Recognize


Recognize

If you have been through

Or felt what I have

Then you will be able

To recognize

I tended to hear

Only the loud and clear

But then I heard a soft voice

And I recognized

That loud doesn’t mean right

And I can turn an ear

I can dry up the tears

Because I recognized

As I was told many times before

The words that are said

Aren’t for me to belive

Now I recognize

A lift of my feelings

A heart…

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Recognize


Recognize

If you have been through

Or felt what I have

Then you will be able

To recognize

I tended to hear

Only the loud and clear

But then I heard a soft voice

And I recognized

That loud doesn’t mean right

And I can turn an ear

I can dry up the tears

Because I recognized

As I was told many times before

The words that are said

Aren’t for me to believe

Now I recognize

A lift of my feelings

A heart beating strong

I will fight for my life

Because he made

Me recognize.

Dedicated to R. W.

Written by,

Terry Shepherd

06.20.2014

recognize

I Changed my Mind


DILO 3-21-07 Listening to Joyce Meyer

I changed my mind, as when I had accepted the last award today, I was writing no more, today,but I am sitting here in awe. Yes, I think my mouth is actually dropped and open, and it isn’t taking any food in.

I just watched Joyce Meyers, and I swear she knew me. It was like she had somehow received a letter from me or someone close that knows me because the entire message was for me!

I am sitting here with jaw dropped because, she made it very clear that I am beautiful, that God made me beautiful and in his own image, and that I am just what he wants me to be.

Now, I have gone through here stating to all of you that I have lost myself, and this is what she has talked about. Being a people pleaser, forgetting who I am, trying to do for others. She didn’t say I could not do for others, she stated that I am doing TOO much for others.

How can a three-letter word,too, be so darn important? Ask me, I know, I am that person. I have lost myself, and am trying to find out who I am, and who God says I am. I know that I am a caregiver for my brother, and I know I love to write, but other than that, I have no idea. I bet you all know more about me than I do about my own self.

I am going to have to ask god tonight to show me who it is that he hath made. What is special about me. What is it that he liked about me when he made this creature that sits here in front of my screen sometimes laughing, sometimes crying and sometimes questioning life.

She made me realize that God is crying because he knows I am crying and that I am not happy. I don’t think it is all about Al either, but he does have a huge part in it, because I ALLOWED him to over take my life.

So, I have work to do, lots of work. I need to kick this slight depression in the ass and toss it out the door! I am  a child of God, and he loves me! Why did it take her lesson to get me to see it? I don’t know. I almost missed the show, and then I was mentally kicked in the rear, turn it on!!!!!!

I am glad I did, and now to start finding out about what I am all about. I don’t have any idea why I am even asking this, but I felt the need to, please, help me find me again through prayer. I know there is something else about me that is worthy besides being a caregiver.

This blog page is sort of sad, but yet I am a little happier, because, I can, with your help and God’s help, quit trying to please parents who no longer are living, I can quit trying to please my children, who will always love me in the end, I hope. I can start to relax, and enjoy this life that God has given me, instead of stressing out each moment, wondering if I am doing enough.

Geesh, I love God and Joyce Meyers……………..