This came across my Facebook this morning and I stared it at for a while. I thought about how I come across to people. Do I make you happy or sad? Do I upset you by my words?
I have always been the type of person who doesn’t like to hurt anyone if at all possible. This has side-effects though. It can cause me to be backed in corners I don’t want to be in. It can make me say yes when I really want to say no.
I have been working on trying to stand up more on my feet and think about me. I hate that in a way though. My mom always taught me to think of others first and myself last, so this is a hard habit to break.
I have written many poems on here, shared music that I love. I have whined and cried out to you while dealing with my brother’s illness. I have been a very needy gal this past year. Even today, I still need encouragement to go forward. You have taught me to remember the good memories. You have shown me that I am worthy of stating how I feel about various things.
I was thinking of all this and then I stopped as I thought; have I helped anyone else or has it all been about me? I hope that somehow I have made a difference in a life somewhere out there. I hope that maybe one story I wrote saved someone from a sad day. I don’t know if I did or not.
I just want to say so many of you have been here for me. I pray that I have been there for you at one point or another and I didn’t make you feel unimportant as I value your input and friendships very much.