A few days ago a friend and I were watching a Hallmark movie. It was the usual kind, finding romance, being happy. This is something that most of us want in our adult lives. To have that someone special, who genuinely cares, who would lie down their life to save yours.
I have caught myself smiling at this type of movie before but I hadn’t been asked, why are you smiling? I said I didn’t know. Actually I did know, deep down inside, this has been my dream for several years.
I had that love once and it for various reasons didn’t survive my lifetime. After healing, I found love again, but it was never the same. Maybe it has something to do with, well I don’t really know what it has to do with, but something changed, or maybe I did.
You ask me why I’m smiling
In the deepest of oceans
There is a mysterious flow
It sometimes touches our hearts
But sometimes passes by.
I see it in others
And I connect with it on TV
It tugs at my heart at times
You know, that feeling that
You just feel it, loved
Cared about deeply
Safe and secure
Going through daily life
Knowing that at any minute
You can find rescue in another heart
The smile without speaking
The look in the eyes speaks all
You would lay your life down for them
And they would do the same for you
Always being thought of with respect
We all long for this
And some of have searched and found
I will continue to go through daily living
And I will be thankful for all I have
But when I watch a Hallmark movie
You may ask me why I’m smiling.