I know many of you comment on my strength, but today I feel tired. Watching and fussing over my brother. Watching what he does and what this icky disease is doing to me made me think of this song.
I am such a big baby. I have cleaned since Al has been resting. Although I am sucking it up tears are falling as I know Al and my time is limited. If I wished upon a star, would all my dreams come true? Or is this one time God is going to have his way.
Who I am 
Al is tired, is he ready to go home? You are strong and God will help you get through! We always want to hold on longer and it is okay to be a big baby.
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I am so tired today that I would be numb if Al went home and I would cry tomorrow. My heart is breaking for him today. It is just awful. We haven’t talked about death today. He is not speaking, too weak
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Sometimes it’s darn hard to be happy with the good things we’ve been given, especially when we know so much more could be available.
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this is true, I am still thankful today though. For the fact that Al is here with me instead of the nursing home, even though I am so tired I just want to sleep
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Republicou isso em O LADO ESCURO DA LUA.
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thank you
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de nada. abraços.
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You are doing amazing. You are so strong for Al, that when he isn’t looking it all catches up with you. Try to make the most of the time you have, God will decide – and I’m afraid He will have His way in the end. Take some comfort that this will be the right time for Al, if not for you.
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you are right, so why do I burst out in tears over losing him……I am not strong today, I feel like a bowl of jello
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I’m so sorry.
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You need to have your rest too! Come into my arms and cry and I hold you ! It is ok and it feels better! (I’ll cry with you) .
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I would love to, most of the day I just want someone to hold me so I can cry. It sounds so childish but I am exhausted, although he is a bit better, his breathing is still not normal, his tremors are out of this world and he is still sweating profusely
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Tough times – I know.
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waiting for the better times to appear
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Terry, when that day come you will … know what to do – and you can’t do more than you do just now … Al is tired – both his body and soul. I understand that you’re so tired on being alone in all this and that you need a shoulder – and arms to hold you. Wish I wasn’t so fare away.
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you are in my heart, the only thing better is seeing you in person. what would we say when we first look at each other…………….girlfriend, where are your red shoes?????
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Terry, here they are …. http://wp.me/s293Pw-11
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where is yours ?????!!!!!!
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right now I don’t own any red shoes period. When my life changes and i get to meet you, I will buy some with your help!
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Time to rest, to stop fighting the inevitable and accept that no matter how hard it gets… you will get through this… “and I will walk through the valley of death but I will not be afraid because HE walks beside me”. hugs and prayers Terry.
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yes, this is a very potent verse, thank you, I am trying my best to get through this valley
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Go ahead and cry. It’s therapeutic, and you’re not being a baby.
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I have had a couple of times I talked myself into actually crying. It felt good but it is hard to do. I can feel like crying many times but hard to do it
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