God Helps In My Preparations For Al


With gentle nudges I have begun to prepare myself for the new beginning of Al’s life. His clothes are ready, his photos gathered.

I have realized that these are things I can do now. Later I will not be able to make decisions so easily so it is better to help myself now.

My friend left this morning and the caregiver is gone. I heard the silence ringing in my ears. It is yet to be a memory of days to come but at this moment it is real and as I walk into Al’s room I stand quietly beside him and look down into his empty eyes and my own tears well echoing what is about to come.

I sit beside him and I watch the silent body stare into space. I reach for his hand and a tremor of life lets me know he knows I am beside him. I talk to  him although he doesn’t stir, but I know he hears me.

I came back out here to the room and went over the two songs I have picked out for his funeral. It leaves a nasty taste in my mouth as I do this preparation work, but as I said before, it is better to do it now than later.

Last night I had been searching through songs on U-tube. I knew the one song already that I was going to use. It is familiar to so many. It is sung by Vince Gill. It is called Let There Be Peace On Earth.

I said a prayer as I was searching asking God to find me the perfect song. A song that would lift my brother to God. A song that would shine through in honor of how I felt and feel about him. Without hesitation God showed it to me.

I thought to myself, This is so beautiful, so perfect, it is so Al in every way.

Would you like to hear it? It is also sung by Vince Gill and called  Go Rest High On The Mountain.

 

 

peace

#FWF Free Write Friday; Quote Prompt


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“We started dying before the snow, and like the snow, we continued to fall.” — Louise Erdrich, Tracks

 

We started dying before the snow

And like the snow, we continued to fall

The relationship I had counted on for years to come

Had stopped when I stood by in the shadows

My heart beat faster, my breathing quickened

As I watched her replacing my lips

And tears began to fall and I tasted salt

Blinking because I wanted to watch it all

He is ripping my heart into bits of a puzzle

As I see him caressing her hair

What had I done to cause him to turn

The words on his lips that used to be mine

I knew in my heart as the snow began and then stopped

The virgin flakes transferred from mine to her

She was willing to give the one thing I could not

And as I watched them kneel and then lay one on one

My hands bled into the other

For what he desired he was fulfilling this moment

As I stood in the shadows and the snow once again began to fall.

Written by,

Terry Shepherd

01.12.2014

 

 

 

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Pain & Friendship


Pain & Friendship

There are moments we feel alone

And the world is standing still

Everyone is moving

Against our very will.

 

When pain comes and hits us

We want others to feel it too

We think no one understands it

But we know some really do.

 

And through the moments we’re frozen

And our heart has swelled in pain

That one person out there

Will stand with you through rain.

 

Slowly our heart will melt

And the pain will fade a way

But when it again attacks us

That friend will walk with you that day.

Written by,

Terry Shepherd

01.11.2014

 

 

 

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Christmas Gone, New Year Song


Christmas Gone, New Year Song

Christmas is gone

No more songs

No more lights

Oh so bright

No more foods

That were so good

Unwanted pounds

Sneaking all around

Memories dear

I will hold all year.

Now another night

Where some will fight

Others party all night

But I will remain

Sober and sane

I’ll watch the big ball fall

And then I shall shout and call

Happy New Year 2014 to all.

Written by,

Terry Shepherd

12.30.2013

Written by,

Terry Shepherd

Here are a few photos of what I see left of Christmas from within my home.

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