Yesterday Al slept most of the day. It was pretty busy though. People drifting in and out. Me trying to run to the grocery store. A smell of fresh air and the oldies tunes beating on my radio.
Today, it is entirely different. Al is talking about people I don’t know. He doesn’t know the caregiver’s name. My friend came here late afternoon yesterday and he didn’t know who she was either.
Today, he is awake and confused. He is laying in his bed saying, ” Please, please, please”. He is talking about someone named Tiffany. I am not familiar with this person. He has asked for the basketball game to be on. I put it on. He wants it changed. He wants the lights and TV off.
I can barely deal with this today and I am looking so forward to Monday morning. I used to feel sadness or guilt when I thought of him leaving, but today, I have to admit him and I having a break from each other for a few days could do him, and me possibly wonders. I think I will run a way, just like this horse, gallop into the winds!!
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Totally understandable my friend. Hope the rest of the weekend goes better 🙂
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me too Brian. It has been a long day
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I understand completely Terry. You need a break. This is wearing you down, and what good are you if you are too exhausted to do anything? Look forward to the break.
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I am, the more this day has gone by, the more I am looking forward to Monday. Thanks Al!
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DO you have any plans for Monday?
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Yes!! I am going to go to the nursing home and make final statements on Al’s care and then I am off to the mall to my favorite store, Macy’s!!!!! Watch out everyone! I am on the loose!!!! LOL
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Yay. Good girl 🙂
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You need the break and keep in mind, that if Al could step away, be his old self and look at the situation, he would want you to take a break, too.
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This is very true. If Al could change things he would want this. Thank you for bringing this to my attention. Hugs
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Come Monday – you will have a nice break. I know you will still be thinking about & worrying about Al. But – you need to recharge & refresh – for your own health & well-being.
{Hugs} to you
{Hugs} to Al
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You know me well RoSy. I will worry and stress but I need and am taking that break! I know I won’t get another until he has passed
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try to have fun at Macy’s…show us what you bought!
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I sure will Marilyn!!!
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Er Ma Gerd! I lurv Macys!!!!!
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Come with me!!!
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Would love to. The closest one we have is in Memphis. That’s a two hour drive from here but I still make it periodically.
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I love Tenn
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I have finally broken down and scheduled a one week visit for Bob at the VA Respite Program. He is soooo going to pitch a fit, but I have to. And I am going to take some days off of work also. The Neuro and the PCP both brought it up at his last appointment. On the way home he asked me if he could go with me when I went on Respite LOL! I told him that his going with me was not what Respite means. Hope you have a wonderful break you have earned it and need it!
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Let’s raise our glasses and toast to good respite, both for our loved ones and ourselves!!! big hugs!!
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Sweetie you need a break.
Thank God you are getting a break.
Hugs
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Thanks Granny, a break sounds nice
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It’s been a long time coming, but I’m so glad you’re finally going to get a chance to breathe and let someone else bear the burden for a bit. You and Al both need this. 🙂
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Thanks Deborah. It’s going to feel a bit strange
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You’ve had a lot of strange lately. It’s about time to have a good strange. 🙂
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I feel so washed with sorrow for you and Al – so many tears and so much admiration for you my dear friend.
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You desperately need the break Terry!
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I am looking forward to this
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