I had to write to you this morning because I read a post that reminded me so much of who I used to be. My heart ached as I understood her fear of what tomorrow holds. I do have an illness, this is true.
It is hard to walk, it has affected my legs and feet. I could not even devour the idea of walking in a relay unless it was hands on a walker and at a snail’s pace. I choke on some foods. I have trouble bathing. I have to take much longer to clean my house and baking or fixing a medium size meal would be very difficult.
When I received my news on how much my monthly disability check would be and I saw the report that the additional help of food stamps would only amount to fifteen dollars a month; I panicked. How can anyone live on fifteen dollars a week in food when I actually can see the price changes at the grocery stores rise sometimes in one week.
Without being able to earn a paycheck, how was I going to go shopping or keep the upkeep on car repairs or so many things I used to have to do. This illness has taken so much from my normal living and yet this illness has blessed me with new eyes.
I never noticed how beautiful the sun rising and lowering was. I never had the time to look. I never saw how close God was, standing right beside me, providing me with food that I need, introducing me to my camera, giving me the intelligence and knowledge to set up pages for patients and caregivers to come to for help.
I would barely notice that my needs were actually not being met by me; but by God. Now, I thank God for where I am at today. I thank him for my place to live, my friends, waking up each morning.
A new light has better shining ability to see things more clearly and this was instilled in my heart and soul. No illness is fun. I have never heard anyone say, I am so thankful I have cancer.
Everything that happens to us in our lives was planned out for us before we were born by our holy God. He will carry me through this. I will have bad days and good days. I will die one day and I shall see Jesus and I will be living in the most grand of all places; like no place on this earth.
Thank-you Jesus, for placing me right where you need me to be. Please continue to show me how to be of help to others. Please give me strength to realize you are holding me on the bad days. Thank-you for your love that never ends. Amen
Make-Ahead Breakfast Bars
- cooking spray
- 3 cups frozen Southern-style hash browns
- 4 eggs, lightly beaten
- 1 cup cubed fully cooked ham
- 1 cup shredded Cheddar-Monterey Jack cheese blend
- 1/2 teaspoon onion powder
- 1/4 teaspoon salt
- 1/8 teaspoon ground black pepper
- Preheat the oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C). Grease an 8×11-inch casserole dish with cooking spray.
- Mix hash browns, eggs, ham, Cheddar-Jack cheese, onion powder, salt, and pepper together. Pour mixture into the prepared dish. Shake dish gently from side to side to level out ingredients.
- Bake, uncovered, in the preheated oven until top starts to brown, about 40 minutes. Cool before cutting into bars.
Printed From Allrecipes.com 7/31/2018
Banana Zucchini Bread
yield: 2 LOAVES
prep time: 15 MINUTES
cook time: 60 MINUTES
- 4 cups all-purpose flour
- 2 cups granulated sugar
- 1 Tbsp baking powder
- 1 tsp baking soda
- 1 tsp kosher salt
- 3 large ripe bananas, mashed
- 1 cup unsalted butter, melted
- 1/4 cup milk (I use skim)
- 4 large eggs
- 2 tsp cinnamon
- 2 cups finely shredded zucchini
- 1 cup chopped pecans
- Grease and flour two 9-inch x 5-inch loaf pans (or use baking spray). I like to line the bottom of the pan with parchment paper as an extra precaution. Set aside.
- In a large bowl, combine everything except zucchini and pecans. Beat until well blended, about 2 minutes. Fold in zucchini and pecans.
- Pour into prepared pans and bake in a 350°F oven for 60-65 minutes. Remove and cool on wire rack 10 minutes. Remove from pan and cool completely.
- Store in airtight container at room temperature, or freeze in a ziploc freezer bags. ENJOY!
Zebra Cake III
- 1 1/2 cups heavy whipping cream
- 2 tablespoons confectioners’ sugar
- 2 teaspoons vanilla extract
- 1 (9 ounce) package chocolate wafer cookies
- 1/4 cup grated chocolate
- Beat cream in a large glass or metal mixing bowl with an electric mixer. Gradually add confectioners’ sugar and vanilla extract, continuing to beat until the cream holds stiff peaks. Lift your beater or whisk straight up: the whipped cream should form a sharp peak that holds its shape.
- Spread a generous teaspoon of whipped cream on each cookie. Press cookies together to make 3-inch stacks.
- Spread a 1-inch wide line of whipped cream down center of a serving platter. Assemble cookie stacks into a log on platter following the line of whipped cream.
- Frost cookie log with remaining whipped cream and sprinkle with grated chocolate.
- Cover tightly and refrigerate overnight.
- To serve, slice diagonally to create striped pieces.
Printed From Allrecipes.com 7/31/2018
prep time: 15 MINUTES PREP, 4 HOURS CHILL TIME
- 1 lb broccoli florets, cut bite size
- 1/3 cup red onion, cut in strips
- 1 cup shredded cheddar cheese
- 1/2 lb bacon, cooked and crumbled
- 1/2 cup raisins
- 1/3 cup sunflower seeds (no shells)
- 1 cup mayonnaise
- 2 Tbsp cider vinegar
- 1/4 cup granulated sugar
- In a pot of boiling water, drop broccoli and cook for about 1 minute. Remove immediately and rinse with cold water. Place in a large bowl.
- Add onion, cheese, bacon, raisins, and sunflower seeds to broccoli.
- In a small bowl, whisk together the mayo, vinegar and sugar. Pour over salad right before serving.
- I prefer to pour it over the salad and allow the salad to “soften” for about 4 hours. You decide.
I was up before the sun rose. It is a quiet time of day. A time to ponder on what I would do. How will I affect someone’s day today. A time to watch God perform his masterpiece when the sun finally rises over the moon.
I didn’t really have any big plans for today and yet I am amazed that it is now 9:30 p.m. Some would say that my life is boring and believe me; there are days I would have to agree.
I guess when you have a disability of some sort and you don’t want to succumb to it; you find other ways to spend your time. I look back on my life and everything was on a schedule.
The kids had to be on the bus at a certain time. The husband had to be at work on time. Meat had to be taken out of the freezer early enough to thaw for supper preparation. Laundry had to be done daily to keep up with a family of five.
Coffee on, breakfast made, kids up, bedrooms straightened, sweeper ran, errands ran, school functions, dentist and doctor appointments made and attended. Oh my, I get tired just thinking what I used to do.
Today, I do have to get up no later than 8:30 a.m. to take my insulin and medications. I can choose when to eat, where to sit and eat. I can make my bed immediately or wait until later or I can leave it go all day.
There is no more fixing meals for five. I can have an egg and toast for supper, cereal for breakfast. I can take a nap if I wish, go to bed when I want, do my laundry when I feel like it.
Being older can have its advantages. I rarely set an alarm clock, unless a doctor’s appointment is scheduled for the next morning. I can have music on or the television or I can have peace and quiet. I can sit and watch the sun rise and watch the moon come out.
God is still taking care of me. He has allowed my illness to change my view in life and by that, I mean the view I take in from what I saw when I was a young mom. I appreciate people who want to chat with me.
I appreciate the small things in life. I appreciate the beauty around me. I take notice. I never had time for that before. Life can change at any moment for each of us. I think it is important to love each moment we are gifted. I wish I would have taken notice of my life earlier but then again, I probably would have seen it in a different light.
Take Notice Now
Always remember this day
Take nothing for granted
For the breath you take
Is on borrowed time
The flowers bloom for a moment
The sun shines for today
The moon may not shine tommorow
See it, love it, treasure life.
I watched the sun rise today
Peeking through the dark
In less than half an hour or so
It moved as a delicate lark.
I sat and pondered how fast we move
Although I sat and never moved
In less than an hour or so
The sun had found its groove.
Amazing how God made this earth
It spins faster than we can blink
We shouldn’t really worry today
It’s just not worth the stink.
Last evening, I watched the movie called Wonder. I had seen the trailer and knew it was my kind of movie. Truth, heart-touching and real.
As soon as I got into the first few minutes; I knew I was going to be glued to it. It spoke to me. It reminded me of myself and so many others that look at themselves as I do.
I have always had to deal with something so petty as my looks. In elementary school, it was the saying of, fatty fatty, two by four, can’t get through the bathroom door.
In reality, I was not that heavy. I was chunky but not enough to be made fun of like I was. Kids can be so cruel, you know? Maybe there is a lot of insecurities among children and they just truly want to fit in, so making fun of others makes them stand out in the crowd; but only on a temporary basis.
I got made fun of because I began wearing glasses in the first grade. I had to start wearing a training bra younger than the other girls. The boys used to like to point that out by trying to snap the back of the bra when I leaned over the water fountain to get a drink.
What’s funny or odd about the situation was I had lots of friends. I fell in place immediately; but there were always those few who could make me an emotional wreck.
On Wonder, the young child was born with a less than a normal face. The movie honed in on what a child has to go through with his peers.
I give this movie, Wonder, a five star rating because, although the young man was teased and bullied, his parents and sister had love for this child and showed it continually throughout the movie. They showed their hearts and feelings. It was heart warming to also see the school stand by this student.
The brother had every reason to know and understand the love of a family. They were there for him in every situation, letting him know, no matter what, they stood by him.
This has slowly slipped away from our families today. Busy schedules, working extra hours, not eating at the table as a family; all this creates distance from the family circle. Kids need to know, adults need to know, that they are wanted and cared about.
My parents worked too. I came home from school to an empty house, but there were many ways that they let me know I was loved.
I didn’t have that cement bond with my parents like the Leave it to beaver television show. That was an entertaining series, a perhaps hidden desire some of us carry on the inside, that we are the circle of attention each day.
i don’t believe life is really like that show, and I am very thankful for my own upbringing. Watching Wonder made me wish that every child in America could experience that love. I believe that bullying and killing and the lack of respect for your elders would not be a highlight on a TV news station.
I pray that the fear parents carry, wondering if their child will come home or will there be a killing today, vanishes from the mind. I don’t want a child to go to school having to be on guard each day for their safety.
I want children to be happy. To be educated, to play at recess, to fit in, and to have a well balanced life. I will continue these prayers until they are answered.
Anyways, go to Red Box and rent the movie. I think you will enjoy it as much as I did. Perhaps it will take you back to your childhood and make you even more grateful for your own upbringing.
Let me know friends, if you see this movie and what you thought of it.