The word for today is; Narcissism
|synonyms:||vanity, self-love, self-admiration, self-absorption, self-obsession, conceit, self-centeredness, self-regard, egotism, egoism
“his emotional development was hindered by his mother’s narcissism”
PSYCHOLOGYextreme selfishness, with a grandiose view of one’s own talents and a craving for admiration, as characterizing a personality type.
PSYCHOANALYSISself-centeredness arising from failure to distinguish the self from external objects, either in very young babies or as a feature of mental disorder.
I don’t know when I recognized it; but it seems for years. I never have enjoyed being in the company of vain, (narcissistic) people. I think a little bit of the reason is; it makes me feel small.
I usually back a way or become more quiet. I find myself questioning who I am when I am alone. I prefer to be in the surroundings of people who believe in we are all for one and one for all.
I am no better than you. You are no better than me. It is sometimes jealousy that tries to come to surface when I see a prettier made-up face than mine, or people dressed better than me and even homes that I wish I still lived in can bother me.
It is stupid to think like this. God has me right where he wants me. I always told myself, if I was beautiful; I may be a snob. If I was rich; I wouldn’t help others. I end up shaking those nasty feelings off of me rather quickly and thank our Lord for giving me what I have and watching over me.