You Ask me Why I’m Smiling


A few days ago a friend and I were watching a Hallmark movie. It was the usual kind, finding romance, being happy. This is something that most of us want in our adult lives. To have that someone special, who genuinely cares, who would lie down their life to save yours.

I have caught myself smiling at this type of movie before but I hadn’t been asked, why are you smiling? I said I didn’t know. Actually I did know, deep down inside, this has been my dream for several years.

I had that love once and it for various reasons didn’t survive my lifetime. After healing, I found love again, but it was never the same. Maybe it has something to do with, well I don’t really know what it has to do with, but something changed, or maybe I did.

You ask me why I’m smiling

In the deepest of oceans

There is a mysterious flow

It sometimes touches our hearts

But sometimes passes by.

I see it in others

And I connect with it on TV

It tugs at my heart at times

You know, that feeling that

You just feel it, loved

Cared about deeply

Safe and secure

Going through daily life

Knowing that at any minute

You can find rescue in another heart

The smile without speaking

The look in the eyes speaks all

You would lay your life down for them

And they would do the same for you

Always being thought of with respect

We all long for this

And some of have searched and found

I will continue to go through daily living

And I will be thankful for all I have

But when I watch a Hallmark movie

You may ask me why I’m smiling.

Written by,

Terry Shepherd

08/07/2021