Good News First, Then The Other News
I blogged a bit ago about my brand new book on the market called Dahlia. That was the best news for me.
Now the second news update. This is about Al. Today has been an iffy day. Al woke up at seven this morning breathing very heavy. The shower lady and my caregiver came at eight. Al was still breathing pretty rough.
It wasn’t long until the nurse arrived. She noticed his one lung was swollen with…
I blogged a bit ago about my brand new book on the market called Dahlia. That was the best news for me.
Now the second news update. This is about Al. Today has been an iffy day. Al woke up at seven this morning breathing very heavy. The shower lady and my caregiver came at eight. Al was still breathing pretty rough.
It wasn’t long until the nurse arrived. She noticed his one lung was swollen with fluids. We all stood around his bed as the nurse checked him over. She stated Al’s lungs are very rattly and crackly.
His hands were swollen as usual but there was graying on the top of both hands along with blue and grey nails. The nurse could find no pulse and there was no way to get his blood pressure as the rattle was too loud. The heart could not be heard through the stethoscope. They always check his oxygen levels. One side finger checked 74 and the opposite side finger checked out at 65. A perfect o2 is 97-100. His heart rate was 214 beats per minute.
He tried very hard to talk all day but all we could get out of what he was saying was that he was dying. He had a high temperature this morning and we have been battling this issue now for ten days. He had one spot on his foot that the nurse questioned whether it was mottling or not. This is a term used at the end of life when the skin becomes grey in color.
For today I am living in the minute. It is not unusual for Al to bounce back a bit, but he never goes back to the state he was prior to the new decline. I don’t know what tomorrow will bring, but for now, he is breathing and sleeping.
He is only eating two or three bites of food and taking very little water. My heart is breaking. I know it is best he leaves me, but my heart is open-wide with pain and sorrow. My prayers continue for him and I keep reminding myself God is in complete control. All I can do is love Al and comfort him with my love and medications.
There was good news today with my new book, Dahlia, at Create Space and in the same heart there is fear and sorrow for my brother.
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