Today I was invited by a friend here where I live to a luncheon at a place in Mentone, Indiana called, Teals. Mentone is a small country town about fifteen minutes from my home.
I looked forward to going as I had been there before and they serve a nice buffet for lunch including my favorite two meats; chicken and fish. It was good as usual. I was so proud of myself as I didn’t touch one sweet dessert and believe me, I looked them over.
I had my regular plate and a small plate in both my hands and began my journey back to my seat when all of a sudden I started to weeble wobble. I had my balance thrown off because I had something in both hands.
Thankfully, my friend is a retired nurse and am familiar with my actions. She immediately took my plates and I began to follow her but I was frozen in spot. I instantly became humiliated and embarrassed as people who were strangers were looking at me and began asking, what’s wrong?
She saw I wasn’t moving so had me place my hand on her arm and she guided me back to my seat. I thank you Vonnie for rescuing me at that moment. When I sat down my internal tremors began and my body was in overload as if I had just ran a marathon.
I told myself, no more, I am not going out in public anymore, but I knew I couldn’t hold myself to that as I like socializing too much. My heart is low tonight as I have seen this weeble wobble way too much lately. It seems to be a daily thing anymore.
My balance is definitely not improving. My Ataxia has caused me issues with my toes curling and I am beginning to have arch problems from the non-wanted stretching my toes are doing and I even see some light bruising on the side of my arch.
I really don’t want to give up going out in public but I don’t know how to fix things that happen to my body and I certainly don’t know how to respond to the odd looks and questions when I am not myself.
I have to get back on that saddle and not give up but how?