The day went by without struggle
My mind was placed on rewind
The Christmas tree stared back at me
Leaving nothing but memories of time.
I get lost in the sadness of life
Like the hurricane’s middle eye
I don’t want to be like this tomorrow
I don’t want to lay down and die.
It was easy to remember the pain
Of December first five years today
When I held my daddy in my arms
And he quietly passed away.
Now dealing with Al’s illness
Is nothing I would wish on you
It sucks me in like a funnel
And takes joy and turns colors of blue.
Today is a new day for me
taking my brother to lunch
I hope that he chats and has smiles
Instead of pain and a body that’s hunched.
I pray for my life to look brighter
I pray for the smiles to return
I don’t like how I have been feeling
I have to stop trying to yearn.
Life is what it is and I have to accept
I can’t keep looking back, but it’s hard
I need to look to my future
And play with the deck and each card.
Life is not always a joy as promised
It can be filled with bumps in the road
I carry pieces of each chapter
And now my body is on over load.
I pray for peace and comfort
I look at my God in the eye
I ask for another day
I promise I will also try.
To see the good in life, the past slip by, the sun shine bright, giving new fresh light, the love from you, shining through and through.
Thank you friends for bearing with me through my bumps in the road.
- Seasons of Clouds (4writersandreaders.wordpress.com)
- Christmas at Dell (radhikabauerle.wordpress.com)
- The Last Days (thedarkglobe.wordpress.com)
- Rain doesn’t interfere with lighting of Redding’s Christmas tree (redding.com)