up before me
Oh hear my cries
Wipe my tears
Take the misery a way
Bring peace unto us
Take a way the old
Bring forth the new
Let the day begin
With the calm of the night
And end with the bright sun light
Oh hear me oh God
Look down upon me
With love in your soul
And tears in my eyes
Wipe this time a way
But leave memories so dear
Amen
Written by,
Terry Shepherd
03.04.2014
Frustrations and Laughter
Wow, what a day from hell. It started out good. I got up before my time to and hopped in the shower. Al was sleeping so I took the time to even dry my hair. Dressed and bed made I fed the cat, and sat down to make some phone calls.
I am still searching for any good person to help me here at the house. Do you know how frustrating it is to hear so many scream they need a job, but then no one wants to work here?
A friend came this morning and helped me give Al his bath. A couple of hours later the caregiver came and then from that point on unexpected visitors appeared and my day got quickly worse.
Do you remember back to when you were young, like elementary age? The things we threw fits about and argued about seemed so important. Today, if we act like this we are considered less than young. We could be considered petty.
Yes, that was my entire day. Awful, nasty, he/she blaming others. All this came about over me trying to something right. I won’t go into deep details. As far as I know, all is resolved.
As for Al he has barely eaten today. He was the one most calm all day. Sleeping seems to be his past time anymore.
The caregiver is gone, it is almost time to check to see if Al wants to eat supper. I am listening to the news. The weather is on. I just want to puke. Yep, I used that word. A chance of one inch more of snow.
What is up with this terrible winter? Here in Indiana in my area we have had 101 inches of snow. Starting way before winter arrived and never letting up with way too many below zero temperatures.
I swear, when this chapter of my life is over, I am renting a motel room or running away from this house and I am going to lock myself up in a hippie house. A house filled with pretty flowers floating on the walls. Colors everywhere. Happy smiles on everyone’s faces.
Oh wait, that sort of sounds like the seventies doesn’t it? Well maybe I have returned as an adult in a hidden flower child costume, except no drugs. I won’t need drugs. The release from all of this stress will be my natural high.
I am sitting here laughing my butt off and I have no reason why. Just laughing, yes, laughing. Guess it is a good thing there are no window peepers or they would call the white straight jacket people trying to have this insane person committed.
Oh well, tis life, another day, another penny earned. Frustrations and laughter all in the same sentence. Doesn’t sound right, but it works for me.
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Thank-You
I want to take a moment and give my heart of thanks to all who helped with the donation of monies to purchase my brother’s tombstone. I can not express my gratitude enough for what you have done.
Here is the link to what people did for Al.
https://www.giveforward.com/fundraiser/4gx3/burial-expense-tombstone
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Do As You’re Told Missy
For a couple of weeks now I have been introduced to the reality of dying and how food and water affect the process. I preferred to ignore this new idea given to me. After all I was not going to do anything that may make my brother feel I was nothing less than a good sister.
We all know that I have done everything in my power to grant Al all of his dreams and wishes before he leaves this earth. I…
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Fire In My Veins
Fire In My Veins
The sun has set
The world gone still
A chill in my veins
As I wait for you
To walk through that door
To be mine once more
The fire shall burn
The flames shall warm
As I walk into your arms
Once again.
Written by,
Terry Shepherd
03.03.2014
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