Shooting Forty Minutes From Me


https://www.wane.com/news/local-news/1-person-shot-outside-glenbrook-mall/1242118336

I live about forty minutes from where this shooting took place. I don’t give a rat’s ass why someone shot someone. I only care about why is this being allowed to happen and where in the world are the brains of these shooters?

I know there is a God; but like others, I have questions. Why isn’t he fixing this? Why are innocent by standers getting hurt? Why so many losses of children?

Are they homeless and want a roof over their head? Do they want to be on the front newspapers? Did they lack attention when they were young?

Why? Is it a good idea that we let these shooters blame their bringing up? Even if they had the most blemished childhood; aren’t they adults now and able to turn their life around making different decisions? Wouldn’t you think they would want a better adult life than they had as a child?

Is our times getting so bad that we can’t go out in public any longer for fear of being shot or too close to a shooting? What is going on? I know Satan is alive and well, but can’t God stop him at something?

 

 

So Many Questions, One Answer


For you who do not believe in God nor Satan; you may not like my post. For those who do believe; I have to speak my feelings.

I live in northern Indiana; not far from South Bend and Chicago. There isn’t a day that goes by that the local news doesn’t report at least one shooting. The sad thing is, I am not shocked.

What does shock me is; the young ages of children who have guns in their possession and are shooting and sometimes fatally shooting lives. Why do they have these guns? Where are the parents? Why doesn’t the parents know where their children are?

Why does Satan get to run rabid through our country? Why are so many college females getting raped? Why are the rapist not getting the correct course of action served? How can judges  lean left or right in order to save a soul who has good grades, or a sports player?

Why did the Orlando, Florida shooting take place? Was it because the shooter was a crime hater against gays? Was he on drugs? Was he drunk?

Why can’t people get along as God put us here to do? Why do we have to select friends, work places, transportation services, according to color of skin, location of housing? A couple of reasons may be safety or racism.

I can only speak on my own bringing up. I believe Satan has taken over in a lot of areas in our world. I believe God is watching and waiting to rescue those of us who love and believe in him with all our heart and soul.

I am  guilty of not agreeing with all the changes of equal this or that in today’s world. I may not do a 100% job of speaking out about God. I may not step up to the plate as I should. I do believe that shooting, taking someone’s life, fear, someone taking a piece of our body  by force is wrong.

We have all types living among us. I am so sorry for the loss of each life taken and injured in Orlando, along with children, parents, elderly abuse. I agree that no one, no matter what, has the right to do take other people’s lives. This is God’s business, not ours.

I believe that we as believers in God need to stand together, pray for the coming of the Lord, and hold  tight to our faith.

My thoughts are spoken, and my views are shared. Thank-you for reading.

 

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If There is Truly a God and a Satan


Up until last night I was able to find the little things in life that bring me joy. But I have almost given up as the truth is inside this house, there is no joy.

Moaning, screams of pain, rambling on where no words can be understood. Doctors saying nothing else can be done are just more than I can handle any longer.

Al is so angry at God. This is all a new side I have never seen. He says God is ignoring him and for the first time I have to question whether there truly is a God.

With Al being mentally challenged and completely bed bound there are no lessons for him to be learning anymore. Al can not see beyond the pain any longer. I can’t accept the answers that God may be using his illness to teach me something.

In fact that just irritates the crap out of me. I want to scream out loud, Don’t even use my brother to teach me a lesson. For then the guilt I carry within seeing him suffer is way beyond the stability that I try to carry.

If God has a lesson to teach me or if God thinks that by letting Al continue to suffer it will back fire, because all I can feel is anger within at seeing him suffer.

The moments that Al is not asleep is pure hell here. His body is contracted, his body is burning up. His vision is total blur. His body doesn’t tolerate the high doses of medications he is on. There is no balance. If you give him higher dose he abuses himself from the opposite effect the medicine should have.

The doctors are refusing to give him anything else. They don’t know the answers either. And if they don’t know the answers after years of schooling how can anyone expect me to know them.

When Al is awake I can hear Al screaming out, ” Please, please help me. Somebody help me. God why aren’t you taking me home?” These are words that are repeated so many times I can not begin to count them.

I can bring no comfort, no joy to his life. I have begun to feel like Al and I are actually living in hell and if there is a heaven, then surely this will be his reward when he passes. I continue to beg God,” If you truly exist than take him home now. There is no more perfect moment than now.” But, nothing happens. Al is still here and suffers a little more each day.

My body is drained. Doing housework has become a chore. Christmas coming makes me want to vomit. The joy of listening to Christmas music and baking sugar cookies makes me ill.

If Satan has tried every trick he has then he is winning over Al and it is trickling into me also. If there truly is a God and a Satan, which one is winning?

 

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