I Feel Too Lazy To Cook

I decided to sneak a few minutes in here and write to all my good friends. I just sent my girlfriend off to Taco Bell with my lunch order. I feel so darn lazy, but the truth is I am dead tired.

Yesterday was not a good day. From the start I had to clean up BM from head to toe on Al. This really didn’t leave me with a Hello, good morning world attitude. After that hour passed by, Al refused breakfast. He was restless most of the day with some confusion and agitation.

The Hospice nurses decided to ask the doctor for a different type of medication that he already uses. It comes in ER form, which is extended release. It releases a small amount of medication constantly  for 12 hours.

I ended up giving him one pill three different times. As the day wore by Al stayed more awake. He constantly asked me what time it was. Or he was asking if it was PM or AM. I believe that since the medication releases small amounts at a time it just wasn’t giving the power that the regular medicine did. I called Hospice this morning and asked if I could go back to the prior medicine and she said yes.  He was not a good sleeper through the night either, so you can imagine that I look like the Wicked Witch of the West today.wicked witch

At seven-thirty this morning I finally fell asleep but then was woken up by my friend telling me, ” Al is calling out, sis.” I jumped up and went in to see what he wanted.

He wanted to get up. I explained to him he couldn’t because he can’t sit up. He continued to complain and moan until 11am when the volunteer came to help me bathe him.

When she arrived I cut Al’s hair and trimmed his mustache. We bathed him and when all was done, he was fast asleep. relax  Within a half an hour he was awake and still is. He is not moaning at least. He has not eaten for two days now except two bites of something he asked for yesterday. I think it was his ice-cream.

He didn’t have that big brown surprise for me today and I thanked God immediately for this wonderful gift of not seeing it. Now I am just waiting for my friend to bring back lunch. She even added that we could order pizza for supper.

She is just an angel with big wings to me.Angel_Wings__Animated__by_Iaenic I will miss her kindness when she leaves tomorrow, but like me, she is expecting another grandchild and needs to be there for the birth.

I dread tomorrow in a way and yet am thankful for it. The phone doesn’t ring here on the weekends. No Hospice comes unless I call. No caregiver, no nothing.

But on Mondays it all starts again, noise and commotion and busy, busy, busy. I don’t complain though. They are all here to help Al, and give me a break. I think I am going to sneak out of here a bit tomorrow, because I need a break from inside this house.

22 thoughts on “I Feel Too Lazy To Cook

  1. I just love reading your posts as you are such a good writer.
    Glad to hear you are not knee deep in “brown presents” today.
    Praying you have quality time with your dear friend and also catch up on your rest.


  2. Terry, this is the passage our pastor preached from this morning. I thought of you:

    II Corinthians 12:9-10. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.


  3. May the Lord continue to grace you with strength and patience. Yor love for Al is on display everyday as you continue to faithfully care for him. Lord bless you my friend. My prayers continue for you both.


  4. I wish there was a way you could go somewhere over night and sleep with out worrying about Al-have someone stay with him and even if it is just a friend or family member who lives near by.
    Sweetie you need a break.
    We all need breaks and it is so hard t not feel guilty about taking a needed break.
    Next week end I am going to my friends cabin at the ocean for a day and night while very trusted care giver stays with hubby.
    I used to feel guilty about taking more than an hour to two breaks but now I know I am no good to him if I do not get rest and re energize.
    Hugs and prayers.


  5. I feel for your exhaustedness and get worried for you because I remember the years before Ants went into the nursing home – up and down all night and not enough sleep. So glad your friend can give you a bit of a reprieve.


  6. i certainly hope you got your time out. sometimes just a few minutes to ourself can make us a totally different person in mood. how fortunate to have a friend that comes and doesn’t mind pitching in to help you.


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