Which Choice Do I Make?


Although Al had a good day, you can see by different signs that he is sick. For example when I took his shoes and socks off for his nap, his feet are once again swollen. The other thing is he is still napping. He usually sleeps for a couple of hours. Sort of a catching up thing from his days.

Here it is 8:30 and I went into check on him. I actually jumped back and my heart began to beat very quickly.beating heart

There is one thing, no two things that you never see Al do anymore. Number one is; his head will not go back. You could force it all you wanted, (which I don’t), just saying you could and it would not move.

Al’s head was laying flat on the bed. His pillow had slipped out from him or he moved it.

Number 2; his entire body is calm. Absolutely not one tremor. In the shadows of the night all I could see was gray shadows around his face, bouncing back at him by the black shirt he is wearing.

Instantly my breath caught. I saw my brother as he will be when his time is up. I didn’t mean to see it, it was just there all out in the open. I immediately started to cry.

Then my mind snapped back into reality. I checked his breathing. Yes, he is breathing. He was so calm and relaxed I didn’t want to wake him. On the other hand I want to go to sleep tonight. I don’t know which choice to make, let him sleep or wake him up.

Not A Big Blog, Just A Note


Because of Al‘s illness and how it causes little bad changes each week, his medications have been increased. For the first time in three days I saw a little bit of my true brother back this morning.

This was taken as I was getting ready to take him to his bus.

This isn’t a thinking or scolding or anything blog. It is just to let you see Al when things are better.Al in the morning

Liebster Award and I Love Your Blog Awards


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Saritha has nominated me for these two awards. pink liebster awardi-luv-ur-blog-award

Questions for the blogs I have nominated:

1. How long have you been blogging and do you blog every day?
2. What did you want to achieve by starting your blog?
3. Has your blog changed direction since you started?
4. What kind of blogs do you follow?
5. Which is your favorite post that you’ve written?
6. If you were an animal, what would you be?
7. Do you have any pet peeves?
8. A sentence or two describing a happy memory from your childhood.
9. Something that you learned recently.
10. What is your favorite season of the year?

1.I blog every day and I have been blogging for a year and a half

2. To do as God led me to do

3. Not really, I still write from my heart short stories and about my brother.

4. Humor and heart-felt

5.My dedication to my brother,  https://terry1954.wordpress.com/2012/09/26/dedicated-to-my-brother/

6. A pampered dog

7. Cracking your knuckles and busy signals on the phone

8. Playing with my dolls and going to Grandma’s house

9. Don’t be afraid to put your trust and needs in to God. He does answer. He will take care of me.

10. Fall

Thank-you so much Saritha for these awards. Friends, make sure to check out her blog. The link above is where you can find her.

My nominations for these two awards are:

viveka
mygulitypleasures.wordpress.com

Dr. Rex
hrexach.wordpress.com

whisperingleavesblog
whisperingleavesblog.wordpress.com

thehappyhugger
hopethehappyhugger.wordpress.com

bdh63
friendlyfairytales.wordpress.com

busymindthinking
busymindthinking.com

Barefoot Baroness
tonij.wordpress.com

soulfoodwords
soulfoodwords.wordpress.com

tersiaburger
tersiaburger.wordpress.com

becky6259
becky6259.wordpress.com