Merry Christmas From Me To You


I am sneaking in here on the computer for a few minutes to touch base with you. Al has not changed at all. He is constantly talking but most of the time I can’t understand him. His latest words are 10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1,dead.

Imagine listening to that all the time. He has asked to be taken to Indianapolis. Of course he is sort of out of it. He has said that his taxes are behind, and they are not. He is so scared of the dark, that he request to have his light left on all night.

He says if he sleeps he will die, so he does everything in his power not to sleep. I was up most of the night last night. It is hard to even sleep through the day because when you do not respond to him he starts yelling.

I don’t want to be this way but the thought of Christmas doesn’t bring a smile to my face. I just want it over. I am looking forward to seeing my kids but that’s it. I want to tear the tree apart. Shove it in a box along with all of the happy, pretty decorations and just call this year a mess and hope for a better year next year.

But to all of you, my wonderful friends, I want to wish you each a Merry Christmas. May your day be filled with joy and love and peace.

Hugs,

Terry

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Michelle’s Weekly Pet Challenge Round Up Week 3


http://hopethehappyhugger.wordpress.com/2013/09/26/michelles-weekly-pet-challenge-roundup-for-week-2-start-of-week-3/

Thank you to all who participated in our first week of the Pet Challenge.
For those who are interested in joining in, here is how:
All you need to do is to create a post with pictures/picture of your pets and link back here.
You can post pictures of your pets or even your friends and families pets,
or you can post pictures of animals that you have photographed such as wild life pictures.  
I have feeders in my front garden, and often birds will come and eat the fruit I have left for them –
such pictures are also totally welcome.  Basically, anything to do with animals will be perfect.
Please link back here and head your post as
Michelle’s Weekly Pet Challenge.”

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Michelle’s Weekly Pet Challenge Round


http://hopethehappyhugger.wordpress.com

All you need to do is to create a post with pictures/picture of your pets and link back here.
You can post pictures of your pets or even your friends and families pets,
or you can post pictures of animals that you have photographed such as wild life pictures.  
I have feeders in my front garden, and often birds will come and eat the fruit I have left for them –
such pictures are also totally welcome.  Basically, anything to do with animals will be perfect.
Please link back here and head your post as
Michelle’s Weekly Pet Challenge.”

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The Sounds Of Silence


I know the reason

It’s called Respite

Needed for people

Who are caregivers

The air feels stale

The walls seem bare

The sounds of

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What is not

Normal I do crave

The ticking of the clock

Pierce my ears

My eyes are heavy

But sleep stalls

As I lay silently

Waiting to go to him

For he needs me

But for now

I must rest

I must get ready

For the new day

When hopefully

He will once again

Bring these

Walls to life.

Written by,

Terry Shepherd

09/17/2013

 

It Won’t Work, Now This Topic is Dead


I have went on and on trying to please this one and that one. Afraid of hurting feelings. Trying to do what was right for Al.

In the end I got the final results this morning. Al is too sick. His body and height are out of the guidelines.

I have deleted the fundraising post and the explanation post.

I will continue to tell Al that I will look and that I am aware of his wishes, but in the end unless a miracle from God takes place the topic of his donating any part of his diseased body is dead.

Thanks for listening to my frustrations, my ideas, and my apologies. I am sorry to ramble on. I was just trying to help someone I love.sad-face