We Will Move On

Slowly, Indiana is lifting the lock down. Restaurants are at fifty percent and some are not open other than drive thru. I think this is due to some fear. No one wants to get sick.

As for me, in another week, I will be able to get out in public again, according to our Governor.

Eric Joseph Holcomb is an American politician serving as the 51st and current governor of Indiana since 2017. A member of the Republican Party, he served as the 51st lieutenant governor of Indiana from 2016 to 2017 under Governor Mike Pence, now the 48th Vice President of the United States.

In my opinion, he has done his job well. I believe he really cares about us here in Indiana. I have ventured out but with caution and have stayed out of stores unless food is needed to be purchased.

Our weather here for the last few days has been filled with humidity and heat. This is not our usual May weather but instead, it is our August weather. The air conditioner has been on already and I am not happy about that because it cost money.

The topic of schools is getting bigger here. It seems like colleges will resume as normal in the Fall but I am not sure about the lower education classes. I have heard it may still be E learning. I have heard it could be a mixture of actual class time and E learning. I feel bad for the kids who actually need that stimulation of friends around them and a teacher. It will be interesting to see what happens.

High school graduation didn’t happen in a lot of schools because of the virus. Since June is arriving, I have seen that some schools are going to have actual graduations. I hope the kids get to participate in that, they sure do deserve it.

How is the virus affecting your town thus far?

Cried me a River

Each day of this pandemic has set me back health wise. I think it was beginning to do this a few weeks in but I ignored it; mainly because I thought this will be short lived and I can endure it.

I was suddenly thrown into a category of unexplored waters. Winter was here which I despise the older I get, plus the lock down began and continued on even to present. I became inactive.

Oh, of course at first, there is the salient holidays. The busy time of year where you go away from yourself in thought and think of others. The holidays are over and here in Indiana, the freeze and snow kick in for the next several months.

With my age and health concerns, being allowed out of my cage for any purpose other than food or medical, there was nothing much to do with myself. I like a neat and tidy home, but come on people, how many times per week do we want to run that sweeper and dust or how about cleaning that toilet?

Weeks turned into months and I really wasn’t consuming much more food than I was prior the pandemic, I just wasn’t getting any exercise to help keep me at my same weight. I have gained some too.

Each week I weighed myself, I saw a pound increase. I would tell myself, that I will watch more closely what goes into my mouth. I began to find myself hiding in the darkness and actually getting used to it.

I would think about taking my walker outside and walking the boring path of our parking lot. I didn’t though. I had great excuses. It was too cold or it was snowing or raining or I didn’t feel the best. Each of these were true but I would use them to my advantage also.

No, I am not beating myself up but rather telling myself the truth. I have to read this back don’t I? So at this point, I have crossed my own mental goal evidently, because as I looked at those scales, I actually cried this morning.

I cried not only for the weight gain; I cried for the loss of my life, or what I thought I had lost. I couldn’t control anything it seemed, not that I am a control freak, but maybe I am over my own self.

I cried at the loss of not being able to speak to my parents nor grandparents. I cried over the loss of my brother and I cried over the gray, dreary days. I even cried over the pandemic. I cried me a lake and I was the only one swimming. I cried at seeing people rarely. I just cried.

I actually believe I am depressed. I somehow let myself slip into this black puddle with or without realizing it. It really doesn’t matter the reason I guess, what matters is I recognize it. I think it is seasonal depression.

The lack of sunlight, the dreary cold and rainy days. I have spent too many times wishing I lived elsewhere. I have even dreamed of using my walker and going for a walk in November. So now that I know, what do I do?

I actually watched some U-tube videos on chair exercises for Senior citizens this morning, but I didn’t do anything about it. I actually used that dreary and misty morning not to do it. I have to though. I can’t keep being sad and gaining weight. It could cause more health issues.

I miss people, this is for sure. I am a big people person and here where I live; I spend mainly alone. I don’t think I am my own best company during long periods of time. As I finish this post, I am telling myself, the weather is changing this afternoon. It will be warmer and some sun for a change and the weatherman said no more really chilly days. This gives me hope to change things.

Have you or are you going through any of my feelings? Is it the pandemic causing this? I already have an anxiety medication to use when I am anxious or stressed, but I didn’t think I needed it. I am actually pretty calm. Is that crazy or what? If you understand any of what I have said, how did you handle it?

A few things to keep in mind if you comment may be, I can’t drive very far because of my beater car. I can walk only with my walker and volunteering at this point is not an option because of the virus. Are these excuses too? Wow, maybe I am weird. Oh, by the way, I did a positive thing this morning. Instead of remaining in slippers and PJ’s, I got dressed. I asked myself, what for, but then I ignored that question and got dressed anyways.

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Ataxia is a degenerative disease of the nervous system. Many symptoms of Ataxia mimic those of being drunk, such as slurred speech, stumbling, falling, and incoordination. These symptoms are caused by damage to the cerebellum, the part of the brain that is responsible for coordinating movement.

Parkinsonism is any condition that causes a combination of the movement abnormalities seen in Parkinson’s disease — such as tremor, slow movement, impaired speech or muscle stiffness — especially resulting from the loss of dopamine-containing nerve cells (neurons).


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a state of abnormal muscle tone resulting in muscular spasm and abnormal posture, typically due to neurological disease or a side effect of drug therapy.
Involuntary muscle contractions that cause repetitive or twisting movements.
Dystonia may affect one or more parts of the body, and sometimes the entire body. The condition can be mild or severe.
The main symptom is involuntary muscle contractions that result in slow repetitive movements, cramps, or abnormal posture.
Treatments may include drugs, injections, and physical therapy.

I have each of these diagnosis. Sometimes I am amazed at how I get through the days but I do with God’s help.

I had my appointment with my neurologist this past Friday. He said my voice is softer and my words flow less easily. My falls are about the same but my swallowing and choking has greatly increased.

I had tried taking a medication last year that was for Parkinson’s but it made a zero difference so was taken off. My balance is worse and I can’t carry things in my hands if I want to also walk.

He has now added a new diagnosis probability to my list. I feel like I just have some of what my brother and father had, not a lot like they had, but a bit of each. To me, this is like an umbrella which is holding all of these symptoms, except this time what my brother had was included, which was Multiple System Atrophy.

I have to have a new swallow and choking test done and I am being sent to I.U. University in Indianapolis, Indiana. The appointment is for September 9th, 2020.

The new diagnosis included is Parkinson’s Plus.


Multiple System Atophy

Multiple System Atrophy

This affects what’s known as your autonomic nervous system, which controls things like your blood pressure and digestive system. Symptoms can include things like fainting, losing control of your bladder, and constipation. It also causes more typical Parkinson’s symptoms, like shaking, stiffness, and problems with balance or speech.

I just want everything narrowed down to a one or two diagnosis or I’ll go nuts trying to figure out which kind of day I am having. lol

In My Neck of the Woods

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Warsaw is a city in and the county seat of Kosciusko County, Indiana, United States. Warsaw has a population of 13,559 as of the 2010 U.S. Census. WikipediaWeather: 63°F (17°C), Wind S at 10 mph (16 km/h), 38% HumidityZIP Codes: 46580-46582Hotels: 3-star averaging $123. View hotelsPopulation: 14,941 (2018)Local time: Wednesday 8:22 PM

Here in Indiana we are lifting the lock down. For me, I am considered a high risk so I think I can venture out this coming Friday with caution. Restaurants are allowed to have inside dining at a fifty percent capacity.

Churches are allowed to be back in session with seating every other pew. The community YMCA is opening with caution and restrictions and doctors are allowed to do some elective surgeries.

I never dreamed when I first heard of this virus that it would be such a snowball effect. We hear so many stories about how it started. I have heard it started from China eating bats and some stories say it is the conditions of the animals before being butchered. I have heard stories that it was lab made and some very important people made it and have known about its existence for a long time.

It matters, of course, how it came about so we can get a vaccine, but the more important issue to me is how this has affected working people and children. I think of how long it has been that a payroll check has been received or that not everyone here has received their stimulus checks.

Life is tough and I don’t want to see anyone kicked out of their homes or anyone go hungry. There has been many groups that are providing food for those in need. I have seen people come together in so many ways. That is the beauty and maybe the only beauty of this deadly virus.

I pray and I hope you pray or whatever it is that you do that we find a cure and we can go about living again. It may never be like our past living and we can adjust to a new way of living, I’m sure.

God bless you my friends and stay safe.

Words From Indiana

Look at this weather here in Indiana! Cold or chilly, use your own wording. Here in Warsaw, it is below our average May temperatures, but on the other hand, it’s really going to make us northerners appreciate our summer.

It sure seems that the Corona Virus has played havoc on 2020. We here in Indiana, have began to reopen our state. I am not eager to venture out. The numbers are still rising on the sick ones, although there has only been one extra death. How is it in your state? Are you reopening? If so, what businesses are open? I saw that one of my favorite places to eat is now accepting dine-in customers with many restrictions. It’s called Culvers. It’s an ice-cream shop with the best service and the best food.I absolutely love their fish sandwiches. I have never been disappointed. Culvers .hires mildly challenged people and I am all for that. I always have appreciated employers giving the challenged an opportunity to work and feel good about themselves. I know how my brother felt about working and receiving a pay check.

My brother was mildly, mentally challenged He had the lowest, paying job for the nine years he worked there but he never minded. He never missed a day and was a dependable employee. He was so sad to lose his job after suffering his heart attack. He cried. He just didn’t understand why he couldn’t go back. My brother was a very routine kind of guy, so this really messed him up. Unfortunately I lost him to the terrible disease called Multiple System Atrophy. He passed away in 2014.

What are you doing with your time? Have you been able to work from home? How has your home life changed? I have had many more aches and pains from doing much of nothing. I tinker around the home but I need to be doing more. If we can get warmer weather daily, I want to walk as far as I can with my walker. Although, I know my blood pressure bottoms out when standing, I keep telling myself, with more exercise, hopefully I can fix this. It isn’t true but I continue to allow myself to think about it.

Well, I’ll end this with wishing each of you mothers with a gift from me to you through cyber space. I hope you all find something good about tomorrow!!

It’s a Wonderful Day in the Neighborhood

It’s a normal day, well at least a normal day for me.Here in northern Indiana, we had about an hour of sunshine and clouds for the rest of the day. Rain is coming and it is supposed to rain all day tomorrow.

I haven’t done a lot today but yesterday I cooked a chicken and made half of it into pulled chicken and the other half I made chicken with rivals. Have you ever had rivals? It is a food that my grandma and mother made and I have remembered the recipe, although there actually isn’t a recipe to follow.

You cook up your chicken so you get that nice broth. When chicken is done, take it out of the broth and when cooled, shred it. You can have chunks if you choose but I choke so easy, I shred it.

Turn the burner back on low and take four to five eggs and whisk them until fluffy. Add salt and pepper for taste. Then by one-half cups at a time, stir flour into the eggs. When it becomes like pizza dough, drop by your fingers or a fork into the hot broth. Turn the burner up until it begins to boil, then cover and turn it to simmer and let it simmer for fifteen minutes. Take the lid off and add your chicken back in. You can make a veggie and mashed potato sides if you want.

It’s filling and a cheap meal for those chilly days. Today it is about sixty so that is a chilly day for me.

Today, I took, Riley, my cat outside on his leash. We stay on the porch and he gets some fresh air. The neighbor lady was sitting out so we chatted. I told her about what I had been doing and mentioned the rivals. She had never heard of them so I got her a bowl so she can have some for her supper. She is a stroke victim so I think she will enjoy not having to cook tonight.

Not About the Corona Virus

It’s been a strange year so far hasn’t it? All of those resolutions we made never had much of a chance with the lock downs around the world. I live in Indiana and we have been on lock down for seven weeks, I believe. It feels like years though.

I had been sick with different things. I doctored with an ear infection but it turned out it wasn’t an ear infection. I actually got the Shingles. My doctor said it was the grown-up version of Chicken Pox. That stuff was so painful. Itching and burning in my ear and on my face. Scabs are still in place and it has been over a month.

I also had an MRI done for a trip I made to the ER one evening and a mass was found on my ovary. Go see a doctor right away, they said. Hey, we never get into a doctor right away. I had to go to my primary,for his opinion and then wait for another call for a Specialist and then wait for that appointment.

When that appointment came, I was put through every woman test I swear. I was sent to the hospital for special internal testing and external testings. I had labs for cancer done. I was sent to an ophthalmologist too. I guess this was to examine the entire interior of my eye to make sure the shingles hadn’t entered since the virus was attacking my face.

Following all of these tests I then got an infection in my lungs. I have been so too many antibiotics in my opinion but they did help. I finally cleared up. The scabs are beginning to leave and I received the good news that I did not have cancer.

Now that I am still in lock down I have turned to my favorite activity outdoors, bird watching. I have three different bird feeders and my cat, Riley and I are enjoying the view.

God has his reasons why the world is in chaos and my belief is that God has had enough of people ignoring him and his values. This is a wake-up call and I can already see by the way people are turning away from themselves and turning to helping others, that his way of life he wishes us to live is working.

I don’t work because of an illness but I can tell you I will be glad to just drive to the lake and sit and smell the lake and look at the scenery and take some more photos.

And In my Neighborhood

I hear a lot about different states but have no verification. Here in Indiana many changes have been happening in the past couple of weeks.

People are afraid. People are hoarding toilet paper and hand sanitizers along with cleaning products. People must eat out often because the actual food aisles are loaded with real food.

Restaurants are closed here but you can still go through the drive-thru part. Schools were delayed until April 1 but as an hour ago have now been closed until May.

Some grocery stores have opened up early for only Seniors to go shopping with minimal risk Most businesses will allow you to pay online but not in person.

I saw that President Trump is working on helping those who have lost their jobs due to the virus through various ways.

Elective surgeries have been cancelled by hospitals and the town next to me, as of today, have placed a travel advisory in place. They are not to be out driving without a very important reason.

I have lived through different plagues but this one seems so different and in my opinion it is because people are carrying the virus without any symptoms for up to two weeks and if some choose to think this is a hoax, they are spreading the disease even more.

I saw the younger generation was an example of what I said above. They are younger and feel like they can ignore or conquer anything. I get it, but this is not just state to state, it is global, therefore this is one time we all need to respect the new changes in effect.

As for myself, I am facing some new health challenges. I have been to the doctor, it seems, about once a week. I have been to the ER this week and am seeing a Specialist next week.

I pray for you and I pray for me. Please do what you can to keep others, yourself and your families safe.

This too shall pass but not without losses.



We Need a Little Faith

Well, it has happened. Our President Trump has placed an emergency for the United States because of the new virus. Our local schools are now closed for at least three weeks. Businesses are allowing those who can, stay at home and work.

Our stores here in Indiana are showing empty shelves. I have been receiving emails all day from businesses I interact with, asking me to refrain from visiting their store to pay a bill. Instead, they want us to use online banking or phone payments.

The elderly and people are at risk of contacting this virus are asked to stay home. I think the Media does hype things up but I believe that this is more serious than we thought. Maybe U.S. should just do a lock down so this virus can not spread and it dies.

People are in a panic and maybe they have a right to. Stock piling and purchasing enough food and personal items to last a few weeks to a month. Should we all move to the forgotten hills to escape?

Is The Media Feeding us Fear?

The mass media in the Western world possess many qualities that are meant to extract certain feelings out of the viewer. … However, perhaps the most important effect the media has is the ability to induce a constant state of fear in its audience.Jan 27, 2016

i bet there isn’t a person around the world who has not heard the words, Coronavirus 19. It came to my attention when the media began talking about how many people were ill in China.

I didn’t pay a whole lot of attention on it and said a silent prayer that people heal quickly from this. We, here in the United States deal with flu every winter and know that when Spring and warmer weather arrives, the flu leaves us alone.

The media spends much time talking about it on the morning news. I really enjoy the news and can’t help but hear their words about this virus. Still, it was far from me and now it isn’t. There are cases right here in Indiana and other states.

I hear the words about tests and I see schools around me are closing and the kids are E-learning. Colleges are closing, sports games are being played to an empty stadium. Even on my emails, I get letters from businesses that make me aware that they are doing their best to keep their stores as clean as possible so I will continue to shop there.

If you aren’t aware of what this virus is, here is a link.https://news.nnlm.gov/gmr/2020/02/covid-19-coronavirus-for-public-libraries/

I found myself mentally observing various things today while I was in town. “Don’t touch the door handles, stand in the shortest line when paying and don’t stand too close to others, listening to someone coughing and realizing I was backing away.”

These are just a few things I did different today. Will I be more alert the next time I go out? Is this the media’s speeches that I’m remembering in my head? I’m on an antibiotic at the present because of an ear infection, so aren’t I safe? Is washing our hands constantly really enough?

I understand no one wants this to happen to them or loved ones. Are we doing enough? Should we be doing more? Are we smart enough to use common sense or is the media feeding us?