If you have lost a loved one; than you will be able to relate to this post. It is Saturday, and the plans I had made had been cancelled; so I decided to play on the computer. One thing led to another and soon I was looking through old photos I had saved.
These included images I had used here at WordPress, personal photos and documents from several years ago. I started looking at everything, and was amazed at how many sad quotes and sad things I saw on my computer.
It made me sad just looking at these. Al has been gone over two years. I still miss him bad, but I don’t need the images of angels, and death quotes etc. Without thinking further, I cleaned my photos. It took me a couple hours, but after I was finished, I had cleaned my mind of sad things.
I am ready to move on and didn’t even realize it. There are still songs, and coca-cola items and pictures of Al and my parents that can bring me to tears, but I am so much further along in my healing process that a year ago. Christmas is the hardest time for me, so all I have to do now is lean on my family and friends, and I, too, shall get through this holiday.
The painting below, is my latest painting I did last evening.
Who I am 
That’s a good painting Terry.
I have not lost a close family member as of yet, but I do know that the hole left behind, that jagged, sharp edged hole of despair, loss, guilt and grief does start to erode. The hole will never go. There will be nothing that can fill it. Over time, as you know, the edges are eroded so they become smoother, less difficult to touch. You are being watched over as well. He watches you and smiles with pride over your achievements. He is there and will be.
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You are right, the edges are smoother, but I want to be completely through this. These holidays suck for healing. Hugs
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It is usually the worst time as it is when you miss him the most.
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very true
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