Maybe when you are more within your walls you stretch farther for the little joys. Or it could be that since my father passed my faith has grown. What ever the reason I cried tonight. Not because of sadness, but because of love and joy.
Al has really been struggling with tremors. One of the differences between Parkinson’s Disease and M.S.A. with tremors is that with PD, tremors tend to fade away in the final stages. With M.S.A. tremors become worse.
This is where Al is right now. Brushing his teeth is a good example. Try to picture this. The battery operated toothbrush is loaded and running. It is in your hand. Your hand is in mid-air. The tremors are so bad that the toothpaste is being shaken off the toothbrush, and the hand can not be stopped. Therefore the once independent act of brushing your teeth is now over. You cry because you are so embarrassed. You can remember when you always brushed your own teeth with no one’s help. This is just one of many things that Al struggles with.
But today, although he had bad tremors all day long, he still thought of me. Through stuttering and a very soft voice he was trying to explain to me that with the help of school teachers in Day Program he had made me a gift.
A gift? for me? from my brother? Oh wow, I was excited and I did nothing to hide my excitement from him as I dug into his back pack to find the prize. When I pulled it out, Al raised his head just long enough to see my face.
I beamed at him and I put my arms around him and told him, ” I love you so much Bud. This is the best gift I ever got. I will treasure it always and I will put it where I can see it every day.”
I saw a slight smile. I meant every word I said to him, I will treasure it.
Open your eyes that you might see
What God has gifted you and me
It doesn’t have to be a three-story house
It can even be smaller than a little mouse
For although the body can no longer move
The heart is still feeling and in the groove.
Written by , Terry Shepherd
Here is what he made me today.