Satan, Al, and Me

Get Behind Me Satan

Get Behind Me Satan (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

It was another bad evening last night. Al was on the death roll subject, and as I was in my bedroom, I could hear through the baby monitor talking. This is what he was saying.

God I want to die so bad, please help me. Oh God, please listen to me, I am begging you to help me. Satan wants me God, he won’t leave. I keep telling him to leave me alone, but he won’t listen. No one cares about me, they all just want me to be locked away. Please help me God, I want to die today.

As I heard this conversation going on, I decided to interfere, and so I walked in his room and asked him if there was anything that he needed, that I was just checking in on him. He began to cry, and saying how bad he wanted to die, and that God was just not listening to him.

He told me that Satan was laughing at him, so this is where I took my cue to help. I told Al that Satan so wants to take him away from God and he will say or do anything to believe that God does not count.

I explained how to pray and to tell Satan to leave him and his room, that he belonged to God. I have done this many times for him, but I was informed of recent, that it really needed to be Al doing this instead of me.

I started to turn away and leave then, and then heard Al start to pray. I didn’t know whether to continue walking or stand still out of respect. My feet were frozen to the floor and I was barely breathing, as Al prayed telling Satan to leave him alone. The next words out of his mouth were,

God I have asked Satan to leave, so can you take me home now?

I continued on out the door, when there was no more speaking to be heard.

I went back to the computer and in about maybe ten minutes, Al comes storming out to where I was and he is standing right in front of me. The look in his eyes was rage and if I had been looking closer, I think I would have seen steam coming out of his nostrils. I asked him what is wrong, I was just in there and you seemed very calm and at peace, and he says;

God is mad at you now! I said this can not be true, as God is a loving God and he does not get mad at us. He said, yep, you have blown it now sister. You walked out of my room and you were saying F— Y— to God. My mouth dropped open. God is not letting you into heaven, because you made fun of him. I just wanted to tell you that God hates you now!

I sat there for a moment, and then I repeated to him that God does not get mad, and that I had done nothing and surely had never said the words he had just accused me of. As Al walked back into his room, he turned around to me and snarled, that he was just warning me.

For some reason I did not freak out, nor run to my bedroom to hide from Al. Instead I knew that Al had gotten through to God and God had been listening, but someone else had been listening also, Satan. Wow, Satan was pissed off big time! He was some how using Al to scare me and to keep his hold on Al.

I gave it about five minutes and I went back to check on him, and when I entered his room, Al was reading his Bible and he looked up at me and he smiled, and he said

What’s up sis?

I said I was just checking to see if he needed anything and he said he was fine.

Wow, oh wow! I think, no I am positive, that I had just witnessed the war between Satan and man! God won though. Al slept all through the night, and I once again received six hours of uninterrupted sleep again.

This morning? Al came out and said hi sis and I saw a small smile. He asked for his pain medications and I said alright. He did his thing and so did I, and so far all is quiet.

Next round Satan?


I have blogged last evening about helping to get Al’s mind off of his pain, and I have made the suggestion of sending him a get well or just a funny card through the mail. Something for him to touch and hold and he can look at it anytime he wishes. So many of you have responded already and I am just so touched.

Al I am sure he will accept any card that is for him!! His interests are cars and coca cola, and funny animals, but anything with God on it will be nice also.

If you are willing to participate, please email me and I will email you back our physical address. I just want to help Al as much as I can and he will be thrilled that he is getting mail all for him!

My email address is:

Thanks everyone!!!


FYI— The family doctor called me yesterday and told me that he did not feel comfortable going to the next level of medications with Al’s heart, seizure, and blood pressure problems, so he gave me the phone number of a Pain Medication Clinic. I called as soon as I hung up from him, and the very soonest appointment is set for November 28th. I am upset, I am sorry, this is the soonest? I have a human being here plotting on how to end his life, and this is over a month way. Please pray with me, that a cancellation happens. Al needs to see a doctor sooner than this. This is the only doctor that can deal with Al’s situation.

35 thoughts on “Satan, Al, and Me

  1. Okay, I am really sorry but I have to say this -this God versus Satan stuff is very disturbing and almost sounds psychotic – please, Terry, take him into a hospital tomorrow and tell them! I can’t stand it for you.


  2. I dont usually give advice (because I hate it when people do that to me) but, Terry, I think this has become an emergency and your family doctor sounds like a coward. Al needs better meds. for pain and for delusions and he needs them Now! Stuff all of the other health problems – pain is a priority. Please, Terry, take him to hospital tomorrow – please?


  3. Hi Terry, I’m James. Be at peace and be strong, I’ve worked with people in similar situation as your brother, Al. We understand spiritual things through the lens of the Bible, but your brother as you most likely are – are vessels or channels for spiritual personalities. It’s crazy, people say, but if you don’t d*m*nize yourself, you can start to understand the gift. Your brother is not healed b/c there is not much really to heal. A better diet for the body, purer understanding for the mind, and higher spiritual truth will balance him out for maximum healthfulness. Oh, and medical MJ might be good too, 🙂 Love, James


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  5. Hi, Terry, I wanted to share a few things.

    First, both you and Al are destined for Heaven. So don’t worry about that. For real.

    Second, you are right. You did piss off the adversary, and continue to do so. But please do not let that frighten you. You have much more than a handful of angels with you, though there will be days when you feel completely deserted and alone. You are not. You may believe it was fear that stilled your tongue, but the truth was that rebuke toward you did not even warrant a response. it was beneath you. Angels lent you strength at that moment.

    Thirdly, if you and/or Al know it, the prayer known as the “Lord’s Prayer” or the “Our Father” is a very effective tool as a shield. It may not cure PD in a heart beat, but it can bring calmness to mental or emotional chaos. It can bring inner strength in the midst of a storm. And it can protect from attacks similar to what you described.

    Fourth, and final – but certainly not least – I wonder if you know all that you do with this blog. You help those with pain (physical, mental or emotional) realize that there is still life beyond the pain. That they can go on one more day. There are people who see the struggle you and Al go through, and you help them to find the strength to continue. Your heartfelt honesty helps others to open up past the societal norms and love others freely. You encourage others to do what is right, especially when they are ready to walk away from something that seems too big to handle. You show the world that, no matter what — err, “fecal matter” — life throws at you, you continue to love and give and forgive. You are a light in a very dark world, Terry. The more you love, and the more you share your experience with others via this blog and other outlets, the more people see this light and are encouraged to let their own light shine. The more they shine, the more others beyond your knowledge will also shine, because they will be inspired by those YOU inspired. We never know how far the ripples go in this world until we reach the next. But I can tell you this, the ripples you initiate are going quite far, and touch many souls.

    That is one of the reasons the adversary is so pissed off at you. Like a gremlin, he doesn’t like bright lights. 😉



    • Oh my gosh, I don’t even know what to say. It sounds like you are talking about someone else, other than me, for I never knew that what I was doing was actually helping others, as much as it helps me to continue on through all of the support I receive on here. I do know that Satan or the devil or what ever people want to call him, has been angry and tormenting my brother for months. The more Al feels sicker, the more he reads his bible. I asked for something to do when I started this blog in March of this year, and God told me to write, and maybe this is why, so that I could help others innocently. I take care of my brother for no rewards here or in heaven. I do it because he is my brother. Bless you Tara, for saying the most kindest things about me. I am truly humbled.


      • I simply shared the Truth. Perhaps it was something God wanted you to hear at this time. That God does hear you. That God does care about you and Al. And that you are being helped, even when you don’t know it. And – even more – God is working through both of you to help others too.

        May God Bless you, in many ways, Terry. 🙂

        Keep shining!


      • PS – I mean what I say about the Lord’s Prayer / Our Father too. Use it as a shield when things start to overwhelm you and/or Al. On really bad days, say it together. Prayer in union strengthens more than sum of individual efforts. You don’t need to be in sync word-by-word but only in intent. It will be enough. Our spirits are far stronger than we know, especially when we reach for God. 🙂


    • AMEN!! You have said alot I wish I had said. Terry really doesn’t see how much good she does with her blogs, She si a truly amazing person!!


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