Today I had a doctor’s appointment. It was a check-up from the labs I had drawn yesterday. We go over the report and he makes suggestions as to what I can do to help myself.
All the numbers on those LD’s etc were in normal ranges. I was happy. My sugars had come down a little with having added five units of insulin these past few months but he wants them to where they were several years ago, I think, so he added five more units of insulin.
It was my turn to make suggestions this visit. I had a full memory list of what I wanted to ask but got shot down on all of my questions. He explained why this and that and I understood what he was saying, until we got to my last question.
I told him about my Dystonia causing my arch to hurt most days from my toes curling. I explained that my weeble-wobble was becoming more of a daily issue now. He said, there wasn’t anything to FIX ME.
I guess I knew it inside from belonging to so many support groups on FB. What his suggestion was as he was opening the door to leave was; “Probably time to consider using a walker full-time and get a wheelchair.”
I said nothing. He said nothing. He gave me a pat on the shoulder and smiled then left to see the next patient. I stood and stared at him as he walked away. It has been four hours since that talk and I still don’t want to believe it.
I told one of my friends about it and expressed I was not ready to sit in a wheelchair, even part-time. They asked me, “Falls and hospitals or safe and at home?”
Thinking and praying for things to get better, Terr xxx
LikeLiked by 1 person
I will always have hope but as we both know, with neurological diseases, not much can be studied, fixed or done. Thanks and hugs
LikeLiked by 1 person
I feel for you – sometimes the doctors’ news is not the best. Bless your heart.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Thanks, I sometimes get feeling a little angry and I probably shouldn’t. I took care of so many patients through the years and took care of my dad and brother until they passed, and this is what I end up with? Thankfully, I don’t think that too often. Hugs my friend
LikeLiked by 1 person
There is no rhyme nor reason to life. You have been so good to so many others. Now it’s someone’s opportunity to be kind to you.
LikeLiked by 1 person
I guess that is a little hard for me to handle as I have always been the one there for others. Hugs
LikeLike
Sometimes the doctors don’t know. Do what you are doing now and believe you can do better. Probably there are some exercises you can do at home to improve it. I know this amazing guy who has Parkinsons and is not getting beaten by the condition. He does exercises, meditates and prays.
LikeLiked by 1 person
He is unique. I know lots of patients who would give anything to be like your friend. Once the body breaks down there isn’t a whole lot left, but we all carry hope that something good will come from this. I prayed and prayed for my brother but I lost and I talk to many patients today and I wish with all my heart I could fix things. Hugs
LikeLiked by 1 person