Borrowed Time

Less free time

Schedules changed

Hurry, hurry, hurry

Get it all arranged

Made a Peanut butter cake

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Borrowed Time

Less free time

Schedules changed

Hurry, hurry, hurry

Get it all arranged

 

Made a Peanut butter cake

Swept the kitchen floors

Make my brother’s bed

And the list says more

 

Checking my emails

Trying to write a poem

Looking at my time

Because it is on loan

Laundry is done

Supper all laid out

I think I’m going to lay down

And nap before I pass out.

Written by,

Terry Shepherd

09/25/2013

I don’t know what my problem is but today I have been nasty. I am short on patience and… http://wp.me/s2g4Y2-24350

I don’t know what my problem is but today I have been nasty. I am short on patience and upset. I don’t know what about either. I know that last night Al‘s legs were so frozen that he couldn’t move at all.

After two attempts at trying to transfer, and…

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I Am Not Me Today

I don’t know what my problem is but today I have been nasty. I am short on patience and upset. I don’t know what about either. I know that last night Al‘s legs were so frozen that he couldn’t move at all.

After two attempts at trying to transfer, and almost tumbling to the floor, I had to force his body back in the wheelchair. He got so upset with me because I placed him back in his chair he grabbed a hold of my wrists and put the vice on them.

They hurt and I wanted to lash out at him verbally. I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs, “look at all I do for you! You have the nerve to hurt me after I saved you from falling and hurting yourself. How could you do this to me.”

Instead I did tell him that he hurt me. I explained to him why I put him back in his chair. I don’t know if he didn’t get it or didn’t want to hear what I was saying.

There was tension between the two of us as I placed him in bed last night. I told him goodnight but left out the important part I always say to him. The I love you part.

Why did I do that? To hurt him? To hurt him like he hurt me, wow, is that childish or not?

This morning my defenses were still up. We had a quiet breakfast. He ate in silence and I scurried around the house getting everything ready for his departure on the bus.

After he left I went about preparing a favorite supper of his. Why? If I am so upset, why did I do this? Why didn’t I just have hot dogs or some crap. But no, I fixed chicken drumsticks in BB sauce the way he likes. I made mac and cheese the way he likes it. I even made him Blueberry Cheesecake muffins and he had cottage cheese with pineapple on top, just the way he loves it.

When I was waiting for him to get off the bus this evening I was excited inside at the look or words he would say when he saw his King meal. But instead when he got off the bus, the hurt came back.

I took him inside and placed him at the table. We both ate in silence once again. He brushed his teeth. I washed him up and now he is napping.

What in the world am I doing and why? I have to stop this. I am the big sister, the healthier one. He is the younger sibling and the sick one.

Do You Think Al Will Like This?

All recipes is where I borrowed this recipe from. It is called Iced Pumpkin Cookies.

The recipe may not be readable to all, so here are the directions.

ingredients

2 1/2 cups all-purpose flour

1t. baking powder

1t. baking soda

2t. cinnamon

1/2t. nutmeg

1/2t. cloves

1/2t. salt

1/2 cup melted butter

1 1/2 cups white sugar

1 cup canned pumpkin

1 egg

1 t. vanilla

2 cups confectioner’s sugar

3T. milk

1 T. melted butter

1 t. vanilla extract

Directions

Preheat oven to 350 degrees F (175degrees C). Combine flour, baking powder, baking soda, cinnamon, nutmeg, ground cloves, and salt, set aside.

In a medium bowl, cream together the 1/2 cup of butter and white sugar. Add pumpkin, egg, and 1t. vanilla to butter mixture, and beat until creamy. Mix in with dry ingredients. Drop on cookie sheet by tablespoonfuls; flatten slightly.

Bake for 15-20 minutes in oven. Cool cookies, then drizzle glaze with fork.

To make glaze: Combine confectioner’s sugar, milk, 1T melted butter, and 1 t. vanilla. Add the milk as needed, to achieve drizzling consistency.

Now I adjusted my recipe. This is what I did.

I added whole wheat flour instead of white flour. I added 1 t. cinnamon, plus 1t. pumpkin spice, instead of the spices above. I used Splenda instead of regular sugar.

For the icing I made mine with 1/2 stick of melted butter, 1t. almond extract, instead of the vanilla. I didn’t glaze, I made the icing stiff enough to spread. I want to taste my icing!

Do You Think This Will Make Al Smile?

I didn’t have much on hand, so I tried this recipe to make Al have at least one smile today.

This is a mayonnaise cake with an old recipe for the frosting.

The cake recipe is,

A chocolate mayonnaise cake, made with mayonnaise in place of eggs and oil.

Ingredients:

• 2 cups flour
• 1/2 cup cocoa
• 1 1/2 teaspoons baking soda
• 1/4 teaspoon salt
• 1 cup sugar
• 3/4 cup mayonnaise
• 1 cup water
• 1 teaspoon vanilla

Preparation:

Sift together the flour, cocoa, soda and salt. Cream together the sugar, mayonnaise, water and vanilla. Add dry ingredients to the creamed mixture; stir until well blended. Pour batter into greased and floured layer cake pans (or a 9- x 13-inch pan). Bake at 350°F. for about 25 minutes.

The frosting is one that was made by my grandma when she didn’t have the powdered sugar. I could not find the recipe, but did find one similar to it. On my own recipe, I used more vanilla, then the recipe called for, giving it the more yellow look, as I didn’t have clear vanilla. I only use clear vanilla at the holidays. Don’t ask me why only then, it is just an old habit! LOL

Flour Cake Icing
From Stephanie

This is an old flour cake frosting recipe from my Aunt Jennie. She called it Flour Icing. I’ve had it for years. I remember being at her home and she made this incredible white cake and frosted it with this fluffy yummy icing and I asked her for the recipe and like the sweetie that she was/is, she shared.

Flour Cake Icing

5 T. flour
1 cup milk
2 sticks butter, room temperature do not melt!!
1 cup sugar
1 tsp. vanilla

In saucepan, mix flour and milk over medium heat until thickened. Let cool. Meanwhile cream (room temperature) butter, sugar, and vanilla. Add cooled flour mixture to creamed butter and blend until light and fluffy.

So, after some time in the kitchen, I have the finished product. I sprinkled some red crystals on top to give it a more fun look to Al. I am hoping he will find it fun enough to look at, and then want a piece.