I am listening to Joyce Meyers right now and she is speaking on Motivation. For the first time since my brother has passed, I have lost my motivation for anything.
It is a sad thing to actually place a name on my feelings. For two years, I have thought of many reasons why I am not writing as much as I used to. I sleep much more often, I use my camera still quite a bit, but not as much as my heart desires.
I know I miss seeing my kids and grandchildren. I live in one part of the world, and I get to see family and grandchildren. I return to my home town and I get to see the other kids and grandchildren; but not as much as I would like to.
How can I say, as much as I would like to?
Who’s stopping me from doing what I want? I think a better phrase is what is stopping me. Motivation, what a powerful word.
I don’t know anyone who doesn’t do something without a goal. We work, because a paycheck comes, and if we are lucky, we like our jobs. We go to the grocery store, because we want to eat. We pay our bills, so we can have a place to live.
There is a nagging at my mind as I write this. Do I need professional help, or is this the remains of losing my parents and brother.
I am not sure and even if inside my gut I am sure; what will I do about it.
Is depression and motivation the same? I do believe I get depressed at times because I can’t walk very well anymore. I don’t have the energy I used to. The truth is, I can’t kick the Parkinson’s away, but I need to get another goal going.
It isn’t enough to notice all God’s beauty. It isn’t enough to say thank-you to God for allowing me to wake up one more day. I need to get motivated, and LIVE each day, not just sit and notice.
Thanks for reading this post. It may seem wired wrong or you may be thinking; where is she coming from; but for me, I am actually relieved I have come across the correct noun describing me for the last several months.
the reason or reasons one has for acting or behaving in a particular way.“escape can be a strong motivation for travel”