I’m tired
For the first
Time I want to
Give up to give in
To fight no more
I feel powerless
I feel like God
Isn’t listening
Nor does he
Care anymore
I don’t hear or
Feel any presence
Is this what is to
Happen, you want my soul?
The system is
Against a peon
Like me who
Only has emotions
And words but no
Way around it
I am tired
And I feel
Like I am drowning
Do what you want
With me for I
Am too fired to fight
I am a snail
Crawling around
On the rocks
Waiting for the
Sea to suck me in
Terry Shepherd
05/18/2013
Who I am 
Remember, even a snail moves faster than some.
Remember, even a snail has a good time to come
Remember, even a snail can cheer people who are glum
Remember, even a snail can sing a tune or hum
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thanks my friend. that is cute
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🙂
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Terry, I understand you are tired and totally exhausted. You fight all the wars on your own … not fair.
You know my view on God and the more I read about what you have to go through nearly every day …
I’m truly worried about you, Terry and this with Al moving back home … your burden is going to be heavier. I know it’s what you both want, but please don’t forget Terry’s needs in all this.
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I could never do it alone, I know that now
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Okay … !! From where I’m sitting … you’re very much alone.
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I am all alone and it hurts so bad
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Terry, I know that you’re alone .. in this fight – plaese, don’t lose yourself in all this heavy carry on.
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When I am beat up emotionally I look to you and my blogging friends for a nice kick in the butt to lift me back up!!
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Very powerful. It is a confusing time you describe insecurities that we can all relate to.
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I am glad you understood Neeslewy
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sorry is not a big enough word for how i feel about what is happening with you. maybe this is what you need to for now. just let go and leave it up to God. sometimes we get in the way of what he wants thinking we know best.
you are in my heart and sending you big warm hug
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thanks my dear friend
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Hang in there Terry. This too will pass. Hugs.
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I wonder my friend, or will it just keep getting worse until he passes on
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When we are exhausted, physically and emotionally, it is so much harder to see things in perspective. Don’t despair, Terry. God is with you whether you see the manifestation of it or not. Just like we know the sun in there even when the dark clouds hide all evidence of it and the rain is falling hard. The sun has never left–we simply can’t see it with our natural eyes. We know it by faith and by past experience. What you need right now is physical rest. Sleep is healing.
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Yes I am going to bed early because I have to be back at the facility tomorrow. hugs my friend
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Don’t Quit
When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you’re trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low, and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit….
Rest if you must, but don’t you quit.
Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar.
So, stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit….
It’s when things go wrong that you musn’t quit.
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that is beautiful. I have never read this before. I will keep this with me. Thank you. You knew I needed to read this
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Snails teach us, to take life slowly, one day at a time. Enjoy today and fear not for tomorrow.
Love and hugs.
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thanks for reminding me Lady. You are a life savor!!!
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((Big hugs))
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I can truly empathize with your tiredness…for a totally different reason…I don’t have to take into consideration anyone else as you do. And if I had to deal with all the complexities feeling as I do now … I’m certain that I wouldn’t know how to do it… And yet often strength comes when we don’t know the hows …only that it has to be by the grace of God if/when it does…Take care of yourself… Diane
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I don’t know how I keep going at times either. Maybe you are right, it is through God’s help. hugs Diane
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I think you will appreciate this song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wU3qgPn3bGA
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i have listened to it five times in a row already. thank you so much. It is so me in the song
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You’re Welcome!
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I know that feeling during my prayers and experiences
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I wish none of us had to experience problems in life, but then we would become useless to ourselves and others if we didn’t have trials
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I think so
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Don’t give up, you have more strength than you know! {{hug}}}
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well things better hurry up and change because I am getting tired from fighting
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I don’t blame you. It’s exhausting. And I admire your ability and willingness to share the feelings. I know you know this too shall pass. But it makes sense to feel discouraged sometimes. Hang it there, gal!
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It must going to get worse before better, because it was worse today
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Always remember that God is always on your side, the enemy knows your weaknesses and feasts on them. He torments your mind and poisons your thoughts. He makes you doubt and you can’t let him win! Pray and stay strong my friend, it’s a hard life. Know that God loves you more than you’ll ever know.
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I am stronger tonight than yesterday, but I need to keep plugging this in my brain, your words, thanks so much for being an excellent and caring friend
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O how I I know how you feel Terry, but I know you have the power and the strenghts to go on, only sometimes we can’t feel it that way. Hang in there. Big Hugs 🙂
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