What Did I Do?


I am not sure what I am searching for by this little post. I have many friends and have added new friends also. But I have noticed the past several days that less stop by, fewer click on the rate button underneath the title. Even my likes are less.

Is my sadness showing through? Are my posts making you want to sleep? Should I take a break from writing for a while?

Help me to understand so that I can fix it. I love writing and I love sharing. Tell me what subject matter you would enjoy reading and maybe I can write about it. Have I offended some and I don’t know it?

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Can You Help Explain This??


 

 

Tremors (TV series)

 

I want you all to know that I am ever so grateful for every time Al smiles or there are no tears, but I have been blown away this week, and through all of the research I have done, I see no answers, and so am turning to anyone who may have an inkling of an idea as to why things are as they are now.

 

Al has been having home health care for two weeks, so I am wondering if this is the reason things have changed. More interaction with someone besides his sister, the physical exercises?

 

Al’s shadow that follows him month after month and every moment, his tremors, have calmed down quite a bit. Yeah! Along with that a little more confusion, dementia, not understanding what I say at times also. Also, he shocked the crap out of me today, and this is why I stated in the beginning sentence, that I am thankful for everything positive that comes from Al, but what is this????

 

He woke up this morning and was so quiet, I did not even know he was awake. He came to the kitchen and fixed his breakfast with a little bounce to his attitude, and he tells me, I washed up and I shaved myself. I said huh? What? Really? Wow, that is great!!!!

 

Now I have not been able to get him to shave for  months, and he has not been able to wash himself for months either. Just too weak and too many tremors. Again, tonight, I had a few glasses soaking, waiting for me to go do them. Al gets up to go use the bathroom. He grabs his walker, and with some work, he was able to stand up, and instead of heading to the bathroom, he went to the kitchen and washed and rinsed and put them out to dry, those glasses.

 

I am sitting there on the couch in shock, yep, me in shock. I am thinking what the ????? He has not done any dishes for so long, that I can’t remember when the last time was. I am not saying I didn’t appreciate the help, because I did, and I was loving it that he was wanting to and also able to stand there long enough to do it.

 

I heard some glasses  hit the floor and counter tops, thank goodness all is plastic for him, but he did them?

 

So my question is, what is happening here? Has he fooled me these past years and he doesn’t have Parkinson’s? No, that isn’t it. He has been diagnosed by too many doctors, and they can not all be wrong. Is it the therapy boosting his mood? If so, then I do feel bad, because I do many things for him, but I am usually to pooped to go big time with entertainment anymore. I take him to Wal-Mart, or out to eat but no big partying anymore. LOL

 

What is this being caused from? How can he accuse me of not giving him his medications, to wondering when he is going to eat supper when he just got up from the supper table, to having such terrible tremors that he can not wash up or shave to this? Like I said, I am not complaining, and I am happy for this, but what is causing this turn around?