“I can’t do this anymore!”
“Do what?” the mind asked.
“This bouncing back and forth. Keeping my faith. Thinking everything is going to be alright. It’s just too much!”
” I understand what you are saying. I play this game every day, sometimes several times per day. It just gets old. I look down at my body. I see the crepe skin, the bags under my eyes. I see the smile try to widen and the reflection of tears welling in my eyes. I see my swollen legs and feet. I feel the sick feeling in my gut.”
The two sit in silence digesting each other’s words. Shame and guilt over the battle of the thoughts. Realizing there is not a damn thing that can be done. No cures have been found and it doesn’t seem enough people really are aware of the need.
Thinking back to the days of bright sunshine. “Remember when we used to walk down to the playground and sit in one of the black, leather seats hooked up to a metal chain? We pushed with our legs. “Remember when we had stronger legs?” Silence.
We felt the breeze brushing our hair and the feeling of freedom and joy. Wow, those were awesome times! “What happened? I don’t get it! It wasn’t supposed to end up like this, for heaven’s sake!”
“Today, our legs swing, but not the way we like. They swing when someone tries to sit me up on the edge of the bed. They swing and feel like a wet rag when they believe I need to get up and take a real bath.”
“Why don’t people just leave us alone? Can’t they see we are humiliated by them having to witness what our bodies can’t do any longer? Damn it! Just leave us alone. We just want to be left alone and die with some dignity!”
“They love us dummy. That’s why they do the things they do. They don’t understand how we feel just by looking at our faces. They have to read our eyes! How can they feel our pain when we can no longer say a word?” Silence
Letting out a deep sigh, the other follows the lead. “This sucks, you know. We are no longer someone they can count on. They are being forced to ponder on what their life will be like once we are buried and out of sight.
“Yeah, you are right. We ought to feel more compassion for them. We promised them the world and forever, and we are now giving them a view of less time.”
“I agree. Let’s give them a break. Let’s try real hard not to show the pain we are in. Let’s try to show appreciation in any way we can, that they are still sticking beside us, taking care of us. I wonder why they do that? They could just take off and find another life.”
“Dummy, they stick around and do what they do for one reason.”
“They love us.”
Karen’s Taco Pasta
- 16 ounces dry fettuccine pasta
- 1 pound lean ground beef
- 1 (1.25 ounce) package taco seasoning mix
- 4 ounces shredded Cheddar cheese
- 3 tomatoes, diced
- salt to taste
- ground black pepper to taste
- 1 pinch garlic powder
- 3/4 (6 ounce) can black olives, drained and chopped
- 2 tablespoons grated Parmesan cheese
- Cook pasta in a large pot of boiling salted water until al dente. Drain.
- Meanwhile, in a large skillet cook ground beef. Drain excess grease. Add taco seasoning packet as directed on package.
- Transfer pasta to a large bowl. Toss with cooked meat mixture, prepared cheese, and tomatoes. If desired, add sliced olives. Season to taste with salt, pepper, and garlic powder. Sprinkle with grated Parmesan cheese. Serve immediately.
Printed From Allrecipes.com 6/26/2018
Grilled Halibut with Cilantro Garlic Butter
- 4 (6 ounce) fillets halibut
- 1 lime, cut into wedges
- salt and pepper to taste
- 3 cloves garlic, coarsely chopped
- 1/2 cup chopped fresh cilantro
- 1 tablespoon fresh lime juice
- 2 tablespoons butter
- 1 tablespoon olive oil
- Preheat a grill for high heat. Squeeze the juice from the lime wedges over fish fillets, then season them with salt and pepper.
- Grill fish fillets for about 5 minutes on each side, until browned and fish can be flaked with a fork. Remove to a warm serving plate.
- Heat the oil in a skillet over medium heat. Add the garlic; cook and stir just until fragrant, about 2 minutes. Stir in the butter, remaining lime juice and cilantro. Serve fish with the cilantro butter sauce.
Printed From Allrecipes.com 6/26/2018
Strawberry JELL-O Poke Cake
yield: SERVES 16
prep time: 4 HOURS
- 1 box (18.25 oz ) Funfetti Cake Mix, prepared with ingredients.
- 1 box (3oz) JELL-O Strawberry gelatin mix
- 1 cup water, boiling
- 8 oz Cool Whip, thawed
- Bake cake in a 13×9 baking dish, as directed on box. Cool completely.
- Poke holes over cooled cake using a fork.
- In a small bowl, mix gelatin with boiling water. Stir until sugar is dissolved. Pour gelatin over cake slowly, allowing it to fill the holes in the cake. Top with Cool Whip and sprinkles. Refrigerate for 4 hours, or overnight. ENJOY!