_Picture it & Write/ Ermilia


man with ropeExhausted he lay down on the street. This was his last try at proving he was worthy.

Paul had lived on the dark edge of life. It finally caught up to him and he spent several months in jail. Theft being the number one judgement. Drug use turned from social to everyday living.

While he was incarcerated he always noticed the beautiful brunette that had long legs and big blue eyes.Black Cherry She came on a regular basis to see her brother who happened to be Paul’s roommate.

Saying hello and goodbye is what consisted of their conversations but at night when Paul laid down he started to dream of her. In his dream he was in love with her and he asked her to be his wife. She quickly accepted and he spent their entire marriage giving her every heart‘s desire.

But in the day hours the coldness whipped through his heart as he could not get more than a passer-by look. When his roomy wasn’t visiting Paul would question him about his sister. He learned that Pamela was her name. She had moved out from the family house when she was 13. Living with friends and on the streets she had worked her way up to being a manager of a fine lady’s specialty store.

Paul touched his lips as he formed the word of this sister. The beautiful eyes with long lashes. He discovered that Pamela only lived in the city next to him. Paul was getting out soon and he was determined to make his dream reality.

When the day came and his release was final he went to his hangout and grabbed all he owned. He took the cash he had saved and moved to the city Pamela lived in. He found his way to where she worked and stood in the shadows swallowing in her beauty.

He found himself a job, a respectable job as a window washer for a huge department store near by. He begged for an advancement on his pay check and for unknown reasons the manager granted him his wish.

He took most of the money and rented a room at a boarding house. He built himself a routine of walking by where Pamela worked on his way to his job. After work he would walk back by her store. Sometimes he was lucky and he would see her.

One time as he was standing outside in the shadows she exited and looked his way. She stopped in her tracks and he came out of hiding. “don’t I know you? Oh yes, you are the guy who was bunking with my brother in jail. I see you are out now? Well I hope you learned your lesson and do not make another visit. My brother still has another six months to learn while he sits there.”

” I wonder if you would go out to dinner with me this Friday?”

Laughing she said, ” you are kidding I think. You spent time in the slammer. I am sorry but I don’t think so.”

” But I have changed. I learned a great deal while I was in there. I had plenty of time to think. It wasn’t like I was in for murder or anything. I just got off on the wrong track.”

” Well I feel like I know you and yet I know nothing about you. Why don’t you give me a few days to think about your offer. I will look for you then and give you my answer.”

Paul smiled his biggest smile in hopes of winning the answer yes. They parted and life went to the same rhythm and dance. She would see him and give no answer. He took it up a notch and started sending her flowers and cards. He took a nice chunk out of his pay and bought her the biggest box of candy he could.

It happened on a Thursday afternoon. She came out and he was standing in his regular spot. She looked his way and he came towards her. She smiled at him. He noticed her smile.

” Well I have given it a lot of thought. I know you have done some bad things before and I am not crazy about it. But you also are the only man who has ever worked so hard and so long at trying to get my attention. I will go out with you and tomorrow night shall be the night. Pick me up about 7. Do you drive? No? Well meet me here and you can walk me to the next block where there is a nice  restaurant. Where some nice clothes.”

He stared after her, watching her walk a way. Finally, what he had dreamed and waited for was going to happen. Tomorrow night, less than 24 hours from now. He hurried home and went through his bare closet. If only she would have made the plans for next week. Maybe I could have managed to buy some decent clothes. If only I hadn’t been spending my extra money on flowers and candy.

The next evening came and he was waiting for her. He had bathed and put his best clothes on. She walked up and he took a deep breath  as he drank in her beauty. They walked the steps to the restaurant. She seemed in a hurry and he had to pick up his pace to stay with her.

Once inside she told the waiter what area she wanted to sit at. She placed the order for the two of them. He sat there his dream being cracked around the edges as he began to see the light.

The conversation was more one-sided and he didn’t understand what she was talking about most of the time. All he knew was that it was about her work and that she had this plan and this meeting.

Dinner was served. She ate with grace.  He ate with comfort. The conversation was as cold as her heart and the life was slipping out of Paul. After a respectable amount of time had been spent she announced she needed to get home. She had to get up early for a meeting.

” I appreciate everything you have done in drawing my attention Paul. You seem very nice. I gave it a shot but I just don’t feel anything for you. I am sorry. Will you kindly not stand outside my work anymore? I am sure there is someone out there for you if you just give her a chance. I will call a taxi. Thank-you for a nice evening.”

She gave him a peck on the cheek and a quick smile. He had lost. His heart was being torn out of him. He didn’t go straight home, but instead took the long way home. It started to rain and then it was pouring.

He laid down on the edge of the street feeling the wires pulling on his heart. He lay there letting the rain drops wash the memories of her smile a way.

Listen & Write – Big Girls Don’t Cry – Fergie, June 8, 2012

Listen & Write – Big Girls Don’t Cry – Fergie

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Lilly had worked hard her whole life. Each school year that passed by, she made great efforts to be the best she could be. She wanted to attend a well-known college, and not only grades were taken into consideration, but her morals and attitudes about life were also considered.

Lily had just graduated high school. She had one summer to live life, and have fun before she started her college years with her scholarship she had been awarded. Her whole life was on the uphill swing. She had everything to gain and nothing to lose.

She wanted to get a part-time job, so that not only would it give her more money, but it would make the lazy summer days go by  more quickly. She filled out an application for a popular dive in her local city, and was hired as a waitress there on the spot. She was so excited! Her first day was to be tomorrow.

She rushed home to tell her mom about it, and then she made some phone calls to her friends letting them know about her new job. That evening she spent in front of her bedroom mirror, putting her hair in different styles, to see which she would look best in with her new waitress cap. She tried on different eye shadows and finally found all the make-up she wanted to use and laid them out neatly on her dressing table for the next morning.

The next day she was awake before the alarm went off. Jumping up out of bed with excitement, she ran downstairs to the kitchen, gave her mom a quick peck on the cheek, drank a glass of orange juice, then left to prepare for her first day of work.

The first customer she waited on she was somewhat shy and nervous, making sure she  was saying all of the correct things and had a nice smile on her face. He was a handsome man. She could barely keep her eyes off of his eyes and smile. She took his order, and turned it in. She got his drink ready and took it to him. He smiled and asked her name.  She told him Lily.

His order was ready and she took it to him. She waited on other customers but remembered her first customer of the day.

Time went by and she had the same customer each time, the first of the day. After time went by, they ended up moving in together. They were madly in love. Their love produced a child, and he wanted nothing to do with this. He left her sitting there on the bed.

She was heart-broken, but knew that she had to give up the child-like attitude and realize she was now responsible for another life.

She got off of the bed, and went home. She and her mom cried together. She stood up and brushed her hair out of her eyes. Her shoulders went back, and she stood standing tall, thinking, Big girls don’t cry.