Last week brought some good moments and yesterday and today brought sad moments. Two of my friends spouses passed away from MSA; the same disease that my brother had.


Last week brought some good moments and yesterday and today brought sad moments. Two of my friends spouse and father passed away from MSA; the same disease that my brother had. I can’t help but be swept back to the last few days of Al’s life. What I try to do instead of being swallowed up in sadness is pour my heart and feelings out to the ones remaining as I know and remember how they are feeling now.

Another thing that happened today was a funeral for a well-known and very respected man from a city near me who died in the duty of being a fireman. I happened to flip the TV on and was seeing the ending of the funeral for him. I watched, not being able to tear myself away from that station as the salutes, last words, and all the people walked by the casket paying their last respect.

I did shed a few tears as I still remember very well sitting out in the cemetery hearing some of those same words.

Then tonight I learn of the death of my favorite actor, Robin Williams. I have two DVD’s of the same movie called Patch Adams. I absolutely love his acting, the gut of the story.

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He played in all types of movies, most were funny, some were serious, and others had deep thought to them. It didn’t matter what acting part he played as his role, I only saw his brilliance of what and what he represented.

Some movies he starred in were;








just to name a few.

Robin Williams, you will be truly missed by many and I know I will never forget you. Today has reminded me that we do not know our last moment. We must work hard at making every day count. If you or I are in a position that is hard to bear, change it. If you are in a relationship where it doesn’t feel comfortable, get out. Get all of your eggs in a row, as we say here in my town. Be alert, be ready, and be happy with your life. RIP to my friends I have lost this week, Jamie Middlebrook, Mr. Fireman, Geoff Aitken, MSA and, William John Todd, MSA, and Robin Williams.

Haphazardly Tagged

Angel tagged me with this Haphazardly Tag.

The rules are to post one blog you wrote in this past week. Next answer the questions. Finally, nominate three bloggers.

The Post I will place here that I wrote within this week is;

The questions are;

Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? Always closed. I have always feared the boogie man! LOL

What would you call yourself if you could choose your own name? Terri instead of Terry. My dad wanted a boy and people always instantly think I am a guy

What’s the worst/most embarrassing CD/album you’ve ever owned and do you still have it? 
One year when I didn’t care about who I represented on this earth I made a CD that was all Christmas music. The words were full of adult humor.

As a child, what did you want to be when you grew up? A mommy and a nurse

When was the last time you cried from laughter, and why?

Just last week. The kids came here the evening of the funeral. They were exhausted and stressed. As we all talked everyone loosened up and soon we were laughing about memories so hard I was crying.

Do you like to use Post-It© notes?

I have to now a days. It started this year. I would go to the grocery store and forget items, so I began to make notes whether it be the grocery store, Walmart, or for Al.

Do you practice your smile for pictures? Most of the time I don’t smile for pictures. I am so aware of my weight that I try to hide among people. I forced myself to smile when I went to the doctor’s office because I knew that I was going to post it for you.

Do you sleep with your sheets out or tucked in?

Call me odd but I sleep with everything tucked in and up to my neck. Sheets, blankets, and comforter. Even in the summer the sheet is always over me. I have this weird thing about something crawling on me and maybe biting me. LOL

What is the most bizarre item of food you’ve ever eaten?

I am a coward. I only eat beef, chicken, fish or ham. I eat lobster, shrimp, and clams. I don’t eat anything that will slime down my throat, or that I saw wiggling five minutes earlier. I don’t eat raw fish, and I don’t eat fish where they eyes are still showing. I guess I am picky, but I never thought so until I reread my answers.

Do you chew on your pen/pencil?

When I was a kid in school I  used to bite on my pencils to see how deep of teeth marks I could make. Mom always told me my teeth would come out and get stuck in the pencil and I would die of lead poisoning. So no, I don’t chew or bite either as an adult.

What’s your least favorite movie? Please don’t come through the screen and slap me! LOL I don’t like sci-fi so Star Wars would be the ultimate worst movie ever for me.

Where would you bury a hidden treasure if you had it?

Where is safe at today? The banks aren’t safe. They have too many fees to rob you of your money. The stock market is a mess. CD’s and bonds take too long to mature and I don’t want to pay the penalty to pull them out early. So probably in my underwear drawer. No one will ever look there now that I am almost 59 years old. hehe

When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?

A month ago. I wrote a letter to Al and my Grandma in Florida. Al wanted me to write it and tell her that he thinks of her a lot and loves her. To this day we don’t know if she ever received it as we have heard nothing.

What was the first concert you attended?

I have never been to a concert.

Have you ever won a spelling bee?

No, but I did come in second place in the fourth grade.

Do you hold your nose when you jump into a swimming pool?

No I never hold my nose. Don’t you know the old saying,”fat floats”? I have never been afraid of drowning. I have tried to go to the bottom of the pool and stay but I guess the saying is true because I always come back to the top!

Are you patient?

In some ways I am more patient now that I am older, but in other times I am more impatient. Noise and little kids usually makes me impatient. My neat and tidy house I can let go longer than a day now without cleaning. Since I dine alone, I just want to get it over. I am never impatient with sleep anymore. I can sleep anytime and anyplace.

What is the type and model of the first phone you ever had?

The first cell phone I ever had was a pay as you go phone. Then I thought I had to have what others had so I got a Droid. I barely used the internet and most of the apps I didn’t use. So now I have a plain jane phone. As long as it answers phone calls and I can text I am content.

Favorite celebrity?

Judge Judy, Adam Sandler, Julia Roberts, Robin Williams

Who is your favorite American president? Why?

Touchy area as I don’t usually talk about politics. For me personally the last President we had that I respected and believed in was Ford. He seemed sincere and honest. He seemed to care about our country and the people living in it.

What would you do with a $1 million lottery winning?

I would pay my car off!!!!!! With me not working it is a constant worry for me. Then I would buy a piece of land with most of the property left in virgin state. I would have my log cabin finally. It would be filled with antiques, a wall to wall fireplace, wood floors, a real antique stove. A nice porch with a porch swing overlooking a pond that was filled with fish. When I look out my back windows I would see deer and rabbits. I would have so many bird feeders. Life would be divine for me, next to living in Heaven.

Do you believe in ghosts?

I don’t believe in ghosts. I do believe in good and bad spirits and I definitely believe in angels.

Is it easier to forgive or forget?

It is much easier for me to forgive. I have taken a long time to forgive someone. I know that Jesus forgives so I can too, but forgetting is almost impossible. I do keep those bad times buried way back in my mind. Writing is a place where sometimes those thoughts come to life but they do help me heal.

Education or wealth – which is better to have?

At this point in my life I would choose wealth. As I get older I get more ailments than I used to. I would like to know that I am not going to leave my kids hanging with my funeral expenses. I would like to know that I can give Al what he needs for as long as he is here. If we are talking many years ago I would choose education. I would have been better off now that Social Security is present. If I would have worked higher paying jobs and had a life time career I would be more set than I am now for the Golden Years, but alas it is too late now.

One thing most people don’t know about you.

This is a  hard one. I have told about all of you everything there is to know. One thing, if I had money to pay back loans I would still go to Nursing School to become a nurse.

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Daily Prompt ; A Plot of Earth / The Daily Post

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You’re given a plot of land and have the financial resources to do what you please. What’s the plan?

Have you ever seen the movie titled Patch Adams? It is my ultimate movie. I have watched it more times than my age number. I am going to do something that I have never done before. I am going to replace Robin Williams, the star of the movie with me.

I am going to build a log cabin. This new home will over look mountains of green grass and wild flowers. You will be able to over-look the whole scene and feel the hope in the air.

After I have the cabin built, I will move myself along with a team of volunteers who are wanting to help. We would immediately begin to build another log style home in walking distance.

It would be on the large-scale of the home we live in. It would hold a very large waiting area with smaller rooms that hugged each side of a wall. A welcome desk would await each visitor that walked in the front door.

There officially would be no doctor on call. There would be volunteers of people with experience in the field of caring. A visitor would bring his weary soul in and find comfort. A cool drink of water a slice of fresh home-made bread with apple butter.  A cut would be cleansed and wrapped in a covering. A person who could sit with a client and be a good listener for all who want to talk. Hours would be open to all and volunteers would rotate hours and days. You would never see a closed-door to anyone needing a hug.

Behind the home there would be a vast space that is growing vegetables. Potatoes, tomatoes, corn, beans,  peas, onions, melons and carrots. If a customer could afford a few pennies these were placed in a jar and new seedlings would be purchased to continue growth all year round.

When someone comes in with an empty stomach, they could pick up a recycled bag and go to the garden and fill it up with nourishing foods. In a small plot next to the plants would be a patch of flowers. The clients could pick a couple of flowers to carry home with them. It would brighten their day.

Medical expenses are so high it is actually preventing people from seeking help. Many times it is of a medical need but so many other times it is an emotional need. The staff would grow by using clients to help out in ways that would use their talents. Maybe they would work in the gardens. Perhaps they would help to bake bread. Maybe they would help sweep floors or do laundry and hang on the clothes line outdoors. This is a situation where everyone would win.

The client would feel useful. The staff would become more than basic. Everyone helping everyone. During the dusk hours and breaks we would stand outside and look over the shadows resting atop the mountains and give thanks to our almighty God for giving us the opportunity to help just one person.


Medication and Heartburn

Bottle of Antacid tablets

I love Robin Williams

So am watching Hook

It is much better

Than reading a book.

Today I was blessed

With what some would say

Some of my voice is back

I am definitely on my way.

I have never been so sick

And for this long

The house has been quiet

But today I sang a song.

I have taken so many meds

My ability to fight is now down

Now my stomach is irritated

And my smile is now a frown.

I am over half way done

Taking this last set of meds

I can not afford to stop

So now taking antacids.

Just let me make it

A few more days

I promise I will be good

And I will mend my ways.

Let Spring come to visit

Let the sun shine on me

Let the warmth finish healing

Let’s go run you and me.

Terry Shepherd