Another Break? Yes!


How can one person pack up a house for two months,  little by little and still be packing today? Well, I don’t really know, but I do know I am that one person. I think I am worn down.

When I took care of my father I did a great job. I handled a 60 hour week and was also at my dad’s beck and call. With my brother I kept up with the constant changes; but I will tell you this, the last four months of  his life did me in.

I have never seemed to bounce back with energy. I am tired all the time. I don’t sleep well at nights any longer since Al is gone. I know this is one big problem. I need regulated sleep. I have to stay at my daughter’s home for a few days when I move and I bet I sleep like a baby at nights, because there will be someone else in the house besides myself.

I wake up before it is dawn. I try to stay awake all day but I can’t, I am too pooped. I have to take a nap. It doesn’t help either that my stability is slipping just a little. I feel like I am walking sideways, but no one notices much but me and my doctor. I already don’t like this Parkinson’s Disease. I don’t have time for it, to be honest.

My feet burn 24/7 but feel like fire when I am on them too long. I guess this is another reason I am still packing things up. I like my inner self much better than the body self. It sucks getting older and being Diabetic along with Parkinson’s Disease.

Who should I blame? No one really. Out of love I cared for my dad and brother. I wouldn’t change a thing if I could go back. I got wore out. I set myself up for medical problems to come sooner than later.

Of course I am taking a 100th break again by writing to all of you because my feet burn so bad. I have my bedroom completely done and am starting to pack the overnight bag for my daughter’s home.

I have the bathroom cleaned out except the toilet paper, toothbrush and toothpaste. You can see what is important to me in the bathroom area, right? I have 99% of my kitchen cupboards all emptied.

Al’s room is boxes galore. The other bathroom has my hair junk and hairdryer. So now I am looking around at my living room and I think, I wish I was at a nice country setting with a beautiful pond, laying on a soft blanket, staring out at nature.

Well, break is over. I am sure I will be back to the computer within an hour. Talk to you later.

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25 thoughts on “Another Break? Yes!

      • You are the person whose example I want to follow, Terry and I am trying. But you had to contend with Al’s physical pain, crappy nursing home, and so many other difficulties. I salute you for having survived your enormous task of caring for Al. Not only that, you have honored him in your blog and your book. Bravo, Terry and thank you for your encouragement to me! Jxx

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  1. Hopefully in a few weeks time you will be able to sit back and enjoy your new surroundings with all of this behind you. Prayers for no foot pain or symptoms of Parkinson’s while you move. It is stressful enough with all the extra burdens of your health. {{hugs}}

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