I feel fidgety
I feel my heart racing
My gut instinct
Is in fast mode
Is he dying
Here in front of me
Is this the moment
What should I do
What can I do
He and I just talked
About bright lights
And heaven’s door
Sitting in his
Recliner tremoring
Should I let him rest
I never knew what
Feeling alone
Was until now.
Forget my signature on this. Who cares……….You all know I wrote this just now with pain
Who I am 
♥♥♥ Do exactly what you’re doing now; hold his hands and keep telling him you love him, and that although his body was defeated by these terrible diseases, God will one day wipe them all away and he’ll be there to see it happen.
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You are on this journey with him holding him with love…that is all you can do..
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I agree with Kadeen. Do what you are doing, talk to him as you need to. Let him know you are there for him. That you will hold his hand. Let him know that you will pass him over to your mum when he is ready. I wish there was some other way I could help. Something I could say that would help. I’m sorry, Terry
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thanks my dearest friend
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Reblogged this on Dancing with Fireflies and commented:
I stumbled on this post today. It is powerful, thick with emotion, heartbreaking.
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thank you Crysta. I feel so honored you did this. Life is not easy and is getting harder each day as my brother reaches closer to heaven’s doors. hugs my friend
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I lost my brother last August to a motorcycle accident. I didn’t get to say goodbye, didn’t get to tell him I loved him, and have ached to have one more day to tell him that he was one of the most important people in my life. Your words moved me and were so powerful. He is lucky to have someone like you in his life and I am sure he’ll find ways to show you how much your love means to him always. Brothers don’t give up without a good fight.
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Oh Crysta, I am so sorry you did not get the opportunity to tell your brother how much you love him, but I believe and some don’t, but I do that he is watching over you and he knows your love for him. Giant hugs from someone who cares, me………….
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Hugs Terry! You and Al are in my prayers!
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thank you Loopy. God is guiding Al
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Hugs and prayers my friend from me to you and Al
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thank you Tersia, You are so kind
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God loves you and Al. I am praying. (((Hugs)))
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thank you Sparrow, hugs
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Let him go and find peace. You can do this……
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I have told him to go. He says he doesn’t want to leave me alone. I told him I will be alright and I will be along soon
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That’s awesome that he is worried about you! It says a lot about him.
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Keep being with him, and love him, nothing else you can do, trust God. Many hugs!
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I am. I have spent a lot of time sitting with him answering questions. hugs
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And pure love Terry. Thank you for sharing….and please do not ever stop.
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hello my friend. I love you stopping by and commenting. It means so much to me
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Terry – You are loving and never hesitate to share that love with Al. You are giving Al the best gift possible – you are at his side. He knows you and he trusts you. How I wish we could all be there to provide you comfort in the days ahead.
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you are here Sheri, you are here in spirit. thank you, I hope others notice how awesome you are!
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To reach the end … together with somebody we love is tough – but its all we can do – be there and give comfort, care and love … not easy I know – but there will always be the time, when we have to let go … and that time is hard to handle. You’re in my thoughts.
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I know you speak from personal experience. I wish neither you nor I had to understand this. hugs Vivi
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Terry, I think at times that it’s better not to understand everything – because trying to get our heads round things that we have no influance over what so ever, can drive us mental and cause so much more anxiety than we already have in situations like this. I had it so much eaiser than you – because it went so fast and with no suffering as such.
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We aren’t supposed to know everything, this is very true. I want things to be smooth like you had too
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