A Quick Day


Today was a quick day. I got up and changed sheets on my bed. I swept and mopped floors and did a couple of loads of laundry. I decided to take a break and get online but about the time I did my phone rang.

It was a call that I had been keeping my hopes up for and it came. This in turn took away my break and I had to get dressed and leave. I spent the better part of the next three hours getting tests done. I didn’t expect all the extras in my time frame so my sugars dropped.

Thankfully it was carry- in day at the office I was at so they gave me a nice piece of apple/nut cake. It sure was good. It brought my sugars back up and I was able to drive to home where food was waiting to be fixed.

Have you ever been married and then divorced and ended up being better friends apart? This is what happened to my ex and I.  I hadn’t seen him for about three years. He now lives less than two hours away. He let me know he was coming by if I wasn’t busy.

When he arrived he took me out to supper. We visited and talked about old days. He helped me with a couple of odd jobs here that I had been struggling with. I can actually say it was nicer visiting than being married to him.

He says he will stop by again soon, and I agreed to this. No, no plans, no way, no relationship other than friendship. It just wouldn’t work. I had to add that part because I know a few of you are thinking ahead, so I had to take care of those wandering thoughts.

Tomorrow morning at 11 is my appointment with Humana. Still keep those fingers crossed that all goes well. I think if I heard right my daughter is going to play hair stylist with me tomorrow sometime also.

Now it is quiet again. I enjoy my quiet time; but I sure do enjoy having friends and family visits too. It isn’t good for the soul to be too alone too often, or at least this is the way I feel.

One thing I found today here at home was the flag that Al Forbes bought for my brother. It brought a few tears but not too many. I rather remembered better thoughts about Al than the sad ones of sickness.

I still have my times where I can cry and cry, but someone once told me here in blogger world that as time moves by, the good memories will replace the tears. I can see this happening a little at a time.

Although I still don’t know anyone around here except my family, I don’t see the wheelchair, Hospice, and all the sickness in my new place. It is easier now to bury the suffering he and I went through.

I shared conversation with my ex about Al and I noticed I was chatting about all the good times and very little about the sad times. This is a good feeling to me. He and I had very many difficult moments where we butted heads. With the illness on top, life seemed almost unbearable, but now it seems worth living again.

 

Life is what we make it

It can be good or full of shit

Fog slows us down

Sadness drags us to the ground

But then the sun rays show

That forward we must go

Thinking becomes more clear

But the love I will always hold dear

I wouldn’t change a thing today

About Al and his MSA

We shared many good days

And I put to rest the dark rays

Now when I say my brother’s name

I don’t play so much the game

Of tears and sleeping away

I can see it is a bright new day.

Written by,

Terry Shepherd

10/16/2014

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16 thoughts on “A Quick Day

    • I am not working on forgetting my brother, but I will admit that trying to find my way around a new area, putting the house together and trying to settle in keeps my mind busy. I think about Al each day, but the tears aren’t as heavy. Hugs and love Ute

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    • My thoughts are so full of trying to figure out where I am going when I drive or putting the house together, I don’t have the time to cry as much as I did. I think of Al every day but the tears don’t fall as heavily. I still miss him so much but I can tell I am healing. We never forget them, our loved ones do we? It seems we learn to adjust to the pain and keep moving on

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      • Terry I think as time goes on when a loved ones face appears in our memory we are warmed by thr realaziation that their life and our life have been very much threads in the same fabric and this same fabric endures, it’s Maker designed it that way too last! And it does far beyond our visible horizon on into that place where all things are new and perfect. Keep moving on, you won’t forget but the memories will change and be a blessing.

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      • I think you are right. You know what? My mom has been gone 14 years and I can’t even remember the sound of her voice. I sure wish I could

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  1. it sounds like things are going well and fingers are crossed for all to go well for you.

    nice that you and your ex can be friends. i have no doubt you will make many friends soon and look forward to hearing of your new adventures:)

    sending love and hugs

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    • This morning I start my new job. Nervous? A little, but going in with a positive attitude of what doors it will open for me. It has been some time since I have had a boss over me, but I can do it, I know I can. I just keep telling myself, God did this for me for reasons I don’t know yet, but they will be good. My only fear? Stumbling or falling

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