Can I bring the crappy part of me out
Can I scream and throw a fit all about?
Can I quit pretending that this day will end
Never to see its ugly face again?
Is hope a thing that I can stand on
Or will it continue to let me down.
Is God really watching over me
Is he listening wherever he may be?
Is it alright to be angry now
To rid the stress upon my brow?
Must I smile and bow to all I see
And pretend that we are a happy family?
Do I say that I am alright today
When all I want is to run away?
Do you not see the tear in my eye
When I look above and ask oh why?
Would you help someone if they wanted to die
Or would you stare and ask them why?
Do you explain the rights and wrongs
Or do you start singing the songs of Psalms?
I can feel anger coming over me
At what this disease has brought me to see.
I am tired of waiting can’t you tell
I want you to heal him and make him well.
If you can’t do this then take him home
Give him his legs back, so he can roam.
I have had all I can take, I have given my all
I pass the ball to you, and now it is your call.
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Very raw and emotional and loaded with a lot to think about.
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I am running out of hope, and yet there always remains a spark for me to see and latch on to. Just a tiny bit is all it takes, but most of it has been taken from me by this Parkinsons. Thank you for this kind comment you left me Holly!
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Praying for you Terry
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thank you Holly
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Maybe that giving up feeling will actually be a relief – not sure.
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I think this is where the numb feeling comes into play. I just want to toss the towel and say the hell with it all, do as you wish………………ever feel that way?
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Yes – quite a lot.
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i thought so
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Sometimes the term is comfortably numb, and wish away the pain, but unfortunatly it doesn’t go anywhere, we just keep plugging along…..
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exactly Jo, because I don’t know any other way………………
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Sometimes it is when we relinquish something that the Lord can fully step in to do His work. I pray that you will see more of the handiwork of God in your situation as you hand your work over to Him. I pray for His hope to fill you, His joy to strengthen you, His love to envelop you, His faith to keep you going when it seems as if you can’t take another step. God bless you, Terry. I also pray for a good night’s sleep for both you and Al and that it will refresh you and restore you.
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thank you so much Diane. I know that today I have little faith, but I still have a thread that I won’t let go. I pray that God realizes that Al and I have had enough and we are ready for him to perform his miracles
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I meant to tell you that your poem is good and, as Holly said, is very raw and emotional. I can feel your pain and desperation. I am glad you have a spark of hope. A spark can always be fanned into a full flame if given the right fuel.
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exactly, this is why i will never give up completely!
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if only there were words to give you comfort….
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writing and being with you and all of my other friends on here, bring me comfort
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So heartfelt Terry. Love and hugs and prayers!
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thank u my sweet friend………………..
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I’ve been reading that you two had an extremely emotional and exhausting day. Just remember that God always hears the cries and pleas you send up to him. Your hurt, tiredness and frustration may sometimes block you from seeing the figure standing beside you, but the moment you stumble, or sag in defeat, God already has you in his hold, and He’s sparing you from what He knows you can’t bear. I love you, Terry and I hope you and Al have a better day tomorrow <3<3<3
P.S. That was another fantastic poem, nothing like purging the soul with the words of your heart and sharing it with us, huh? <3<3<3 (Y)
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thank you for being so loving and kind………..i love having your friendship. and the poem??? sometimes i just lay it all out don’t i??? lol. i m still carrying some hope and am hoping for progress tomorrow
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Laying it all out is good therapy, Terry. There’s nothing wrong with acknowledging very human emotions. Hope in the Lord, Terry, lay it all out there and hope in the Lord.
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it did help and through much prayer my brother actually went to bed about three am and i got to sleep for six hours. i feel so much better!
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Wow. Profound and raw…like a a modern-day psalm…
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thank you Lynne. so glad u left me a comment
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I honor your willingness to tell it like it is. You are in my heart and prayers. sending much love and good energy your way.
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thank you so much Beth. I really appreciate it
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God is listening especially when you need to vent – let it all out – God is listening. Hugs dear Terry.
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i want to believe he is, and so i keep my faith in him. sometimes i just have to let it out like i did. thank u for understanding
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I have found when I yell the loudest it clears my heart to hear Him… Hold on to your faith. Blessings – Patty
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I have never tried this, but it might just help me. thanks patty for letting me know it helps you
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This poem is amazing. So much emotion. My heart just aches for you.
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Life for me is sometimes almost unbearable, so I need to write it out, in order to go forth. thank you for reading it and telling me how much you liked it
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